I picked this book because I'm also from Western New York, where this book is set. Watkins Glen was about 1 hour away. While I had never visited that town, I understood the race culture, from afar. It was also fun to read about places I knew of, like Ithaca and Binghamton University.
The story itself was heart breaking, but a good read. I was invested in watching Mark's disease progress and how it would effect his (newish) relationship with his sister, Susie. Sometimes the descriptions were a bit long and dry, but overall the book was easy to read and and I looked forward to reading it.
Thank you to Mayapple Press and NetGalley for the advance readers copy.

A slightly uncomfortable but good read. I am familiar with Watkins Glen and the area so being repeatedly told about the area and history was a bit annoying. Also how has Susan lived in Watkins Glen for 15 years but never visited Lake Ontario? Too weird to be true. Her self hate was a bit off-putting and repetitive. Mark’s story was very sad. The ending was underwhelming.

Susan is in her sixties and has made a life for herself in Watkins Glen, where her family spent the summers of her childhood while her father raced drag cars. That summer life came to an end when her parents died when she was a teenager, and she and her brother went to live with relatives. In adulthood they drifted apart.
Susan's life is interrupted by a phone call from her nephew, who is worried about his father, Susan's brother Mark. So begins a series of events which leads to Mark, who is in the early stages of Alzheimer's disease, coming to live with Susan. Her life is upended as she struggles to cope with his increasing confusion, his obsession with painting, and his belief in a strange monster living in the nearby lake.
This is not an easy read. Mark's deterioration is ongoing and unstoppable, and the moments of lucidity, where he and Susan are able to connect and make some sort of sense of their childhood together and their adulthood apart, make this all the more poignant. Both Mark and Susan are well-drawn characters, and I felt deep sympathy for both as the book progressed.
The prose is beautiful, as are the descriptions, but I did find that some passages were just too slow, and the whole thing felt repetitive in places. Although that probably added to the realism of the novel.
On the whole, this was an enjoyable and enlightening read.
With thanks to NetGalley and Mayapple Press for the advance reader copy of this title.

This moving story about an independent woman living in a hamlet outside Watkins Glen, NY, who takes in her brother who is afflicted with Alzheimer’s, nearly brought me to tears. Although fiction, the book could well have been non-fiction, as it described the complicated relationship between two practically estranged siblings brought together by the deterioration of the brother. In an act of truly selfless love, Susan negotiates life with her brother, Mark - a brother who is becoming someone she doesn’t know, and someone he doesn’t know himself.

My mother had Alzheimer’s, and before my sisters and I moved her to a care facility, we had a series of caregivers and helpers, some more successful than others, helping her to live as independently as possible. Living with a parent or sibling who has this disease is an extended period of living grief, and Eleanor Lerman captures what this is like so perfectly that she must have had personal experience with it herself. While it was hard to read at times, the interplay between Mark and Susan and Susan’s struggle to figure out her own life as an aging single woman just hit me right in my heart.

I received this book as an ARC from the publisher and NetGalley.

The themes of progressing Alzheimer's, reigniting sibling relationships and the quiet despair of aging without purpose or hope were compelling. I truly enjoyed the author's writing style. Yet the story rambled through too many themes, too much repetitiveness, too much minutia. I nearly put the book aside at several points, but I kept on expecting... well, something to resolve or to fall apart. I truly wanted to like this book because the prose was lovely and made me care about the characters. The end then came abruptly without tying up any of the story lines, as if the author had simply tired of the story and wanted to stop - which, perhaps I should have done myself earlier. I guess this book just wasn't for me.

Orphaned as adolescents, Susan and her brother were raised by distant relatives, devout Orthodox Jews. Susan rebelled, her unresolved grief taking the form of a lifetime of anger and hostility, while Mark tried to be a model boy to his difficult new family. This is suggested in flashback, as the story begins with sixty-five-year-old Susan taking a worrying phone call about Mark from his adult son. Steven says his father doesn't sound right, and is suddenly obsessed with painting, an interest he’s never before revealed in his seventy years.

When Mark cries on the phone, Susan drives the five hours to Brooklyn to check on him. After several more visits, and Mark's increasing confusion, the only logical choice is for her to bring him home to her place, an rickety, drafty house she rents, all she can afford. She lives in the village of Watkins Glen, famous racing venue, where she and Mark and their parents spent every summer happily immersed in the world of hot cars, the last place Susan and Mark were happy. In essence, Susan is stuck. Mark's presence, however demanding, helps her move forward.

Susan is an old hippie. She supports herself by working part-time at a struggling gift shop, and by foraging for inexpensive or discarded household items, which she resells online. As the story unfolds, she is challenged to finally have to take care of someone else, generosity that doesn’t come naturally to her, since she’s spent so much of her life in a defiant stance. She’s also resisted the reality of the years passing, so taking care of an elderly brother who’s losing his mind wasn’t in her plans. Susan’s self-image is set in her youth, although in the beginning of the novel, she reflects on an elderly neighbor, whose voice “...sounded seriously old, although I know that for me, now...the distance between some elderly person and myself is not the long and winding road I once perceived it to be.”

As Susan adjusts to having Mark in her home and adapts to his needs, there’s a tenderness that emerges, a gentle protectiveness. Beyond the elegiac nostalgia of their childhood memories and survivor status, this is a universal story of having to take in a loved one who has no remaining options. Susan can’t afford it, she’s not equipped, and she didn’t plan to dedicate her life to anyone but herself. How is this going to work? For how long? And what then?

The author is a poet as well as a writer, and so much of this book was lyrically written and beautiful. Here is one example: “(It) was one of those days when the air is cool and thin and the light is silvery; a day that feels like it is made out of glass and everything is just one breath away from shattering beyond repair,” and “It was still light for part of the way, that somber autumn light that spreads itself over the ocean and then reaches out, in blue and gold streaks, to cross the Hudson River and climb above the New Jersey Palisades, heading ever west.”

This narrative was so realistic I kept thinking it was Eleanor Lerman’s story, but it’s fiction. It will resonate with anyone trying to thoughtfully navigate the latter half of their life with or without the challenge of caregiving. A beautiful literary work.

Deep story of two estranged siblings that are brought back together by the horrific diagnosis of Alzheimer’s. Mark lives alone in Brooklyn and reluctantly moves in with his sister who resides in Watkins Glen, near their childhood summer home. Mark has a found a fondness for painting. This is a sad story of love, sacrifice and the many challenges one faces when a loved one falls victim to Alzheimer’s.