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Ophelia After All

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I am so glad I was able to get an arc of this book because wow that was amazing. I genuinely don't think I have to words to describe how much I love this book. I loved the friendship dynamics and the themes and just everything about it was fantastic and phenomenal. I loved the cultural aspects and Ophelia's connection to her culture. I really related to that a lot. I love how they talked about intersectionality and how being queer in a latine household isn't a monolith. There are so many different experiences with queerness, especially while also being BIPOC and I'm so glad this book explored those experiences.

Ophelia's friends were such distinctive characters, even though there was a sort of large cast, I still know I'll remember each one. I especially loved how even though Ophelia was the main character and this was her story, it was also everyone's story. We got to hear about everyone's lives and problems and really got to know them as people instead of just side characters.

Overall, this book was amazing and I definitely recommend picking it up when it comes out!

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Ophelia After All is a young adult contemporary book that takes place during the end of senior year of high school and addresses topics like coming out and race. The main character Ophelia is figuring out what to do about the feelings she's having for a girl named Talia and how that changes who she has always believed herself to be. Her family and friends have always known her as "boy crazy" and she's scared and confused about what these new feelings mean about who she is. I really enjoyed the discussions on coming out and queerness. I also thought the commentary on race and the Latine diaspora we're well done, as someone who is Latine
The friendships I'm this book were nice and the high school drama was well done and felt realistic. Unfortunately, although this book seemed to do everything right, there was something missing that prevented me from really loving it I didn't fill connect to the characters as much as I would have liked to. I would still recommend this for anyone looking for a YA contemporary coming out/coming of age story. I do think it's important to note this is not a romance, so don't go into this book with that expectation and you'll have a better experience.

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Ophelia After All is a story that warms my very heart, and one that spoke to my soul. It’s the definition of a comfort read, and a book that feels like a very warm hug; like your best friend coming over and telling you that it’s all going to be okay. It’s a bit odd, I know, to call a book comforting, when my first text to Taylor after reading it was “oh i Sobbed Sobbed”, but it is. Trust me on this. Ophelia After All is for sure a book that will stay with me for a while. Ophelia After All is many things; it’s comforting, it’s messy, it’s a reminder of what high school was like, it’s a tale of friendship, of self-discovery, and of growth.

Racquel Marie has crafted the perfect main character in Ophelia. You can’t help but love her. Ophelia is a fully-fleshed out character, who has flaws, and quirks and hobbies. And at no point is her entire personality the fact that she likes to garden, or that she has a lot of crushes. Just like all of us in high school, Ophelia is trying to figure out who she is in relation to everyone’s perception of her. When so much of her identity is that she’s “boy-crazy” among her friends and family, (despite being a sweet romantic with a huge heart), it makes it almost impossible to explore her own sexuality. After all, how do you tell the people who know you best that actually, they don’t know this huge part of you? More importantly, how do you tell them, when you don’t know how you identify, or what to make of these feelings? One of my favorite things about Ophelia is that it follows the process of Ophelia trying to figure out what fits right for her, and how she realizes that it’s also okay not to choose a label, whether that’s right now, or ever. I loved the way Ophelia’s sexuality was explored, and how Racquel Marie demonstrates that there isn’t one perfect process. More so, I love that Ophelia doesn’t immediately jump to “I’m bisexual!” or “I’m pansexual”, the minute she realizes that she has a crush on Talia. Sometimes, the process is non-linear, sometimes it’s messy, and you can’t tie it up neatly with a bow.

Ophelia’s close relationship with her parents is something that is so special. It’s rare to read a YA novel where the main character has such an endearing, close relationship with her parents, and it warmed my heart so much. Ophelia’s parents unequivocally support her and love her, and I think that made the story all the more stronger. While they’re not perfect parents, and Ophelia and her parents do get into an argument here and there, they genuinely take the time to understand Ophelia’s point of view. I particularly appreciated that they weren’t used as a plot twist, or villainized at any point.

Every character in Ophelia After All, whether Ophelia herself, her parents, or her friends, were all so dynamic, and described in such a way that I felt like I knew them myself. Reading about Ophelia’s friend group and support system was really heartwarming. Her friend group was absolutely wonderful. The friendship dynamics were so realistic, and all the problems that occurred within the friend group reminded me eerily of my own high school experiences. In addition to merging friend groups, there’s also prom drama, popularity, love triangles, and knowing that things will change after graduation. All of that obviously culminated in some tension and watching Ophelia and her friends resolve it and move on was so lovely.

Racquel Marie’s writing style is so easy to read. The groundwork for each plot point has already been laid out for you, and I simply flew through the entire book. If you’re looking for a book about self-discovery, questioning identity, and friendship, I can’t recommend Ophelia After All highly enough. I know I’ll be rereading this one again in the near future!

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I can surely say Ophelia After All is a book that has claimed its place in my heart forever. A comfort read, as people call it or as I’d like to say, a warm hug to myself.

Frankly, this is the standard for YA contemporaries. Ophelia After All follows a Cuban-Irish seventeen year old Ophelia as she navigates a tumultuous phase nearing the end of high school, of change, identity, friendships and growing up. Today I tell you the reasons I loved this book and hope it gives justice to what I truly feel about it.

Simply put, reading through Ophelia’s lens is a delight. Setting Ophelia After All to span the last couple months of high school proved to be quite spot on as the story not only addresses the looming worries of the life that awaits Ophelia but also her newfound questions about her sexuality. The inner turmoil that she goes through, trying to hang to the one thing about herself she knows is true, really highlights her character. Everyone around her knows her as ‘boy crazy Ophelia’ but when she unexpectedly finds herself harboring feelings for a girl, she spirals into a state of denial and confusion.

But then there’s the big fear of change, because if everyone knows her as such, what happens when she admits a part of her has changed? How does she come to terms with the change in herself? Will the people around her still find her to be the Ophelia they knew, or thought they knew?

I find that to be the best part of the novel, how Ophelia After All very meticulously brings these feelings to page—the confusion, the self questioning, the fear of change and the slow descent into an understanding. Most coming of age stories I’ve read have characters who are sure of their identities but struggle to come out about it. But Ophelia After All shows the entire internal struggle of Ophelia from the point that question about her sexuality arises right up until she settles on an understanding of her identity, the feeling like that of a caged bird being freed.

Ophelia’s story definitely moved the recently-turned-adult-me to tears. It’s written in such a raw, heartfelt manner that I had no other choice actually. There’s the feel good contemporaries and there are contemporaries like this… that just get you, that deeply resonate with you, that bring light to feelings within you that you didn’t know existed.

Another wonderful aspect of my whole experience of Ophelia After All is being introduced to Ophelia’s dynamic friend circle. We have a lovely cast of diverse characters, not just racially but also in terms of their identities, who form a strong support system. There are friendships that have lasted since forever, the ones that can pass as acquaintances and the friendships that spark unexpectedly. The background and development of each of these characters gives a depth to the story.

At the core, Ophelia After All centers around prom. But what leads up to it is a mix of merging friend groups, a love triangle and the conversations surrounding the different places these characters will be quite soon. The tide of change that hits these group of friends and their fallouts with Ophelia at the center never feels overdone or some event just to further the plot in a contemporary novel.

Overwhelmed with her emotions—she makes mistakes, detaching herself from her favourite activities, lashing out on people around her—valid, quintessential teenage experiences, but we get to watch Ophelia overcome them all and find her footing among her friends and the plethora of queer labels available to her now. I loved seeing Ophelia’s old friendships become fragile, find new friends who walk her through her hard times and talk her into stability. Seeing these characters interact invoked a melancholic yearning for a friend group as theirs but also provided the comfort in witnessing such friendships however possible. I especially loved Wesley and Agatha.

Staying true to its namesake, Ophelia’s story isn’t perfect or linear. There’s anger, vulnerability and its messy but ultimately its about hoping that the foundation she’s built for herself is strong enough to withstand the changes and hardships, its about believing in the relationships she has to guide her through such moments. Ophelia’s interest in botany and gardening forms beautiful imageries for the stages in her story.

Like a cherry on top, I love how it ended, not like the typical versions of happily ever afters or that Ophelia suddenly has a clarity about herself, just this message that she’s learning herself, that she might never know how to label her sexuality, that she’s valid despite all the uncertainty and self relearning.

A fantastic debut, Ophelia After All is an honest love letter to all confused, questioning queer kids. It assures us of the inevitability of change and reminds us that the love we receive gives us the strength to be true to ourselves. Its a book that made me cry under the intensity of emotions but soothed me throughout and I hope its the same for you.

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CWs: some explorations of racism and colorism; some internal and external experiences with homophobia/lesbophobia; brief allusions to homophobic slurs

Frankly, I'm upset that this book is so unbelievably incredible. It played with my heart and my emotions, and now I just can't stop thinking about it. This story is perfect for fans of Fifteen Hundred Miles From the Sun, which is about the highest compliment I can pay. (Though it should be noted that while FHMFTS is overtly a romance, this story is not.)

This is a phenomenal coming of age story that's equal parts heartfelt and heart-wrenching. It is perfectly set towards the end of Ophelia's senior year in high school, right before prom, when it feels like anything could happen and everything could change. It is, perhaps, the scariest, most exciting, most tumultuous time in a teenager's life, and I think the story beautifully captures the highs and lows of that experience. Not only is it a great time period for the story to be set because of all the life-changing things happening at once, but also because the pressing fear of the unknown really adds to Ophelia's inner turmoil and her irrational desire to freeze time before graduation.

That aversion to change is a major tenet of the story. With all the stress and worry that comes with the end of high school, Ophelia is desperate to hold on to "the way things have always been" in hopes that at least she and her friends won't have change before everything else does. Her friends and family all know her as the flower-obsessed, hopeless romantic, "boy-crazy," heart-on-her-sleeve girl, and when she begins to develop feelings for a girl in her government class, it feels like that image of herself is crumbling around her.

The misconception that queerness changes or undermines everything that came before it, is such a pervasive myth that keeps so many young folks, especially, from being able to claim their queerness. I appreciate how the story confronts that idea head-on, and painstakingly shows how Ophelia is both the same person she's always been and also someone who is continuing to learn about herself and grow into something new—which is a change, yes, but a welcome one.

But far and away my favorite thing about this story is the dynamic friend group and the prevalent sense of found family. This is one of the most authentic high school friend groups I've ever read about. There's such a mixture of dynamics and complexity between all the different characters that really adds texture to the story. Some of the characters have been friends since childhood, some of them only met through mutual friends, or because of classes they had together, and others still became acquainted just because sitting together at lunch was convenient. They all come from different levels of the social hierarchy, so to speak, and the loyalty and affection between them is not the same across the board for every single person in the group. To me, that was perhaps the most realistic detail, because even in a large group, "friendship" doesn't always get equally disseminated on a one-to-one basis.

That's part of what makes the story feel so real. There are friends in this story who love each other, who are *in* love with each other, who are fighting with each other, who are competing with each other, and even some who feel indifferently towards one another—and that is true to the experience of having a big friend group. Over the course of the story, these friends are not only changing together, but their bonds are being tested. They're figuring out how they understand themselves as individuals outside of the group, but also trying to figure out their place *within* the group while also trying to learn about how they can be better friends.

I just really appreciate how forthcoming the story is in how it shows that growing into the person you were always meant to be is often accompanied by messiness, ugliness, discomfort, and uncertainty. Ophelia, especially, is dealing with a lot of internalized homophobia, convincing herself that she cannot possibly be anything other than the romantic, boy-loving person who she's always been, which leads to a lot of internal strife.

She ends up making a lot of mistakes, hiding her feelings, lashing out at people she loves, detaching herself from people and activities that used to make her happy and give her a sense of purpose, and I think all of that tracks when you consider the immense burden that is repressing or hiding an important part of yourself. While the reader feels almost helpless watching Ophelia have to go through that, getting to witness as she hits her breaking point and then has to try to come back from it also comes with a profound sense of catharsis.

Ultimately, I think the story is about learning to trust the foundation that you've built for yourself. It's about hoping that the person you've always shown yourself to be is strong enough to endure any change or any hardship. It's about hoping that the relationships you've maintained and nurtured over the years are strong enough to hold you up in your darkest moments and enduring enough to prevail against any imaginable obstacle.

Most importantly, what struck me about this story is how it celebrates the fact that one of the most important kinds of love is the love we have towards ourselves. This isn't a story about "landing the girl" or realizing your queerness through a relationship. Instead, it's a story that says maybe the happily ever after begins with discovering, seeing, and accepting yourself. That doesn't mean that Ophelia has everything figured out by the end of the book, or that everything about her life and herself neatly falls into focus. But rather Ophelia finally comes to understand that she—in all her messiness, uncertainty, and imperfection—is really and truly enough.

I truly cannot put into words what this story is going to mean to so many readers. To have such a profound story about a queer biracial Cuban-American girl that is full of so much fun, humor, heart, emotion, and love is truly a gift. This story will deftly take you through the emotional whirlwind that is the end of senior year, but it will also offer a balm of hope and compassion. It reminds us to look inwards and realize that change is indicative of life itself, that there is beauty in the fact that we are constantly growing and discovering new things.

This debut is not one to miss, and if it's any indication of what we can expect from Racquel's stories still to come, then we are all the more fortunate!

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Ophelia After All healed something within me as I was reading it. The confusion of figuring out your identity and evolving as you do so, to adjusting not your worldview, but everyone's around you - it is all too familiar and incredibly to see in this story. Preorder it asap for your shelves!

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At first I thought I had this book all figured out as your typical happily ever after prom night trope, but it was a lot more than that. Recently I’ve started becoming aware of and reading more books with LGBTQ+ While many of the other books I’ve read focus on the coming out aspect and the reactions of others, this is the first time I get to witness a character navigating the road to self discovery and acceptance in such a way that I almost felt I was living the experience with her. Some aspects of the book were clearly intended for a younger audience (I’m well past the age of getting excited about the prom night trope) but I still give this book five stars because I know it will be very helpful and empowering for its intended audience.
Ps. I enjoyed the bonus of learning more about Shakespeare’s characters

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A joy from start to finish, this exceptional coming-of-age story follows biracial Cuban-Irish teen Ophelia who must navigate identity, change and friendship at the sunset of high school.

All her life, Ophelia has always ‘fallen in love just a little bit every day with someone new’. To all her family and friends, Ophelia has always been ‘boy crazy Ophelia’, but when Ophelia realises that she has a crush on one of the girls at school, this calls everything she knows about herself into question and will shatter the perceptions and expectations of those around her. Because how do you tell the people that know, love, and see you every day that, somehow, sometime, someplace, you are no longer the person that they have always known you to be? How do you tell them that, along the way, you changed?

Ophelia After All takes readers along on a heartfelt journey on what it means to change when everything else around you is changing. Racquel brilliantly and bravely explores that space of ‘in-between’, that fraught and blurry space where you aren’t quite sure of who you are; when the person you used to be no longer fits but the person you may be feels unfamiliar and undiscovered. For Ophelia, supposedly ‘boy crazy Ophelia’, what does it mean to question your sexuality, to explore that, contrary to popular belief, you aren’t ‘boy crazy Ophelia’ anymore? And more, what does it mean when you don’t quite know how to share these quiet revelations with the people who know and love you?

Change is inevitable and the story leans into the tumult and messiness that changing and growing brings. What I loved, though, is that Ophelia After All says with so much gentleness and love: it’s okay to change, it’s okay to be unsure about who you are, it’s okay to figure out who you are, because that person is so worth discovering and is so worthy of love.

Amidst Ophelia’s journey of identity, Ophelia After All also offers a down-to-earth story about friendship and high school drama that, I promise, never feels puerile or overdone. Rather, the friendship troubles that Ophelia navigates feel incredibly real and organic. From friend groups merging, the drama and suspense of a love triangle converging towards an inevitable rejection, to the reality that everyone will part ways once the year is over, Ophelia After All not only boasts a cast of memorable and developed characters, but also left me with that rare feeling of that, by the end, I felt like Ophelia’s friends were my friends too.

Holding together this gorgeous story of identity and friendship is also its palpable love to all the queer kids who are still figuring themselves out – who are questioning, exploring uncharted waters, or simply adrift, simply being, in an ocean of possibility. Ophelia After All is a story that helps hold your feelings, however simple or complex, and shows that love – whether it be platonic love, family love, and love for who we are and could be – is what gives us the courage to brave whatever may come our way.

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I really loved this book. Not only does it cover the exploration of sexuality, but it also hits at the complicated feelings of being bisexual in a straight-passing relationship. The friendships in this are really amazing and I was rooting for Ophelia the whole time

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I love this book so much! This is such a beautiful book about self-discovery. Ophelia goes through the relatable experience of being afraid to realize that your view of who are you isn't quite accurate and that it's okay to change and learn new things about yourself. When questioning your sexuality it's so hard to know who you can talk with about it because, even if they haven't given you a reason to believe they're homophobic, there's always the terrifying possibility that their love is more conditional than you hope. This book made me cry in the best way and I'm so glad teens will have this book, because I definitely needed it when I was younger.

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Loved this warming story of identity and self-awareness. The voice is fun, the characters well developed and multi-faceted, and I adored the gardening aspect. Ophelia is a favorite for sure!

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Ophelia Rojas (yes, named after Hamlet’s Ophelia) loves rose gardening, gossiping with her besties, and crushing on boys. But senior year of high school is bringing up all sorts of new drama. Her best guy friend has been hopelessly in love with another friend for years, but might lose out on his chance to ask her to prom with a new guy on the scene. Her other bestie is determined to get that same friend voted prom queen and is pouring everything she has into the campaign. And Ophelia, feeling distanced from her two best friends, finds herself growing closer to a quiet girl in her class. This new friendship, along with the fear of figuring out life after high school, has Ophelia questioning everything she thought she knew about herself.

Ophelia After All is a heartwarming exploration of how old friendships change as we grow up and how new experiences shape who we will become. Ophelia makes mistakes, is often overwhelmed with emotions, and feels like a true depiction of the teenage experience. I loved how realistic every character’s interactions are, even in the dramatic moments. And I found myself invested in many of the character’s side stories, beyond just how they fit into Ophelia’s life. There are also great examples of kids having open, honest, and tough conversations with each other and their parents. It is wonderful to see examples of positive communication and how it can begin the process of healing fractured relationships. This is the kind of novel I wish existed when I was in high school. I’m happy this story is being told now.

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ophelia after all has become my new favorite YA fiction of all time. i found myself immersed in this friend group and their dynamic with each other. each character had incredible development and i want to know each and every one of them personally.

ophelia after all follows ophelia, a “boy crazy” botany lover, deal with some of the most relatable senior year problems ever. between figuring out her sexuality, the merging of 2 friend groups, and a love triangle, this book has the best representation of high school i’ve read.

one of the many, many things i loved about this book was how ophelia’s sexuality journey was written. it was messy. it was hard. it wasn’t linear. while some days she felt more accepting of herself, other days she outright rejected the thought of being queer. getting the support and stories she needed through an lgbtq+ center, her family, and her friends showed just how real and raw the coming out process can be.

as a senior in high school, this book tugged at the heart strings. i’m currently dealing with my own sexuality struggles and end of the year senior anxiety, and seeing it on paper made me feel so much less alone. ophelia talked about how she knew some of the group wouldn’t still be friends when they went to college which is something many books don’t cover. thinking about losing hometown friends is terrifying, and this book brought up feelings of that, but the relief i felt knowing this was a ton of other peoples experience outweighed that.

this book also provided a lot of cultural depth between her and her friend group. most of the friend group was non-white, one of her friends is plus-sized, and so many queer identities so often forgot about in media showed up throughout this book.

with all that being said, ophelia after all will, no doubt, become one of my top five reads this year. i am so, so excited to promote this and shove it into every customers hand!!!

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It was easy to keep up with the characters, endearing rascals for the most part. Usual teenage drama and it feels reachable & realistic for teens.

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This book said: you will end up with a queer friend group even before you know you're queer.

This book is for you if you like messy, complicated stories, if you want great questioning rep, if you want an amazing friend group, and if you're in the mood for a coming-of-age contemporary that's really focused on figuring yourself out instead of a romance-focused story. The characters in this book felt so real, and I especially loved Wesley and Agatha.

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I love how animated and alive all the characters were because it made them so relatable. It was a lot of fun to read about them and get to know them since they, much like myself, are all in their final stretch of senior year.
I completed related to Ophelia and her fear over the questioning of her sexuality because I have definitely been there. And I understand that’s it’s really hard to discover a new part of yourself when you, and the people who surround you, are so used to you being in a certain box. I also loved all the new friendships and discoveries Ophelia was able to make along the route of her story. It was so empowering as a reader to watch her grow and step outside of her carefully crafted boundaries. And her coming out scene to her friends and family was such a beautiful moment that was so perfectly captured.
I also thought that the symbolism behind Ophelia’s garden was a beautiful connective to her life and so well done. Much like her namesake Ophelia’s story isn’t perfect. It’s messy and there’s sadness and anger but ultimately it’s genuine. I think a lot more books today are filled with the perfect Cinderella story ending with only minor bumps along the road but what I liked about Ophelia After All was that it ended happily but not in a traditional fashion which was so refreshing and I’m so happy I got to see Ophelia grow and flourish over the course of her journey.

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Sigh. I really expected more. I liked Ophelia's story and her interactions with Talia, but I really didn't care about her friends' dramas, especially since so much of the book is about one of the blandest love triangles I've read in YA in a long time and it barely concerns the protag.

There's also the fact that while the cast is super diverse both in terms of race and sexuality, the book still seems outdated. For one, it's a coming out story, which is becoming less of the norm in queer YA and this book kind of reminded me why. And for another, I'm still scratching my head at how a contemporary teenager in Northern California doesn't know what "queer" or "asexual" means.

This might be me because I wasn't 100% in the mood for this kind of story, but it still wasn't exactly what I hoped for.

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this book punched me in the gut several times but still managed to feel like a warm hug. i loved these characters, especially our darling ophelia with her roses and big heart. reading her internal struggles with identity, sexuality, and culture was heartbreaking at times, enlightening at others, and there were certain parts that i related to that really hit home. an absolutely fantastic debut.

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Ophelia After All gave me everything I needed and then some. It was a truly inspiring Debut and I enjoyed every minute of it. As a young queer woman myself I really connected with Ophelia on another level. The writing was compelling and not too complex but very easy to read!

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This was an original and heartfelt book. As a soon to graduate senior, Ophelia is looking forward to attending prom, hanging out with her close group of friends, and heading to college to study botany. She feels like she has a strong sense of self, and does not expect much to change. But then she finds herself that she cannot stop thinking about her classmate, Talia. And it seems like many of her friends are also going through their own changes. As Talia faces this uncertainty, in her own identity and how relationships, she struggles with that means for herself, her relationships with her family and friends, and her future.

This was an enjoyable book. Ophelia is a compelling character, and the supporting characters make for a rich story. This is a great coming-of-age novel.

Highly recommended!

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