Have you ever come across a book you knew by strictly reading the title it screamed at you to READ!
This is one such book in which everything about it was like fitting the missing piece into the puzzle.
I knew personally for years that I married what I learned, knew, felt over the years.
How one is treated in childhood has a direct correlation to what they expect, how they're perceived, how they are accepted into the world later into adulthood.
Having married a malignant narcissist of an 11 yr marriage made me question everything that came before -- you know those warning signs-- and how they were missed.
But more importantly why I felt less deserving than what was provided to me and why I settled for less. Was it low self worth? Was it low self esteem? Was it something more?
This book answers those questions and offers a hands on approach to rebuilding and recovery from that toxicity.
My parents were for intense purposes both narcissistic. They never showed love or affection. It was a military style dictatorship without response. You simply did as you were told.
Scapegoaters, golden children, family outcasts ...Yes! Ring any bells?!
If you're in the same situation fear not because you're life was most likely built on fears, scapegoating, smear campaigns, isolation, gaslighting, manipulation, and feelings of inadequacy long into adult hood.
So welcome aboard this devalue and destructive cycle train that makes many stops along the way. Discarding is no more as we learn how to retrain the mind to know our worth, value our beliefs, build stronger boundaries, and welcome healthy relationships.
For many years I was downcasts, told I never measured up, never was applauded for any accomplishments which led to feelings of seeking more. Seeking love, seeking attention, seeking acceptance, seeking validation even now nearly 50 years later.
YES 50 years and still trying to find that magic fit to my parents ways.
Rejected kids, leaving feeling lonely , and without connections . Parents who were self occupied and egotistical who were limited in empathy.
I'll never forget when my ex husband said, let them fall or strike that tree on their bike as they'll learn not to do it again. What?! Yes, this is mentioned in this book.
Conflict, mockery, lack of emotional intimacy leads to anxiety, distress, untrustworthiness.
"They treat children in such superficial, coercive, and judgemental ways, that they undermine their children's ability to trust their own thought and feelings, thereby restricting the development of their children's intuition, self guidance, efficacy, and autonomy."
You shut self down to not upset the parent.
These parents often ignore boundaries, feelings, individuality, opinions of their own children.
Adaptation is only permitted by the child to the adult's wishes as the child's needs are secondary.
Blame, shame, guilt, is the million dollar key to how this is all accomplished and those who've endured this over the years know it all too well.
Your thoughts should reflect theirs . No room for difference of opinion.
These parents are what we call "kill joys" as they ruin every special moment .
Sadist comes to mind as they take control and tease even joke upon someone else's misery and pain.
They want their children to feel powerless, dependent, desperate, and trapped.
There was one particular story that mentioned the almighty belt and if you squirmed you were beaten or sent to room and it brought back flooding memories.
Healthy people consider other people's circumstances. They don't expect you to drop everything and attend to them.
It's and was EXHAUSTING! That walk on eggshells , fight or flight, anxious moments always.
Falsifying information about you is just part of the power struggle. As they'll take credit for your work and may even talk nicely about you but never to you.
They may complain to you but never receptive to your ideas in assisting them with their own problems.
The famous 'get over it', it wasn't that bad, move on, gone with the wind and more are all part of the manual to manipulation.
Egocentric, authoritarian, dismissive, distant, and cold with terrible mood swings? Sounds familiar?
You've spent years trying to acquire back your power, your control, your right to feel how you feel and yet you may have still fallen short.
So this is ideal for that reason as it showcases what to do and what not to do to be authentically you and I loved every bit of it!