Can you hear those vague squeals from the other end of the world and i just feel those FEELS and JUST eep! What is happening to me? I don't like contemporaries. REMEMBER. wait, I like this book. Scrap that I love it.

This is about a boy with Tourettes called Spencer who loves insects and animals and helping everyone out and is so dorky and smol and ruins so much yet you still love him. And he's basically this little enthusiastic bean who has emotions like 'OMG PANCAKES THIS IS HAPPENING' and know how to describe things pretty well. And did I mention he's dorky and he's ALL THE AWKWARD - OMG HE IS SO DARN RELATABLE OKAY? And can I mention his syndrome was SO WELL REPRESENTED? It didn't define him at all, it wasn't the plot or storyline and OKAY CAN I HUG THIS BOOK NOW?

This is about a girl called Hope and she's freaking bad-ass. She doesn't take crap from ANYONE, stands up for herself and everyone else so bad. And she wants to travel the world and she is basically the character I am squealing over, Ilubhersomuch. Did I mention she reads Laini Taylor's books? HAHA YES, SHE READS BOOK and again I just want to be best friends with her!

Oh, and there is the so god-damn beautiful relationship between Hope and her sister Janie. And not just any old good but like the best kind. They do everything together and squeal and talk and have sibling fights and tell each other everything and just #GOALS. And I could just relate so much, okay?

Have we talked about everything yet? Have we talked about Dean yet? And his brotherly relationship with Spencer. Or how have we talked about awesome Mimi is and how she says 'No' to slavery and own her life? And have we talked about this dad that goes from a jerk to all the awesome?

Smol LIST OF GUSHES.

-That cover which is just darn gorgeous. this is important okay. AESTHETIC IS LIFE.
-the little 'taxonomies' list. UM YES. And the emails and texts and stuff. I love books with unique formatting
- the way it handled grief so well and at the same time funny and swoony. Perfect balance.
-the way the writing is so clever and sneaky and just bursting and i love it so much asdfghjkl
-The way everything is developed so beautifully you could cry??????
-FOOD.Oh, and it appreciates latte and ice cream and lasagna. I'M HERE.

And I want friends like Spencer's because they watch movies together and watch the stars and I am jealous okay?

This was a very odd book. It 's very weirdly paced like it happens over what? 5 years yet I finished this in one day. But i'm totally okay with that! And it's kind of dual narrated but more Spencer than Hope which again I am fine with! I don't think it really affected my feelings about this book except this was the damn opposite of insta love.

basically, it's not 'ASDFGHJKL' it's 'asdfghjkl' my feelings right now are just hey can i coddle this book?