It’s funny that I talked about this book in my Top Ten Tuesday: Books On My Radar (6/1/21) and then later that day it became available on Netgalley so I requested it. I didn’t mean to get approved for this right away and then immediately binge it in the same day but here we are.

Even though the blurb talks about Danny disappearing and Ellie still being able to see him, I didn’t think that this book would be the tearjerker that it was. There is a lot of talk about grief and that definitely hit me hard. I could relate to the characters, especially Ellie.

Ellie belongs to the Jewish community and goes to a Jewish school as well as having friends who are also Jewish. I do not belong to this community so I can’t talk about that aspect of the book but I did learn new things about the community. I also understood her friends who have taken different routes when it comes to their faith and how they choose to practice since I have grown up in a religious household. It is very relatable and it shows that not everything is as black and white as some would think.

Ellie and her friends also deal with the loss of Danny in different ways as well. They each have their reasonings and the plot circles around the night of his disappearance. The plot also deals with the friendships of these girls because of the strain put on it by Danny and their choices when it comes to religion. There is a lot going on when it comes to topics but there isn’t one that overshadows the other and they all come together to make a plot that is very powerful and emotional.

The unique part of the book is that even though Danny isn’t really there he is still very much a big part of the book. Through stories that Ellie gathers about him, the friendship he shared with the group of friends, and the way that Ellie grieves He is always there in his own way. This definitely helped to add the connection I needed to him and really give me understanding about the characters feelings towards him and because of that it also made me cry.

Overall, this was a great book and I would highly recommend checking it out! I know my review is quite vague but I truly think it is one of those books where it’s better to go in blind like I did.