Most guys have moments when they wonder if they’ve been drinking too much — if they’ve been losing control a bit too much a bit too often. Libraries have been written about addiction and recovery, but it’s rare that you come across a piece that examines vice outside of that context. Here’s a real clear-eyed look at the impulses that make us overindulge — the voids we’re all trying to fill, the hours we’re all hoping will pass more quickly — and what convinces us to regain control. It’s one man’s experience that anyone who’s ever looked in the mirror and sworn he’d never do that again can relate to. It is a picture of vice for the modern era.