Noah Landers wakes up with a throbbing headache and no idea where he is, who he is with, or even who he is himself. The man sitting with Noah explains that he is Jason O’Reilly, Noah’s boyfriend of six months, and they are in Jason’s cabin in Colorado. Noah was outside shoveling snow when he fell and hit his head, causing severe injury and amnesia. Unfortunately, the blinding snowstorm is making it impossible for emergency vehicles to get to them, so Jason is doing his best to care for Noah in the meantime until the weather clears.

At first Noah remembers absolutely nothing. Jason is wary about telling him too much for fear of influencing Noah’s feelings and memories. But soon bits and pieces begin to come back, raising some red flags with Noah. On one hand, his heart is telling him to trust Jason, that the man is someone he loves and cares about. On the other, some of the things Jason is telling him just don’t ring true on a gut level to Noah. Even worse, there are things that are clearly not adding up, things that make Noah further question whether Jason is telling him the truth about everything. Noah is weak and injured and trapped with Jason alone in the cabin, with no idea what is really happening between them. When Noah’s memories finally come flooding back, things are not all that they seem, and it may just destroy everything Noah thought they had together.

So I grabbed Whiteout right away as soon as I saw the amnesia theme, as that is pretty much crack to me (see my list of Favorite Amnesia Stories if you are also a fan). And I think Springer does a fabulous job with this element of the story. The book is broken down into two parts, the first focusing on the amnesia storyline. We are aware right away of this internal conflict in Noah between the emotional pull he has toward Jason and the memories and gut feelings he is having that make him question Jason’s veracity. Slowly bits of information come out, through Noah’s memories or conversations the guys have, that make it clear that all is not as it seems. This information is doled out at just the right time, giving us enough to raise our suspicions along with Noah and to question everything that is going on. The pacing here is great and it all comes to a head about halfway through the book as we finally learn the truth about the situation.

I will note that at times I found Noah’s behavior frustrating here as he seems to be letting his heart rule in places where his head should be taking over. There are some key things that happen that should make him seriously concerned about what is going on and greatly distrust Jason. Yet Noah lets his heart (along with his lust) guide him in many cases, ignoring the glaring warning signs that should be making him stay far away. I realize that this behavior works for the story, but it had me screaming through my Kindle at times that no matter how hot Jason is, you don’t sleep with a guy you think is lying about such crucial things.

The second half of the book follows the aftermath of the revelations that come when Noah’s memories return. This part is hard to talk about without ruining the excellent mystery side of things, as so much of the fun of this story comes in the beginning as we are slowly figuring things out. So I am going to be super vague here and say that the second part of the book deals with the guys working their way back to one another. We get a happy ending, and some needed character growth, and I think the pacing works well in making the ultimate relationship believable. This part definitely brings on the romantic mushiness, so it’s a clear change of tone from the first half. But I do think it works, especially as the book places a clear break in between the parts.

Just a note that Whiteout is the first book of Elyse Springer’s new Seasons of Love series. The later part of the book features the play Rent heavily, picking up on this theme. There are three more books planned, each featuring one of Noah’s friends who we meet in this first book, and each reflecting one of the seasons.

Overall I found this one really engaging and clever. Springer handles the amnesia end of the storyline really well, and it was nicely creepy with a slow reveal that went in an interesting direction. The story manages to take a crazy situation and bring it around to a nice mushy, romantic side, and pull it all together by the end. So I really enjoyed this one and definitely would recommend it.

I won't be reviewing this book for reasons which I explained in a note to the publisher

This one was a bit hard for me to get into. I guess, I am not a fan of the amnesia trope after all. The character's were just ok for me. I can appreciate the author's writing, and the story was not completely horrible, but it was just not MY thing.

This didn't hit any kind of spot for me sadly and I know I won't have anything clever to say about this. Apologies.

Whiteout. In this book that word has several meanings, and it’s the perfect title as well.
When Noah wakes up in a cabin in Colorado with a man he doesn’t know, he realizes he doesn’t even know who Noah is, either. The man taking care of him is Jason, who tells Noah they are boyfriends and live together in Manhatten. Jason tells Noah he’s taken a bad fall on ice and has a head injury and amnesia. A blizzard has prevented anyone from getting an ambulance to the isolated cabin but Jason tells Noah he has been in touch with a doctor by phone. When Noah tells Jason he can’t remember anything Jason relays the doctor’s opinion that Noah will regain his memories and not to worry.
Noah’s memories trickle back, first one at a time, and Noah can’t tell what is real and what is not. Then finally a floodgate opens and he remembers everything. That’s not a good thing because Noah now can’t tell who is the biggest danger here, Noah, if that’s his real name, or Jason, if that is his real name. Did Noah really fall or was he attacked?
When Noah reveals to Jason the truth as it has come back to him the scene is all heartbreak and loss. Noah now has to decide whether he can reclaim Jason, or even whether he should. There are secondary characters who have a say in what Noah does. This is a character-driven novel but instead of three-dimensional characters the author has found a way to make them four-dimensional, with time playing a role in their development (no, it’s not a time-travel story but we do see the past, present, and a possible future). It takes a scrapbook and hand-written memories to put the pieces of the puzzle together.
Brilliantly written and stylishly laid out, Whiteout is a wonderful novel of love, betrayal, faith, and loss of trust. This is the first book in a series. I’m looking forward to the other books eagerly.

When I started reading Whiteout, I got sucked into the story right away. I'm sort of a sucker for amnesia stories done well, and I think Ms. Springer mostly gets this one right. Well, at least I think she mostly gets the first part of this book right. The amnesia part. I wasn't as fond of the 'what happens afterwards' - but I'm getting ahead of myself.

Noah Landers wakes up with a massive headache and no memory of where he is or what's happened to him. Fortunately (maybe?) he's not alone. From the moment he awakens, Noah is affectionately cared for by Jason. When Noah asks him what happened, Jason tells him they're in his cabin in Colorado and Noah slipped on ice when he was shoveling the walk. Based on his injury, Jason surmises Noah hit his head and is concussed, but because of the weather whiteout conditions, Jason couldn't transport Noah to a hospital for treatment. Noah listens to Jason's story, but something about the way he shares the information and his nervousness while doing so, leads Noah to believe he might not have the whole story. He's right, and he doesn't - and neither do we.

As the days pass, despite how tender and affectionate Jason is, Noah becomes increasingly convinced Jason is hiding information from him. We do too - after all, Noah's version of events is the only one we have available. Noah doesn't know why, but he suspects Jason is a bit too good to be true (and so do we) - and perhaps Jason's somehow to blame for what's happened to him? Small things about Jason's behavior don't seem to add up. Noah's discovery of his cell phone (buried under clothes in a drawer) and the frantic voice on the other end calling him by a different name, only fuel his paranoia and he begins to actively mistrust his handsome and attentive cabin-mate. Well, mostly - because he's also crazy in lust for him.

Jason O'Reilly is beautiful, loving and kind. He's also infinitely patient in the face of Noah's frequent mood swings and memory loss. He does everything he can to reassure Noah about the accident and give him whatever time/space he needs to sort out his feelings about their relationship. But Jason struggles to keep his distance from Noah when it's obvious he isn't ready for them to resume their physical relationship. Fortunately, despite Noah's misgivings about what happened to him in Colorado and when they were home in NYC, he can't resist Jason's hotty body and sexy smile. These two were always touching - whether it was a gentle caress or deep and soulful kiss, so sex was only a matter of time. The sex is passionate and steamy - I wish there were more scenes like this in the book!

Though I loved their intimacy, I was troubled by how quick Noah was to doubt Jason whenever they were just talking or hanging out. On the face of things, he's anything a partner could want: handsome, fit, generous, wealthy, patient, kind... I kept wondering where Ms. Springer was going with all of this - until Noah's memories start to come back to him in fits and spurts. Right away we realize Noah was wise to be wary of his feelings for Jason - and for good reason. But the truth is nothing he could have imagined.

From here on out, it's difficult to review Whiteout without spoiling what happens shortly before and after the men leave Colorado. Suffice it to say, they aren't together, and it's a painful separation for both. From here, the narrative abandons Jason until nearly the end of the story. Instead it pivots and follows Noah exclusively from Colorado to NYC as he struggles to put his life together again now that Jason is out of the picture.

Told entirely in Noah's PoV, Whiteout is too indulgent about Noah's poor life choices and constant blame games. Though I liked his story arc and the twist/kink his amnesia provides in the narrative, I didn't love him. Noah was a user. He ultimately redeems himself, but I'm not sure he's a guy I would want to form a life attachment to.

On the flip side, we know almost nothing about Jason aside from the things Noah shares with us - what Jason does for a living and that he makes a lot of money doing it, he's fit and handsome and sexy... and kind to his housekeeper. We also know Jason was in a long term relationship before he met Noah, but his partner died and it was devastating. Unfortunately, Jason's prior relationship plays a big part in the one he forms with Noah - but Ms. Springer only gives us bare bones about it. I wish she spent more time telling us about this very important part of Jason's past. We also aren't privvy to how Jason feels about Noah aside from his declarations of love and affection when they're together in Colorado. The absence of his PoV is a gaping hole in the story and felt like a huge missed opportunity. I wanted and needed to know more about Jason, his feelings about Noah, and what happened to them in Colorado.

The second half introduces a few other secondary characters who feature in future Seasons of Love books, but it's mostly just a frustrating waiting game. Noah's friends are loyal and love him to a fault - but I could have used a bit more tough love from this crowd. I wanted Noah to make good choices and I wanted Jason to acknowledge them. The final few chapters and especially the scrapbook (huh? how big and messy was it?) were a bit too cutesy for me - but we finally get an HEA, and a promise to meet up with these two again in future books, so I can't and won't complain too loudly.

Whiteout is an entertaining and engaging debut!

This was a truly great book, a bit long, but well written with an intriguing mysterious plot. The story is divided into two parts: part one is during Noah’s amnesia and part two is after Noah’s memories return. I loved the suspense, and then the twist at the end of part one got me, I was so not thinking that was the direction the story was heading. And even though I liked that part two was all about putting their relationship to rights again, it needed to happen, however I felt that it was more Noah’s story with Jason being almost an afterthought. Yes, I know, Noah had a lot to work through but I wanted to see more togetherness between them, and I felt the loss of too little Jason face time.

It’s been awhile since I’ve read a book where the mystery had me so completely flummoxed, but Whiteout kept me guessing, and I guessed completely wrong. Bravo Ms. Springer, for pulling off a romantic mystery that kept me on my toes and entertained.

Jason and Noah are so flipping cute and very romantic together…until they aren’t. And then your heart bleeds for them and you wonder how it could have taken such a wrong turn. Whiteout is a story of second chances, forgiveness, and learning to love yourself. It was not what I was expecting but it was exactly what I needed it to be. Looking forward to seeing where this series goes from here.

Whiteout is the first book in the Seasons of Love series. It wasn't until late in the book that I realized the series title comes from the musical RENT, which is a favorite of mine, so that was exciting to figure out! As for the actual book, I LOVED this one and I would highly recommend it. While Noah does lose most of his memories after an accident, it doesn't take terribly long for most of them to come back. When they do, the book is really just beginning, so readers will definitely be on for an interesting ride.

There isn't much I can say without giving away spoilers, but I will say that while Noah is trying to remember who he used to be, he's getting memories back that make him unsure about Jason and whether he's really telling him the truth. Despite this, Noah has this feeling - intuition if you will - that he really does love Jason, so he tries to go with that since he's stuck in a Colorado cabin with nowhere to go. As for Jason, it's easy to tell that he really does love Noah. He's obviously keeping some things back, but he was also told by a doctor not to reveal too much to Noah so that his memories have a chance to come back on their own.

Like I said, this is just one part of the overall story, but I can't go on for fear that I'll ruin some twists and turns! Definitely read it!

Full disclosure here... I've been dreading writing this review. So much so, I've even asked a couple of bloggers/readers for advice. Rest assured, it's not because I didn't like the book, because I did. No, I was just trying to figure out how in the heck I was going to review Whiteout without giving anything away. Once you read it, you'll totally understand, but until then? *sigh*

The book opens with Noah waking up not knowing who he was. From the time he 'wakes up' until he finally regains his memory takes up the first part of this book. During that time little snippets of his memory return making him doubt the intentions of the man who claims to be someone he not only should trust, but someone he loves. The second half deals with the fall out from what he finally remembers. Yeah, things got kinda complicated.

This story was a lot more unique than I expected. Nothing about this story was what I expected. I loved the characters, even though the second half of the book didn't give readers much time with Jason. That's one of the only complaints I have with Whiteout, which isn't much of a complaint since it worked for the plot. I'm also kind of hooked on Rent - which has more of a tie-in than just the series title - so I got pulled in even more. There's also the great supporting characters, although I wasn't sure about Sara for a while, she did finally grow on me.

This series is a mix of M/M and F/F stories that follow the seasons. Thaw is next and it features Abi, who we met in Whiteout. Actually, all the featured characters in the series were introduced in this book. Heat Wave is Sara's book and Changing Colors features Tony. Although I'm not a huge fan of F/F books, I don't want to miss any of this series. I'm also kinda hoping that we get to check in on Noah and Jason a time or two ;)

Whiteout is the first book in Elyse Springer’s brand new series, Seasons of Love. And what a series kick-off it was. The blurb intrigued me the moment I read it. Amnesia is a tricky trope to master; not everyone can do it, even for a short amount of time. I think this author did a fantastic job with it. I love a story that flashes between past and present when it’s done well, and it was written beautifully here as Noah lives in the present but bits of his memory come back to him.

I’m going to keep this review short and sweet because I think delving too far into things will spoil it. I was hooked from the get-go of this story. Noah’s ambivalence keeps the reader just a bit on edge making you wonder what Jason’s motivations are. Is it really love, or is there something else driving him to take care of Noah? And you can’t help but be drawn to Jason and the way he’s desperate for Noah to get better. Or, you know, is he? There were parts of this story that were a bit predictable, but I didn’t care. I was still invested in seeing how and if things were going to work out. And I was a bit torn on how I felt about the two parts to this story. The second one could have been condensed a bit, I think, but on the other hand, I loved seeing Noah’s lifelong dream come true. (Not a spoiler – you won’t know until it happens.) The sexy scenes between Noah and Jason were hot, and there was always a tenderness to them that I thought was a perfect reflection of the two men. Also, I loved Noah making an unlikely friend in the librarian. The very idea that there are people who appear exactly at the moment you need them is so heartwarming.

Whiteout was a story filled with emotion and a bit of heartache. I’d definitely recommend it!

*3.5 stars*

The plot for this one seemed straight out of the romance trope handbook. I mean, another amnesia story? I have a weakness for them, of course, but I've read a TON of amnesia romance, especially in M/M. But newbie author, Elyse Springer, surprised me a bit with some twists and turns, which kept me on my toes.

I'm always wary with newbie authors. Sometimes I get some real gems, but other times I get burned, and I get burned BADLY. After reading thousands of romances, and nearly a thousand just in the M/M genre, I have little patience for bad books. I think Elyse Springer has some real potential up her sleeve. She didn't blow my mind with this book, but she proved herself to be a competent and interesting author.

The plot ended up being a little OTT; stranded, amnesia, and then a whole mess of drama and issues. I'm not usually a fan of convoluted plots, but there was something about this story that charmed me. I was predictably a little confused at the beginning, but once I cottoned on to the storyline, I was excited and along for the ride.

No spoilers here, but this isn't your typical amnesia book. Sure, it isn't going to make a favorites list for me, but I think this is a very worthwhile read and a great intro to a new author.

*Copy provided in exchange for an honest review*

Reviews by the Wicked Reads Review Team

Sarah – ☆☆☆☆☆
I loved this! A man wakes with amnesia from a head injury. He’s in a blizzard, in a cabin with another man and somehow, he knows that something isn’t quite right about the situation…

The plot is perfectly controlled in this story. As Noah first questions and then remembers more about himself and his relationship with Jason, the man whose cabin he is in, readers share Noah’s disjointed and confusing memories. I loved his conflict emotions as the Jason in the present doesn’t resemble the Jason in his erratic memories. And the moment he starts to question his own identity is truly chilling.

Because this story starts with Noah’s amnesia, it is difficult to review this story without giving too much away. I have to say again that I loved it. The characters are deliciously layered and complex – no one is as they first seem and truth has many shades of grey in this book.

I don’t want to give anything away, but I do want to recommend this highly. The start is chilling, but there are moments of joy, of love, and wonderful moments of self-discovery.


Angie – ☆☆☆
When I opened my copy to start reading and saw there was a part one and a part two, I was already off to a bad start. I don’t really enjoy that in a book, it just seems like two separate stories and by the end of part one, sometimes I really don’t want to go to part two because I wasn’t that impressed. I think another big point for me was I couldn’t connect with the characters at all, especially since it was in Noah’s point of view and I felt like I didn’t really know Jason at all. I put the book down several times because it just wasn’t holding my interest but I wanted to finish. The ending was nice, but this book just didn’t work for me, and since the next book is a F/F, I am not sure I will be reading more of the series.

Characters: Couldn’t connect
Sex: Yes
Religious: No
Would I recommend to others: Yes
More than one book in the series: Yes
Genre: M/M
Would I read more by this author: Yes

I liked this one, but it didn't wow me the way I was hoping for. I definitely liked the first half of the story better than the second half. I liked the way the author had us discover Noah's story as Noah discovered it for himself. I liked the way the author makes the reader question everything we read. The second half fell a little flat for me. It was missing the page-turning quality I loved about the first half. In the end, I was happy with the story and I'll give the rest of the series a chance.

Before reading: Amnesia and a stranded trope?

*cackles wildly*

Want!

After reading: Damn, no matter how hard I try, I just can't escape the Santa jizz. ;P

Debut novel by Elyse Springer, Whiteout has more to offer than just Jizzmas (thankfully). I went in expecting a lot of snow, a guy with amnesia possibly regaining his memory, some romance and more snow.

And we do get that.

But it's more than just a standard amnesia trope. (Gah, do I enjoy the amnesia trope)

Noah Landers wakes up not remembering who his is after hitting his head while on his Christmas Colorado vacation. His older lover, Jason O'Reilly, attends to injured and memory lost Noah's every need as best as he can while they are stuck in their vacation cabin. Following medical orders from a doctor on the phone, Jason lets Noah work through his thoughts and see if his retrograde amnesia will sort itself out as Noah heals.

The thing is, something is off to Noah. In the back of his consciousness, something is ringing false. Who can he trust while he is stuck in the woods, and has rely on a man he feels a connection to but isn't sure if he can trust.

Springer creates a mystery, slowly piecing along the puzzle of Noah Landers. Can we trust Jason with the crumbs of info Noah gets out of him? Can we trust Noah? With all these questions, the lovers have a shared chemistry that can't be faked. The author doesn't have her men jump directly into the sack for the couple of days of being stranded. The sexual tension builds as well as the intrigue.

Whiteout is separated in two parts, Part 1 set in a small Colorado cabin - 60% and Part 2 is back in NYC. Part 1 is the entire mystery of Noah, which I solved somewhere around 25% of the story. But I couldn't stop from reading to see their individual reactions. Even with the sugar and Jizzmas feels that Jason slathered in that cabin. I know there are Christmas tradition people out there, but I was leery along with Noah with some of the demonstrations.

Expect sweet romance that got to be borderline sugar coma for parts of Part 1.

And when it ends, well that's when the true work begins for Noah. (You can kinda guess how part 1 closes out)

Part 2 was well matched for part 1, despite being slightly shorter in length. It made me appreciate and adore the schoompy sugar of part 1. No more mystery. Now we get to read the men in their habitat. Kudos to the author writing a great portrayal of NYC (including Brooklyn). It definitely read like winter in NYC.

What I didn't except was the love affair with Broadway.

That passion along with the hurt/comfort aspect, second chances and learning who the real Noah is with him for the second time around was exciting to read. The author had a great balance with main and secondary characters (glad to see Noah's friends will lead in the other three books in the series) They were really great friends. And flashbacks go either way for me when I read a flashback heavy romance. Springer did a great job with using them without the main plot getting lost.

This was definitely plot heavy without making the story too angsty to read. With solid characters, realistic angst (part 2) and reading how a certain someone redeems himself...how could I not be hooked. I don't have much issues with Whiteout, the editing, pacing were great. The sugar was a tad heavy but after reflecting back, it's just the kind of guy Jason is. The revenge angle...personally I could have done without it but it's necessary for the plot.

When you read the novel, you'll see. ;)

Great couple, great characters and a sweet plot with droplets of hurt/comfort to break it up.

Recommended for fans of second chances with a side helping of amnesia.

I'll be reading more from this author for sure.

My first book by this author (and her debut novel, to boot) was a complete success. ICYMI, when I finished the book and posted my final update, these were my words:

Wow. Also, WOW. I absolutely loved this. Complex characters, complex relationship, a FUBAR, and then... WOW. Y'all, get this as soon as you can.

Noah wakes up in a remote cabin in Colorado during a blizzard right around Christmas time, with no recollection of who he is or what he's doing there, and furthermore, no idea who the gentle, handsome man taking care of him is. The handsome man introduces himself as Jason and makes Noah feel safe. He only tells Noah that he slipped in the snow and hit his head, which explains the headache and bumps on his head as well as the amnesia.

Jason dotes on Noah during his recovery, but refuses to tell him much more than his name, claiming that he's been in touch with an ER doctor, who advised him not to plant any ideas in Noah's mind, and to let Noah remember on his own. Which should perhaps take a few days.

At first Noah seems okay with this, but then doubts set in, primarily after observing Jason hide what's being discussed during the phone calls with the doctor, and also because Noah catches Jason on more than one occasion looking super guilty.

As the memories come back slowly, Noah remembers Jason being loving and kind toward him, but also gets snippets of Jason acting in anger. And snippets of his mother and father, a tragic death, manic research in a library, and a best friend who doesn't call him Noah.

Eventually, it all comes flooding back, and I had one of the most massive surprises in my book-reading career. I seriously sat there with my mouth wide open, in complete shock as to what had just happened on page. Note the FUBAR comment above.

At this point, the book's 2nd part begins, and we find ourselves in NYC. I won't tell you much more than this because I don't want to spoil the experience, and I won't tell you how it ends either. Just remember, this is a romance.

Told entirely from Noah's POV, we don't get but glimpses of what makes Jason tick through Noah's eyes, but the author included enough of Jason on page to make me care about him just the same. I did have one small niggle, which I can't explain here, because it would be a spoiler, just suffice it to say that there has been some major loss in Jason's life, and how it was handled here was a bit too unrealistic for my taste. I suppose grief can manifest itself in a variety of forms, and everyone deals with grief differently, but Jason's characterization didn't quite gel with how his grief was handled here.

And yet, I absolutely loved this book. It has complex characters, a complex plotline, superb character growth, and the author made the characters work for what they ultimately achieve. Noah looks deeply inside himself and realizes what he's done, what he's lost, and what he wants - and then goes after what he wants as best as he knows how. He has help along the way, but the humility he displays, not only at his guilt and failures, but also his triumphs was extraordinary.

This is the first book in a 4-part series, with each book covering a season. I'm not yet sure how connected these books will be, but I will tell you that this book can be read as a standalone.

Definitely recommended!!

It's hard to review a book when you have a fond affection for it's author.... well, normally. This time around, I'm not having that problem. I just want everyone to pick up this book and read it. Why?

First of all, I love a good amnesia/memory loss story. When characters have to find their way back to where they were? Sign me up. In Whiteout, we've got that, but they're not only trying to get back to where they were, they need to get to a better place. I love the fight of it. The struggle and how, when written well, the story of that struggle pulls me in and takes me somewhere amazing.

Second, it's just really a good story. It's told in two parts... the now, where Noah has to try and remember. The second, where Noah remembers and has to make it not only right, but better. If I'm honest, I did love the first half more than the second half, but I think that's because I really just needed to get to that HEA and I was/am very impatient. There is also very little of Jason in the second half and I missed him.

The other thing I love about this book was the OMG moment. Is there another word for that? Probably, but I don't care. Through most of the first half, there is something that you just can't figure out. When you think you're starting to get it, the anticipation builds. When it is revealed? It really was an OMG moment and I LOVED that.

Just give this a shot. It's a great first novel from Ms. Springer, and I'm not just saying that because I really do think she's a pretty amazing person.

For those of you that have read my reviews, you know I really don’t like to prelude to anything that might spoil it for the reader so I try my hardest not to. With this, it is so hard to tell you my underlying thought of this book, without giving things away. To be honest, I figured it out pretty quickly, but even so that is not a good enough reason to ruin it for others. So, here I go and hopefully I will give this wonderfully written book the review it deserves.

Part One: At the Cabin
Okay I took this as being Noah’s rebirth. His wiping the slate clean; getting rid of all anger by letting go. And what better way to let go than to have retrograde amnesia, right?!? Like I say everything happens for a reason. I have to say the author did a wonderful job building the memories back in for Noah as she did. All of a sudden he would find himself lost in the past; just from a particular saying, a song he heard or from heightened emotions. Eventually Noah finds himself, and not only is it not what he expected, but he doesn't like what he finds.

Part Two: Back in New York (a week later)
Even though Noah feels he cannot go on and life as he knows it with Jason, is over; he finds his footing. Eventually, Noah is able to breathe and find it in himself to move; to be himself without the hurt and hate crushing him down. The emotional pull here is very intense to the point where I thought there wasn’t going to be a “Noah and Jason”. Here we see Noah come back to himself, and grow into a better version of himself. At one point I thought Jason might have been the path he traveled to get to Tony, especially how their lives interconnected. However, Noah does not give up hope, and Jason finally finds it in himself to forgive. Even if he had to see Noah totally breakdown to see the truth. I cannot fault them falling into the sac so quickly after making up. Come on, we all have been there! In the end, we are left with a HFN that should lead to their HEA.

On a side note, I do wish that the author would have given us a bit more in the epilogue. For one, to see if Noah’s career takes off, and the other to see if his mother ever comes to accept/tolerate his relationship with Jason.

In Summary:
The chemistry and love between Noah and Jason is wonderful and beautifully done. I honestly believe that this story is more of a “things happen for a reason” and a “you don't see the reason at first but in the end, things come together and makes sense.” I am definitely, not saying that everything is gonna be perfect, because like in life it is not.

I was so so so excited to start this book. The premise is 1 I really love.
It just fell very short for me and I couldnt get into the authors writing style.
I also didnt care much for the MCs.