A heartrending story of loss, grief, and legacy that asks how much we can ever really know the ones we love—and what it means to love them, and ourselves, anyway. Perfect for fans of Nina LaCour and Adam Silvera.

Jonny has always idolized his sister, Carmel. She is the person he relies on for guidance, insight, and pretty much everything else.

Trish has always followed her father's lead. As a senator from Pennsylvania, he devotes his life to public service, and Trish is right there beside him, determined to make the world a better place.

But when the senator's plane crashes in Jonny’s backyard—killing everyone on board and taking Carmel's life as well—Jonny's and Trish's worlds are shattered in an instant.

As they navigate their own separate pain, Jonny and Trish each discover things about the people they thought they'd known best. And they find themselves wondering: Had they ever truly known the people they’d looked up to—and do they truly know themselves now that their loved ones are gone? Looking for answers, they turn toward each other for support, solace, and maybe something more. 

In this powerful novel, award-winning author Isaac Blum explores what it means to grieve, to love, and to find yourself anew in the wreckage of personal tragedy. With his signature wit and compassion, he shares a story with one universal truth: that while grief may shape our paths, it doesn't have to dictate our future.