4.5☆ Once again Scarlett Cole has written a brilliant story. That sucked me in from the start. As Nikon comes face to face with the only girl he has ever loved and tries to prove that he really has changed and that he'll do anything to atone for the mistakes he once made. Yet there is also much more to this story as Nikon the eldest of the Preload guys is struggling to deal with his past and with being the glue that holds everyone together. Then there is Jenny who is back in Toronto for the first time since Nikon cheated on her. Not to mention the rest of the band who are as complex and wonderful as ever, especially Lennon. Whose story is still to come and based on hints in about him during this story I really can't wait. As for Nikon Rebuilt I would happily recommend it to others. As it really was a brilliant read.

***5 ‘Demovation’ Stars***

I was all kinds of excited to get my hands on this book and I knew that once I started it there was a huge chance that I wouldn’t be able to put it down. So, I waited for the perfect time to start it, which of course never came because life always gets in the way, and finally decided to just ‘do it’ and about 2 - 2.5 hrs later I was done. I DEVOURED this baby. I knew I had things to do (#workthingsbutshhhhdonttell), but I became so invested in Nikan, Jenny and their journey that I just couldn’t make myself put the Kindle to the side and wait. Their story was everything I didn’t know I wanted out of a second chance romance and loved how everything played out and came together for the characters.

I adored Nikan and Jenny. Both have been through hell and back, and though they may have stumbled more times than they’d like to admit, they have come out of it stronger than they could ever believe possible. They both have huge, though bruised hearts and I loved how they both made it a priority to give back and help kids who happen to be in the same situations they had been in.

Their second chance romance was not what I expected it to be, well not fully, but I loved the direction it went in. It was emotionally charged, but it never dove fully into the agnst arena because both Nikan and Jenny actually acted like the mature adults they are. There was a bunch of push and pull going on, but there was also a lot of communication which helped temper the drama. But there was also that spark between them that showed if the trust that was broken could begin to be repaired then they had an good chance that spark would become more than either could ever hope for.

It’s no secret that I’m a fangirl of Scarlett Cole’s books in general. I enjoy her writing style and voice and how I always find myself hooked by the words she lays down. Part of my enjoyment was catching up with the rest of the Preload guys and their women as well as Ellen and Maisy and getting to know the the boys who now live in the home. I love how the family dynamic jumps off the page when they are interacting, but also liked seeing how that dynamic has changed as each band member has found his own HEA. Lennon is the last man standing and that little tease of his book at the end was all kinds of WTF?!? So...how many more days will I be waiting for his book to drop into my hands???

Wow, this book! Second chance romances are not usually my go to reads but Scarlett Cole is one of my instant one click authors and I was not disappointed! I loved reading Nikan and Jenny’s story, there was so much heartbreak and history there, it was so beautifully done, I think I have a new favourite of the Preload gang! But I want more! The wait is torture!

I honestly could gush for days about how fantastic I think this book and series are. All I will add is that if you haven't started reading every Scarlett Cole book yet....get to it. You will be so happy you did. Since first discovering her I have anxiously awaited every new release and Nikan's story is the latest. All these characters are beautifully flawed and their stories will rip all the emotions straight from your heart. Nikan and Jenny are so accepting of one another and their story is beautiful even with their struggles. This one should top everyone's must read list! I highly recommend it.

I've fallen in love with Ms. Cole's books and her characters last year, when I accidentally stumbled upon the last book from her Second Circle Tattoos series. After reading the others, I met the characters that would play a big part in her Preload series.

After reading about Jordan and Elliott, I didn't know how I would feel about Nik. You see, I hate it when characters cheat. I don't like reading about it. I hope you've read the previous books in the series and you know what I'm referring to: Nik had cheated on Jenny, the love of his life, on their very first tour. That happened eight years earlier and well, the wound was still as fresh as ever for Jenny.

And I get it, I do. I don't blame her for not wanting to see him, hear from him. But of course that, with her return, things were bound to change, they were bound to see one another. Plus, Nik is determined to win her back, come hell or high water.

So far, so good.

While it did have feels to it - my heart broke for Nik - the grudge Jenny was holding got old. We know it happened, we get she was hurt but there was too much emphasis placed on it. She couldn't make up her mind, whether she wanted him or not. She was confusing me and I ended up skipping parts. I really wanted to love this one, I did but something was missing. Also, the guys got on my nerves. The only one I empathized with was Nik. Ironic, isn't it? But I guess I could understand why he did what he did.

Anyway, I know many others will love this book, so this is just my own personal opinion. I voluntarily agreed to read an early copy of this book and my rating is 3 stars.

Nikan Rebuilt by Scarlett Cole
Book #3: Preload Series
Source: Netgalley
My Rating: 5/5 stars

I am never going to get tired of this series and assigning 5 stars to Scarlett Cole’s books! Nikan Rebuilt isn’t just another book in the series, the next installment, but a fantastic read about a broken man looking for something he’s been able to give so many others in his life for so many years.

From the moment the Preload boys came together as friends in their group home, Nikan has been the center of the group, the one who mediates the disputes, the one who brings peace, and keeps the boys in line and on track. From the very beginning, Nikan has taken his “mother hen” role seriously, but lately, it has become more exhausting, more trying, and he simply doesn’t know how to tell his family he’s had enough.

As Nikan is struggling with his present, his past also come screaming back in the form of the only woman he has ever loved, Jenny. After a seriously ill-conceived incident in their youth, Nikan lost Jenny and for nearly a decade has had no contact with her. Jenny’s reentry into Nikan’s world hasn’t turned it upside at all, but presented him with an opportunity to set things right and win back the woman he simply can’t live without. But, like everything else in Nikan’s life, wooing Jenny is going to take time, effort, and sincere dedication to the task at hand. Like everything else in Nikan’s life that he’s earned, the time, effort, and dedication are absolutely worth it!

Wanting and needing Jenny are like wanting and needing his next breath and Nikan throws all that he is into making up for his mistakes and apologizing to her. With every interaction/encounter they deal with a bit more of their shared past, the hurts that have brought them to the present, and the possibility of a real future together. Jenny is the only thing that truly makes sense to Nikan in his current state and when things go sideways with her, yet again, the volcano that is Nikan and has been dormant for so many years erupts. The explosion is incredible to behold and takes everyone in Nikan’s life by surprise. The thread that has always held the group together has come unraveled and if some serious adjustments aren’t made, Nikan is prepared to leave it all behind.

The Bottom Line: I totally appreciate there are others in this series beyond the Preload boys, but the reads always have been and always will about the boys for me. Seriously, Scarlett Cole, what happened to you in your life to be able to write such damaged, broken, near-defeated yet kind, caring, and somehow still emotionally available characters? That is one hell of a combination and Nikan seems to epitomize the description. From the moment this book opens, you expect a spectacular explosion from Nikan and he certainly doesn’t disappoint. What’s even better than the explosion? The love, friendship, and compassion found among his friends to hear Nikan out and adjust to help their friend. What could have been horribly selfish behavior is instead a pure moment of what family is all about and that is why I continue to adore this series. I can’t make you read Scarlett Cole, but I can tell you she’s on my top ten list every year and so, so worth your dollars and cents! Go forth and one-click, dear reader, it will be worth it 😊

The Preload series has been one of those that breaks your heart and makes you thankful for what you have no matter how bad you think you have it. The boys all had horrific lives and ended up in a group home run by a woman who had love to give and would do anything to make these boys feel a part of something. This is Nikan’s story and as being the eldest of the guys he was the one who pulled everyone together so that these boys could be men who had something to hold onto…the family they built together.

Nikan had been the force behind all of the younger boys and he was lucky enough to have met Jenny who happened to come from a group home herself not far from his. He was her knight in shining armor trying to protect her from the kids who bullied her not know everything this poor little girl had gone through. Overtime their friendship grew into something beautiful and full of love with planning their lives together. Jenny was behind Nikan all the way so when the band first headed out on tour she was totally blindsided by Nikan’s actions. So eight years later they meet once again and neither has ever stopped thinking of the other and all that they had even if the hurt had won out.

This is another of a fantastic story in the Scarlett Cole series Preload. Each and every one of these stories has been beyond what a good book brings to the table. If you haven’t read this series yet, do. You won’t be able to get through any of them without shedding a tear and making you realize how fortunate you really are.

I received this book as an ARC for a freely given and honest review.

Nikan rebuilt was given to me free in exchange for an honest review.

After reading the others in the series the two you most wonder about are Nikan and Lennon. Nikan is the peacekeeper the older brother they all look to to keep things peaceful and happy. But what jappens when the life of the peacekeeper is up in the air and a mess?

Jenny is a character who was hurt horribly by the love of her life (Nikan) years ago. Now they are put into proximity of each other and the love they shared never went away. These two are going to have to knock it all down and rebuild to survive.

But when everything is bared. Will they survive ?

I loved this story, each book I read in this series delivers an insight into the characters that is both emotional and realistic. I feel like I know these guys with each book I read. The writing makes me feel like I can picture certain scenes in my mind and I know that I will be rereading my favourite parts of the story again and again. This book features Nikan and Jenny, Nik messed up when they were younger causing Jenny to leave. Now years later she is back and Nik will do everything in his power to show her the man he is today is not the same man who hurt her all those years ago. This book takes you through all the emotions, and alongside stellar writing is another winner. I only found Scarlett Cole's books this year but beyond all shadow of a doubt she has become one of my auto buy authors and I hope to be reading her stories for many years to come. I highly recommend this series and am already counting down the days to reading Lennon's story.

Sexy. Classy. Flashy. Trashy. Nikan Rebuilt is everything you would expect of a Scarlet Cole novel. It's dramatic, romantic and shocking. Nik and Jenny are the product of a storm, made up of lust and mistrust. She was the girl who needed to be rescued. He was the boy determined to be her savior. In the end, each had to learn to fight their own battles. There is truth in each line and scenario that makes up the inspirational tale that is Nikan and Jenny. Emotion paints a vivid watercolor of some of life's hardest moments and hope supplies the courage to overcome the tragedies.

I have so much love for the guys of Preload. Each of them are so broken to some degree due to their childhood and as they find love, they find the strength to fight the demons that still haunt them in order to be better men for the women who love them.

Nikan Rebuilt is a second chance love story for Nik and Jenny. A young love that now has a chance to build stronger foundation to make it to forever.

Nik is the oldest of the group and was the one to guide and protect them when they joined the group home. Over the years he’s become the big brother to father figure and has been the glue that kept them together. But in devoting all those years to supporting his brothers and helping them through whatever they need he’s lost sight of taking care of himself...and everyone has a tipping point.

With years away, Jenny has gained strength and confidence in spite of the heartbreak she left with. Determined to fulfill her dreams in social work, she made it through and is now back to see her dreams come true.

The emotion and turmoil, guild and hurt these characters went through - I was there with them...feeling all of it. I love this series and each installment just makes me love it more. I am REALLY looking forward to Lennon’s story. He’s been the quite and very mysterious of the brothers and after the revelations in this book, I have a feeling his story is going to break me. But I’m sure it’s going to build me back up as he finds his peace and the love he’s meant to have - just like his brothers did.

Nikan is the eldest member of the band Preload, always looking after his band mates and putting their needs first. However, he is not without his flaws and one mistake years ago cost him the love of his life. Now back in town, Nikan sees his opportunity to reconnect with Jenny and to show her he is a changed man, one who can be there for her too, if only she can allow him back into her life and put the past behind her.

Nikan Rebuilt is a sweet second chance love story, very emotional at times. I love Jenny, such a strong determined character who has overcome so much in her life. Although I felt Nikan did apologise a little too much for his mistake, I admired his strength, his surprising vulnerability, and the way he steadfastly refused to give up on their relationship. Beautifully written, the inclusion of the other band mates and boys who live in the group home adds even more depth to the story and shows you what love and family are all about. A poignant, gripping, sexy romance, I enjoyed very much.

This book is essentially a second chance rockstar romance, but the heroine's background set it apart from many other similar stories in the subgenre. Her childhood years were spent in a cult founded by her psychotic father. A sick man who would ultimately go to prison for urging members to poison themselves-including her own mother. How do you come back from something like that? How do you go on to live a healthy and happy life after witnessing the toxic and damaging things that were a part of her every day life? Somehow she retained her spirit, her optimism, and her desire to help others. She had a warm and loving personality, despite seeing a very ugly side of the world and that's one of the things I liked most about her.

Jenny met Nik as a teen at his group home, and he became her saving grace, her first love, and eventually her ruin. Nik wasn't just the man she pinned her hopes and dreams on for her future. He and his bandmates were her only family. He was her everything, holding her fragile trust and and years worth of pain in his calloused hands. He was the one person she thought would never wound her, and in the end she realized he was the only one with the power to hurt her the most. He betrayed her when he was on the cusp of fame, and she disappeared from his life for eight years.

Time hadn't eased the regret for either of them. But unlike Jenny, who was forced to see his exploits on the cover of every gossip mag, he would give anything to have the chance to see her face again. To make amends and feel whole again. Fame hasn't filled the emptiness that he's unable to fill. When he returns back to his hometown, he's at a crossroads in his life. As the oldest of the group, he's always been the self-sacrificing member. Doing whatever it took to keep his brothers happy and at peace. But at what cost? The realization that he's simply going through the motions for their benefit is a hard truth to swallow. He thought he'd be sorting through his thoughts back home, but every one of them scattered the moment he unexpectedly stood in front of Jenny. The girl he let slip through his fingers.

Jenny rebuilt her life from the ground up in their years apart. She's now a social worker, and trying to make a difference in young lives that mirrored her own at that age. She wants no part of Nik, and forgiveness isn't going to be an easy sell for him. I have to say, I respected her for that. A lot. She didn't set out to punish him, but she made him work for the privilege to be a part of her life again. She made him earn her trust and her heart, as he unequivocally needed to. Their reconnection was gradual, and an exploration of healing. It wasn't immediate, or based on lust.

Normally I would have shied away from reading this because of the reason for their separation. Scarlett Cole proved that there's always an exception to the rule with Nikan Rebuilt. She made me a believer in Nik and Jenny's relationship, and the possibility of a brighter, happier future. I think if I had read their break up (and his screw up) in the present tense rather than a recollection of it happening years before, it may have been a different story. Knowing that Nik was genuinely remorseful and humble in his bid to win her back was another big plus.

Overall, this was an excellent addition to the series, and my favorite of the two I've read so far. If you're a fan of rocker romances, or second chance stories with unique elements, this could be the book for you.

4.5 emotional, second-chance stars

I have eagerly read all of Scarlett Cole’s books, and I know that she can bring the feels, but OMG, she really brought the feels with this one, and I loved it! A gorgeously emotional second-chance-romance between fascinatingly complicated Nikan and his first love, Jenny, and the story of a man who is struggling to figure out who he is. It’s a beautifully written book that I couldn’t put down, and I absolutely loved it.

Nikan is the guitarist for metal band, Preload, a group of guys that came together in a group home, traumatised from heartbreaking childhoods but who found and saved each other and became closer than brothers. The band went on to become world-famous, and the boys achieved success they never could have dreamed of. Now they are slowly achieving personal happiness, with the boys falling one by one to women who are completing them.

Nik is the self-designated father-figure to the boys. He’s the one that smooths out difficulties, who makes sure everybody is where they need to be, and the one that the boys turn to when they need a voice of reason. But he’s been acting in the role for so long, that he’s forgotten who he is. And watching his brothers find love is making him feel the loss of the only woman he’s ever loved. And then suddenly, she is back.

Jenny was also raised in a group home, and from the moment that she and Nikan met as teenagers, they were it for each other. They became friends, they fell in love and they were soulmates in every sense of the word, knowing that they would be together forever and dreaming of the future they would have. It was perfect until Nikan made a mistake and in one disastrous night, ruined everything. Now Jenny is back in town to manage the very group home where the boys were raised, and from the moment they see each other again, all of those feelings which never went away, are brought right back to the surface in a gut-churning reunion.

“Don’t,” Nik said, stepping closer to her. “Don’t reduce our history to a five-second dismissal when I haven’t seen you in nearly a decade.”
…“You broke me into a million pieces I have never been able to put back together properly, and I hate you for that.”


OMG, I love an emotional love story, and Nik and Jenny’s is full of feels! Even after being apart for eight years it is clear that they still love each other, but there is so much hurt between them. Nik did wrong, he knows he did wrong, and he is desperate to make up for it. But Jenny has put up walls to protect her heart after Nik left her so broken, and she is fighting hard to keep him away. He has a battle on his hands, but it is one he is determined to win, and OMG, I loved it!

“I let you walk away without a fight when I was a messed-up twenty-three-year-old who hadn’t figured out his place in the world. I can wait as long as you need to get your hear around the fact that I’m back.”

“I don’t think you realize that you ruined me for everybody else. Including you,” she said. “I can’t do falling in love. I can’t do depending on someone else ever again.
Nik placed his hand on her cheek. “I get it. That’s why I am here. I know I’ve got an uphill battle to get you to trust me again, but I’m ready to do the work. It’s going to take time, but I’m going to show you that it’s okay to depend on me because I’ll be there for you a thousand times over.”


I could feel the depth of the connection between these two, their love for each other, and just how torn up they were over the destruction of everything between them. I loved their honesty, the way they hold nothing back, and Nik’s commitment to making amends and getting his girl back and all of the swoony declarations that go along with that.

“I don’t want what we were to be the sum total of everything we ever add up to.”


*dreamy sigh*

It’s not an easy ride for them, but I loved every sweet, funny, painful, heartbreaking and heartachingly romantic moment of their reconnection as they finally faced the past and opened themselves up to each other all over again.

“So where do we go from here?”…
“That’s up to you, sweetheart. I’m yours, Jenny. I always have been. The question is, are you still mine?”


It’s beautiful, and I could feel every emotion the two of them went through, and I was completely swept up in all that they felt for each other. And the sexy time! OMG, it’s hot, intense and passionate, and a blistering reflection of all of those feels.

“You feel so good, every inch of you. You want to be reminded just how good we were together? Then feel this. Feel how hard I am for you, listen to how breathless you make me, know that no matter how long tonight lasts, you own me.” He pressed himself into the very sweet spot between her thighs, and she arched her back in response. “Tell me you want me to make love to you. Tell me you want this, Jenny, because I want you more than I want my next breath.”


*Phew!*

Running alongside the romance is Nikan’s personal journey, and I loved the complexity of his character. His life has been the band and his brothers for so long, he’s been the glue that holds them all together, and it has taken its toll on him and he no longer even remembers who he is. Now, with Jenny coming back into his life, Nik has reached the point where he needs to take a step back from the co-dependency of his brothers and figure out what he wants. It’s an emotional journey for him, and some of those the scenes with the boys were heartwrenching, but it’s beautifully written and, again, I could feel what he was going through. It ties in beautifully with the love story, and with Jenny dealing with her own issues from the past, and it works to progress their story as they finally get the chance to be there for each other after so many years of coping on their own.

Of course the Preload boys (and their girls) all a big part of the story, and I loved getting to catch up with them. I also loved the additional bonus of getting to see a new generation of boys growing up in the group home, which was both heartbreaking and sweet, and the connection that the Preload boys shared with the kids. And though this book stands alone as its own story, with the tensions that unfolded among the group, and the changes that are happening for them, I cannot WAIT for Lennon’s book up next!

Scarlett Cole, every time you do this to me!

For those who've not read the previous books in this series, Preload is a metal band formed by guys who grew up in a Canadian children's home. Because it's Scarlett Cole each of the guys has had a dreadful childhood, abuse of all kinds, witnesses to terrible acts etc and Nikan is no exception.

The child of a mixed marriage between a First Nation man and a white woman he has always felt alienated and troubled by his heritage. His mother was brutally murdered, and Nikan badly wounded, by a jealous neighbour who couldn't bear the thought of her with another man. Nikan is in love with Jenny, another child from the foster home/ childcare system, who he met when they were young teenagers but he threw it all away when he slept with another woman on the band's first tour.

Eight years later Jenny has returned to Toronto to act as temporary manager of the children's home that Nikan and his fellow band members last lived in while the current manager recovers from breaking her leg. She too has had a deeply traumatic childhood and has never forgotten Nikan.

At first I had my doubts about this book, Nikan was soooo needy and so insistent that Jenny had to move on and forgive him for his infidelity, I just wanted to shake him and shout that it's not so simple. But as always Scarlett Cole draws me in and as Nik starts to understand how his past has influenced his present and how there are parallels between his relationship with the band and Jenny's relationship with him he became a more sympathetic character in my eyes.

As the book drew to its explosive conclusion in true Scarlett fashion I was on the edge of my seat as the tension mounted. Once again, Scarlett packs more plot, more angst, more life into just 260 pages than some authors can manage with twice that much. I loved it!

4.5 Stars

Finally, the story of Nikan. I was crazy about his book since the first book in this series, so when he showed up on my kindle I won my day.

Those who follow the series Preload this author already knows a little bit of theses guys.But to summarize Nikan and Jenny met as teenagers, both had a similar life (both lived in temporary homes) and fell in love,until Nikan reached the success with your band and ended up making a mistake that led to the end of their relationship and Jenny leaving without a trace.Now Jenny's back, as the interim Director of the temporary home to Nikan grew and he is not willing to let her out of your life once again.

The story of Nikan and Jenny is a beautiful journey about two people, giving a second chance that feeling that you're still alive.I always say that second chances are my favorite subject and I love seeing how the author Scarlett Cole led the story of these two, I found beautiful and realistic, made me hope and for the love that was there to win, doubts and regrets.

It was great to be able to monitor Nikan and Jenny both now different people browsing and trying to see if they still had a chance. It was nice to see that you didn't try to get Nikan apologize for your mistake, and Jenny willing to forgive.It was good to see the remains of the boys and their relationships, as well as doubts about your career and the Nikan relationship of all with children who once were they living in foster care and trying to create a safe home and a family for them.


Scarlett Cole did a great job with Nikan Rebuilt, and the journey of Nikan and Jenny trying to rebuild a relationship.It's a sweet, romantic book, easy and quick to read and now there's only one more to say goodbye this class that kept me company over the last few months. The book of Lennon, the most mysterious of all .

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Scarlett Cole has written an incredible book that really opened my eyes to some of the struggles that people have faced in their life. This was so much more then just a love story between two incredible characters. It was about the pain of the past that happened many years ago and the way that the pain it has on people in the future. I loved the way the author was able to write about this and the way that she she put so much emotion into her story.

I absolutely adored Jenny and loved the way that she looked after others. I really thought she was a compassionate and kind person who has been through a lot fo pain her life. I really enjoyed the way that she cared for the boys in her care.

Nikan I absolutely loved and fell for him from the very first part of there story. He was incredible throughout the story and loved the way that he owned up to his mistakes and worked to make himself a better man. I really felt for him with the things that happened to him when he was young and I loved the way that he tried to help other kids that are in a similar situation that he was in.

Nikan Rebuilt is the third book in the preload series and is about the second chance romance between Nikan and Jenny who have both experienced a lot of pain in their life.

This would have to be one of my favourite books that I have read so far this year and I absolutely loved it. The author did an amazing job and I cant wait to read the next book in the Preload series.

"Are we trying to make something from the pieces of us?"

Oh my, what these broken boys do to me... I knew going in they were going to break my heart. Being raised in a group home meant that they had a rough start in life, but finding each other guaranteed they had a family for life. But just because they had each other's back didn't mean that their pain is erased. They all have demons chasing them into adulthood and need a strong supportive woman to love them. As each of the band members get their own book, I decide that rocker is my fave, until I read the next book. I love the series more and more with each one, and the closer I get to the last one the slower I read as if I can delay the inevitable conclusion. Like the song goes, 'I'mma take it slow just as fast as I can'. I have a feeling the author has saved the most broken, bad boy for last and Lennon is gonna break my heart...

Nikan is a guitarist and backup vocalist for Preload, and one of metal's favorite bad boys. He's also the glue that holds the band together. Having arrived at the group home first, he took each of the others under his wing as they arrived. Making himself their protector and problem solver. Too bad he couldn't solve his own problems. I had heard references to Jenny in the previous books in the series. I knew that she was his high school sweetheart and his biggest regret. All the guys know what happened, and they never let him forget it was his fault that he lost her. It was only me that didn't have a clue what happened and I couldn't wait to find out. And when I did, I agreed with them. But by then it was too late, I already loved him, flaws and all.

Jenny has been MIA for eight long years. She disappeared when Nikan broke her heart and crushed her dreams of forever. She tried to forget him and move on. But the media attention he received made it kind of impossible to forget him. Each glimpse of his scandalous behavior just deepened the wound. She wasn't enough for him...

If it wasn't for his brothers, his self-destructive behavior and downward spiral might have taken him down. But they needed him, and he couldn't let them down. He couldn't deny it when he was told, You are the patriarch of this family you created." He had a responsibility to them that meant he had to keep himself together, so he could keep them together.

Jenny knew that she risked running into him by coming back to town. She was offered a career opportunity that she just couldn't pass up. But she didn't expect to see him so soon and without warning. She realized immediately that he still lit her fire, and the feeling was mutual. But she resisted, not wanting to subject her already broken heart to any further damage. She hoped to avoid him indefinitely, but he wouldn't give up, determined to prove that he had changed. "It wasn't that she forgave Nik per se, but she realized that hating him was taking too much energy."

Would she give him another chance? Was she just opening herself up to more devastation? "What does it mean to be sorry?" Both of them have very painful pasts that make it hard for them to trust. But they also have a history together and a proven ability to sooth each other's soul. How broken is too broken and how many chances are too many? Can trust be restored if love was never lost?

What an emotional journey the author took me on. Not only did I fall deeper for the Preload band family, I also fell for the boys in the group home that the band still supports. They never forgot their beginnings and the place that brought them together, so they reach out and mentor the young boys, giving back. If I start a petition for the author to add more band members so the series can continue indefinitely, will you sign it? I'm suffering withdrawal already at the thought of it being over. I'm already jonesing for Lennon's story. The line forms here...

I have loved this series but to be honest I am on the fence with this book.
This is a second chance romance. Nik and Jenny.
They meet up again after breaking up 8 years ago I think it was.
I love second chance romance but the reason they broke up was he cheated.
I hate cheating.
There are circumstances that some will feel explain the cheating and he had changed, a lot. He really is a different person now.
My issue is I felt he is older now so he has had his time living his rock star lifestyle and now his mates are settling down and he's getting older he doesn't feel the same about the revolving bedroom door.
Also he cheated once, she left, he really immerses himself in the rock star life style, so he sleeps with random women, getting up to all sorts but of course he still loves Jenny.
There are excuses for this, he's gone out of control, he's lost his sense of purpose, but of course he still loves Jenny, sleeping with half the state thinking of her. Ew.
There are a few good things, one is obviously he has been involved, if we can use that term with other women but Jenny has also had other relationships, so that was a refreshing change to some books.
I will say in his defence, he is a mess but then so was she. He is really sorry and it is some time later and he has changed.
It's well written, it's just the subject of cheating is usually a huge no for me.
Guess you'll need to read it and see what you think.