I have been a little all over the place when it comes to reading books by Julia Heaberlin, but I have yet to read one I haven't liked and the same goes for Paper Ghosts. I found the pacing to be a little on the slower side, especially towards the middle of the book, but the storyline was extremely interesting to me which is what easily kept me going. I also really liked the format of the book which is told from Grace's viewpoint with various lists and notes scattered throughout. The physical copy I have of the hardcover is really cool and presents the mixed media in ways that look very real to what they are. There are also photographs that were created especially for the book using 2 very real twins. I adore little touches like this that provide more interest to not only the actual book itself but the story as well.

Whoever chose Catherine Taber to narrate the audiobook did an excellent job, and I enjoyed every moment of listening to her. She seemed to be the perfect fit for Grace, and she was able to capture all of the emotion of the storyline as well. The ending was a little ambiguous for my liking, but I did love a lot of elements of it at the same time. There are a few moments that are extremely suspenseful, and I also just got completely wrapped up in the story and had to know what would happen. I wouldn't say the twists are major in this one, but I was still surprised by a couple of things and that was just fine by me. If you love books about serial killers and don't mind a bit of slowness, I would definitely recommend giving Paper Ghosts a read/listen. The acknowledgments are a must-read in my mind as well, and thankfully they are also included in the audiobook.

I really like Julia Heaberlin, and I really wanted to like this book but it just... Didn't make sense to me? I couldn't connect to anyone, I didn't understand what was going on, and when I would rather do anything but pick the book up at about 25% I put it down. This did not work for me.

Initially, I felt this would be a good read. It did not take long, however, to feel that I just would not be able to enjoy the read. The first-person narrative did not allow for subtle nuances and pulls the reader out of the story as well as creating a disconnection with the characters. The main female started out sounding like a solid character but eventually dissolved into a much less developed character. Before even getting to the half-way point, I no longer cared and could not endure any more. The plot does not feel thought out; nothing feels authentic. This is a did not finish read.

Thank you to NetGalley, the publisher and the author, for an ARC of this book, in exhange for an honest review.
"Paper Ghosts" was the 2nd book that I read by Julia Heaberlin.
I read "We Are All The Same In The Dark" earlier this year and I loved it. I then realized that I had "Paper Ghosts" in my huge list of books that
I still haven't read so I moved it up to the top of my the list.
My only regret about this book is that I didn't read it when I first got it.
I thought it was one wild ride, I had to pay attention every second or I would miss something. I found it an original, very well written, addictive and dark psychological thriller.
I'm definitely going to be on the lookout for any other books that Julia Heaberlin writes.

I really enjoyed Julia Heaberlin's debut novel, Black-Eyed Susans. It was tautly written and I really enjoyed how the unreliable narrator influenced our perception of the psychological thriller. This book is similar in that it's another murder mystery with a questionable narrator, but I found myself alternately bored and annoyed with the story and the two main characters. It got to the point where I didn't even care if Carl was really a manipulative serial killer or just an old man with dementia.

This was a good book. It was a little slow. But I kept going back and forth on my opinion on if Carl was actually guilty or not. It definitely kept me guessing. I loved a lot of the subtle humor in it also. I would probably pick up another book by Julia Heaberlin.

Heaberlin’s new psychological suspense novel takes readers across the vast and changing landscape of Texas; a perfect backdrop to the deteriorating mind of suspected killer Carl Louis Feldman. Carl’s dementia changes like the scenery- sometimes he is as empty and far away as the desert wilderness, other times he is as close and engaging as the thick forest. Heaberlin writes the dementia into the story perfectly- readers, as well as the woman he is with, cannot tell fact from fiction. The timing is perfect, the layers of the story both peel away and deepen as the search into the mind of killer takes turns no one is expecting.

So it took me a little while to get around to reading this one but better late than never, right? I really loved this author's other book Black-Eyed Susans so was really looking forward to reading this one. I really love the whole vigilante kind of journey so this seemed like it was going to be great. While it did have it's good moments that totally weirded me out like a good mystery should, the rest of it was a little bland. I felt like there was too much that Grace was internalizing and it got a little old after awhile. The story felt like it had a fast pace and I guess it did timeline-wise but it was still just slow for me. I did really enjoy how the author included photos that fit in with the story. That was a nice touch. I kind of went back and forth on what to rate this one but I'm going to go with a 3 because it did have it's moments that got to me.

I am sorry for not reviewing fully but I don’t have the time to read this anymore. I believe that it wouldn't benefit you as a publisher or your book if I only skimmed it and wrote a rushed review. Again, I am sorry for not fully reviewing!

Due to my very low rating, no review will be posted to goodreads, amazon, or my youtube channel.
Thank you to the publisher for an e-arc copy in exchange for an honest review.

Unfortunately, I was unable to get into this title. It just wasn't a good fit for me. Thanks so much for the opportunity to read this title. I will not be posting a review online, in order not to skew the ratings.

Who do you become when your need to know encompasses your entire being?

Our narrator is a young adult, who's sister mysteriously disappeared when she was a child. The narrator has been researching and cataloging since, determining to her mind who stole her sister. She narrows her suspect list to one man, a former photographer and suspected killer with dementia who lives in a halfway house. Posing as his daughter, she embarks on a road trip with him, to jog his memory and finally get the answers she seeks. But what she discovers may not be what she wants to know.

I found the premise and process of this novel interesting. I found the author's portrayal of dementia to be honest and unflinching. However, I like my thrillers a little twisted, and not so neatly packaged at the end, so this one got a 3 star rating from me.

Thanks to Julia Heaberlin, Net Galley, and Ballentine Books for an ARC of this novel in exchange for an honest review.

Opening lines: When she was twelve, my sister fell into a grave.

We were two children by ourselves in an empty cemetery, old stones jutting out of the ground in all directions. The grass was dead, the same straw color as my sister's hair. I remember the terrific flutter in my chest. How her fingertips barely brushed mine when I reached my little hand down to try to pull her out. It was freshly dug earth, waiting.

She was laughing down in that hole.

I was five.
Reason I picked up the book: I've read books by Julia Heaberlin before, and they are always fantastic and full of suspense.
And what's this book about?
Carl Louis Feldman is an old man who was once a celebrated photographer. That was before he was tried for the murder of a young woman and acquitted. before his admission to a care home for dementia. Now his daughter has come to see him, to take him on a trip. Only she's not his daughter and, if she has her way, he's not coming back . . .

Because Carl's past has finally caught up with him. The young woman driving the car is convinced her passenger is guilty, and that he's killed, other young women. Including her sister Rachel. Now they're following the trail of his photographs, his clues, his alleged crimes. To see if he remembers any of it. Confesses to any of it. To discover what really happened to Rachel. Has Carl truly forgotten what he did or is he just pretending? Perhaps he's guilty of nothing and she's the liar. Either way in driving him into the Texan wilderness she's taking a terrible risk. For if Carl really is a serial killer, she's alone in the most dangerous place of all . . .
Recommended for: Anyone who enjoys mysteries with a lot of twists and turns.
Favorite paragraph: Old serial killers who roam free have to land somewhere, of course. I've thought about this a lot. They must get tired. Decide to pamper roses or grandchildren. Break hips and suffer heart attacks. Go impotent. Run out of money. Don't see the car coming. Put guns to their heads.

The killers who publicly beat the system, and the unseen monsters who are never caught and slip around silent, pulsing background music. Screeching oboes and pounding drums. Only a few ever hear their soundtrack, right at the very end, and then it's too late.

It took a long, long time to find the man I believe killed my sister. Years. Dozens of interviews. Hundreds of suspects. Thousands of documents. Reading, stalking, stealing. It's been a singular, no-holds-barred obsession since I was twelve and my sister's bike didn't make it the three miles in broad daylight from our house to her summer babysitting job. It was morning.
Something to know: You will probably be surprised at the ending of this book - I know I was.
What I would have changed: Nothing I can think of.
Overall rating: 4 stars out of 5.
Where can I find this book? Click here to purchase on Amazon.

Paper Ghosts blew me away! I didn't see the ending until it smacked me in the face! A page turning must read!

"The fact is, the best way to disappear is to blend into the usual, irritation stream of creatures." 

The main character of Paper Ghosts just does that in order to try and solve the mystery of her sister's kidnapping and murder. Since she was twelve years old, all she's ever wanted was to find out what happened to her sister. Now she has her chance at finding the answer to her sister's disappearance, but the disappearance of other children as well. 

Fully believing Carl Louis Feldman, a renowned documentary photographer who may or may not have dementia, is the man responsible, the main character decides to break him out of his halfway house, claiming to be his long-lost daughter, and takes him on a road trip across Texas. Her hope is that either memory or guilt will help reveal the truth about what really happened. 

"I'm holding hands with the past--the stars above me that died light years ago, the dinosaurs and Indians who are cobwebs in the sand, the girls Carl killed." 

While Paper Ghost has been shelved as a book of suspense, I'd argue that it's more of a psychological thriller. While there are suspenseful moments, the real thrilling elements of the book come in as we explore the minds of the main characters. Heaberlin makes the reader question how they define trust, how much they trust memory, and how much we think we know about ourselves. What lengths would we go to find out the truth? There are no clear "good" or "bad" guys in this book: each character is using the other for their own purposes, and those purposes aren't clear. The relationship between this strange man and the girl pretending to be his daughter 

Literary in style, Heaberlin's Paper Ghosts weaves real crime details with imagined ones ingrained in strong local setting descriptions. So this book isn't just a mystery of "Did Carl actually do these things?" but also a love letter to Texas, the magic of road trips, and the magic of the finding out the truth--and the complicated emotions that come with those.

Thank you Netgalley for the opportunity to preview this ARC of Paper Ghosts by Julia Heaberlin.

Grace is an adult with a tragic past. When she was young her sister was murdered by a man who was never convicted. As Grace gets older, she finally finds the man who she believe did it. But the biggest obstacle is his memory. Carl, the photographer living his elderly life in a home for old felons has dementia. But Grace won't let that deter her. She spends time posing as his daughter before she decides to take him out on a road trip to jog his memory, and get the truth out of him once and for all.

I just could not get into this one. The premise creeped me right the heck out, and made the character seem too reckless to sympathize with. It just wasn't believable.

Clever and gripping, This isn’t what I would call a fast-paced thriller but methodically plotted out & told in a way that keeps you turning the pages long after you needed to go to bed. This is the first book I have read by this author but it is far from the last.

Grace was 12 years old when her sister went missing. Her body has never been found, and Grace has dedicated her life to finding Grace's killer. She sets her sights on Carl Feldman and pretends to be his daughter so that she can release him from his nursing home since he suffers from dementia. He claims to not remember much about his days as a photographer and the people whom he photographed, some of whom ended up murdered. He has not been convicted of any of their murders, but Grace is sure that he is the one. She takes him on a ride through Texas revisiting the scenes of all of the crimes that he was suspected of. She is determined to find answers and closure for her missing sister. It is sometimes hard to determine just exactly what is true and what is imagined since we gradually understand that they are both unreliable narrators.

A wonderful novel that kept me wondering and turning pages.

Thrilling, twisted and unpredictable! An adrenaline rush from the first page to the last. Quirky characters and a tight, nail-biting plot. I did not want to out this book down!

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*I received a complimentary ARC of this book from NetGalley & Random House Publishing Group - Ballantine in order to read and provide a voluntary, unbiased and honest review, should I choose to do so.

Wow! What a story Paper Ghosts was. I was drawn in immediately. The twists in this were great! Th whole story was well written. The characters were very realistic, I enjoyed getting into their heads. The cat and mouse playing throughout was creepy but needed to make this story as great as it was for me.
Thank you NetGalley for the chance to read this.