4 Complicated Stars!!!

I was pretty sure I knew what I was getting when I went into this book.  Angst and heartbreak and a love triangle.  He's dying from cancer and wants her to have a baby, and there's a best friend in the mix.  I grabbed a tissue box and settled in.  But wait - this story wasn't even close to what I thought it would be!

I'm not sure I'll do the complexity of the story justice, but here we go!!  We are dropped into the lives of the Aweseome Threesome of Nirvaan, Simeen (husband and wife) and their best friend Zayaan.  Nirvaan has terminal cancer.   His last wish is for Simeen to have their baby, and he has a Titanic Bucket List he wishes to complete in his last year.  Zayaan comes to lives with them to help him live his life his last year of life until the very end.  The three of them have a history - friends for a very long time.  We find out that it was originally Zayaan and Simeen who were in love and planning to spend their lives together, but a very tragic thing occurred, which Simeen kept to herself.  She walked out of their lives, thinking it for the best, then later reconnected with Nirvaan, who she asked to marry her.  Cue many years later and these three have a very complex dynamic between them.  The story unfolds, and we get to learn of Simeen's secret.  And it turns out that one of Nirvaan's greater wishes is for Zayaan and Simeen to be together once he is gone, so they can take care of each other.

This is NOT a story of your typical love triangle.  It is a story of three people making up one great love story.  Unconventional....sure.  But this is the truly the definition of the sum of the parts being greater than the whole.  I was truly moved, and it challenged me to think outside the norm of two people being in love and making a life.  In their case, it took all three of them to make this thing they called life and love work...for them!!  What they had, as strange as some people might consider it, was perfectly imperfect.

I finished this only because I wanted to know how all the loose ends got tied up. I did not like Simi and felt Nirvaan deserved better. Zai needed to leave them alone. I got this book from NetGalley in exchange for a fair and honest review.

An emotionally complex story, Simi Desai latches on to a friendship with Nirvaan and Zayaan after her parents die.  The trio begin the friendship in Surat, India, but Simi pulls away after a traumatic experience.  After marrying Nirvaan, without telling either man the truth, tensions remain as Zayaan comes to Carmel, California to help Nirvaan get through cancer treatment.  Nirvaan tries to plan for Simi’s future without him, as strong emotions and families from three different backgrounds, clash.  A story of love, friendship, and choices, I recommend this book.

My Last Love Story, Falguni Kothari

Review from Jeannie Zelos book reviews

Genre: Women's fiction

Gosh what a book this was. Its a romance...and yet it isn't. Its full of sadness, and yet a core of happiness persists. The characters are like-able and yet possess some very dislike-able traits, and vice versa, even those I dislike had redeeming facets. Its a real conundrum of a story and its very hard to review. 
Did I like it? Yes, and yet there were parts I felt really dragged, times when I just wanted Something, Anything to actually Happen. 

I felt for Nirvaan, dying far too young after a years long struggle with cancer. That's tough for anyone to face, and yet he does it with dignity. However he's also pretty controlling, pulling everyone's strings to make what he wants happen. Is he being selfish? Or is he just doing what he believes is the best for those he loves? There's no doubt for me that he loves Simi and Zayaan, but does that mean he knows what's best for them? 
Simi loves him, and yet despite the way she so obviously pushes him away now we know she also still really has strong feelings for Zayaan, perhaps still loves him too. She's had a difficult time since her parents were killed, and still carries a heavy secret that affects all three major characters. 
Zayaan, he's something of an enigma, I can feel he loves Nirvaan, and it seems he still has feelings, strong feelings for Simi. and why not? They were going to marry at one time, until they all went in different directions.
 
Its a hard story, seeing Nirvaan face up to dying, being with him when he faces yet more treatment. Of course his family would give all their money - and they have lots - to have him healthy again, and try to persuade him to go to a very expensive private facility that promises a cure. 
Sadly, having had cancer myself, I know too well how these ar sehole people prey on loved ones, persuade them that they can do the impossible, promise a cure that just isn't possible. Cancer can behave weirdly, go into remission for no obvious reason and the odd occasion that happens they take credit, ignore the 99.9% of patients who haven't been "cured", blame their lack of commitment etc. 
Gah, I'll step off the soapbox now. It just makes me so angry that people get used when their at their lowest. 

Among that sadness though their are moments of light, reminders of the happy life they all led as children,  snippets of humour, and wonderful sections like the camping/hiking trip with the seal pup. Those little touches of light lift what could be a dragging down, melancholy novel. 
I enjoyed the cultural side too, where they talk about religious differences, where we learn about how they do and don't stick with their heritage, where the food and habits are described. I love that feeling of India even though its set in US, and found this part really interesting. 

Overall I'm kind of conflicted. I enjoyed reading this but didn't love it, wasn't gripped to the page desperate to know what happens next. 
It gave me lots to think about. Would I have reacted as Simi did when faced with the same situation? Was what Nayaan did controlling, or was he just doing what he knew Simi wanted to do but wouldn't left to herself? Was Zayaan sitting on the fence, here with his best friend and his wife, the girl he once intended to marry, when waiting back in UK were the rest of his family, and his girlfriend, who he knew his mother was expecting to become his bride? Was his mother really such a bad woman or was she just being what she felt was a good mother? 
The questions raised for me spiraled long after I'd finished reading. 

It's not a book I'd reread, and there were sections that just draaagged, especially when we were seeing Simi's thoughts. Usually I like that, gives me an idea of how a character is really feeling, but for me her internal musings became long dull monologues at times. 

Stars: four, an interesting story, full of detail giving me lots to think about but at times it was so slow it was hard going, and that brought it down from a five for me.

ARC supplied for review purposes by Netgalley and Publishers