Where do you even begin with this book? Christy Wilkens has you feeling like you're walking the journey with her - from the first terrifying seizure to the moment in Lourdes. It was like a shared experience of a spiritual and emotional journey, each heart breaking and encouraging moment of it.

Christy and Todd WIlkens took their son Oscar to Lourdes with the Order of Malta on a pilgrimage, hoping for healing.

The couple was desperate for a miracle. Their little boy was suffering from a seizure disorder that had begun during his infancy. After a year of chasing treatment after treatment, Christy could see that nothing was helping Oscar—at least, nothing that doctors or hospitals could offer him.

In Awakening at Lourdes: How an Unanswered Prayer Healed Our Family and Restored Our Faith, Christy Wilkens describes the details of her last-ditch spiritual effort to heal what modern medicine could not. She and her husband were exhausted, and the constant caregiving, monitoring, and medical visits for Oscar did not leave much left over for their five older children—or their marriage.

As they began their journey at the airport, Christy and Todd learned immediately about the loving care Oscar—and she and her husband—would receive from the team of Order of Malta volunteers, known as a “pod,” who were assigned to her family, and only to her family. Even as they learned what Oscar needed, these volunteers provided what Christy and Todd needed as well, including time to process the 24/7 caregiving their little boy had required for the past year.

A pilgrimage to Lourdes is much, much more than simply a trip to a shrine that boasts a spring of healing water, as the Wilkens family learned. It is a spiritual experience, bringing healing and wholeness in unexpected ways.

Awakening at Lourdes is a timely read during National Marriage Week, and as we prepare to celebrate the February 11 feast of Our Lady of Lourdes.

Compulsively readable and life changing. By turns harrowing and inspiring. Straight to the top of the 'to read' pile. Simple as that!

I absolutely adored this book! The author is so honest about her journey from the beginning of her son’s illness to journeying to Lourdes (a place that I have truly wanted to visit myself). Her journey with her son and her husband to Lourdes was inspiring, beautiful and raw. And I am here for it all! Absolutely recommend!

This was a beautiful and touching story of learning how to let go and trusting God for everything. Christy and her husband get the opportunity to visit Lourdes in an effort to have their son, Oscar, healed. Christy expects an immediate healing but what she learns is that the healing isn't necessarily a quick fix for a physical ailment. I loved the journey through her thoughts and how she figures out she is her biggest obstacle to getting what she needs from Lourdes. It teaches us all that we need to relinquish control and let God in.

I really enjoyed reading this book. Not only because of how brutally honest Christy Wilkens is with her readers regarding the emotions she is feeling, but because of the details regarding Lourdes pilgrimage and the Order of Malta.

I am a cradle Catholic and I have always heard about Lourdes and its healing waters, but I never really knew what occurs during a pilgrimage. Wilken’s writings transported me there and when I was more curious about something I was looking up videos on youtube or researching it further.

Her discussion about her own spiritual healing and that of her husband is so touching and inspiring. It's hard lesson to learn, to humble yourself, and accept your brokenness as a gift from God. But it is an important lesson to learn. I highly recommend this book to anyone who has a loved one suffering from a disease or disorder. Anyone who is having doubts in their faith in God. Anyone who loves Our Lady and wants to learn more!

Thank you to Ave Maria Press for my copy in exchange for an honest review!

‘Awakening at Lourdes’ is a powerful testimony of Christy Williams and the cross God has given her. Christy Williams brilliantly and effectively reiterates the details of her trip to Lourdes, her son, Oscar’s medical problems, frustration, marriage, complete helplessness, and inability to let go.
How many times in our struggle do we sit down to pray with our fellow sister in Christ but not open to receiving prayers for ourselves? Or the frustration we feel when God is not answering our prayers the way we want him to. Her ability to answer the theodicy of the problem of evil (why do bad things happen to good people) by using her testimony is powerful. At the beginning of the story, she portrays Martha, frustrated at her husband and her situation. As we accompany the author on her journey, she transforms into the Virgin Mary, fully trusting in the Lord, even in the midst of pain. She willing picks up her cross with its thorn branches, but this time, she allows passersby such as Simon to help while leaning on God.
The author is Catholic; however, ‘Awakening at Lourdes’ is interdenominational and would be a wonderful book for your church’s book club. Books like ‘Awakening at Lourdes’ are why I made this blog; it nourishes your walk with Jesus.

Exquisitely written from a powerbase of profound pain, Awakening at Lourdes offers readers an emotionally-riveting spiritual adventure. Author Christy Wilkens deftly chronicles her rocky journey to the French town where miracles happen.

With grit and generosity, Wilkens' lays bare the suffering of her family and their quest to find relief in the healing waters of Lourdes. In revealing her own brokenness, the author invites the reader to examine her own and to seek comfort in the loving arms of Christ.

I found myself on the edge of my seat, wondering how Wilkens' pilgrimage would end. While Wilkens writes eloquently of the crosses she encounters along her path, she also offers great hope in the midst of suffering.

I believe Awakening at Lourdes is a life-changing book which will greatly help a number of people to find solace and support along their own personal Via Dolorosa.

Christy Wilkens is very gifted in drawing you into the story, and it felt as if I was living the experience with her every step of the way. This was an amazing spiritual and emotional roller coaster, where I was feeling the anxiety, abandonment, fear, joy, love, fatigue, desperation, consolation, and anger. Although, I’m sure that the feelings I felt pales in comparison to her living it.

Her amazing story, and others like it, are inspiring to the faithful to keep going, even in the face of adversity.

Thank you Christy!

Those of us who pray (or don't pray) with a hint of "but answer my prayers like *this* please, God" or pray and then drive forward with the action we think will solve our problems have needed this book for a while now.

Christy faced the horrible surprise of holding her five month old sixth child in her arms during his first seizure. After a year of doctor's appointments, research, prayer (including an answered one in which she heard that, though He would be with her through it all, this sickness in her child was her cross to bear), and an emotional distancing from her husband, the Wilkens parents and son with epilepsy ventured to Lourdes with the Order of Malta's annual week of pilgrimage.

There she found herself cradled in the arms of strangers, Our Lady, and Our Lord, but not without great battle with her perfectionism, controlling nature (or choices to be so). God changed her heart and she learned to surrender.

I will not be alone in identifying with a woman and mother who seeks to control everything, taking to heart the proverb "God helps those who help themselves." We don't know when to surrender and we don't know how. This book taught me how through her experience, her eloquent writing, and her conversational tone. It read like a narrative and I couldn't wait to return to my Kindle each day to keep walking with her on the journey.

I received an advanced digital copy of this book. All opinions and words are my own.

**I received an eARC. All of my opinions are my own.**

Where to start on this book, which felt like it came into my life at exactly the right time?

First of all, the author is obviously a trained writer. Her story has just the right number of details to be intriguing without being boring, her similes and metaphors are fresh and interesting, and overall, I was extremely impressed with the quality of the writing.

Second, the story itself was so engaging! I loved hearing about her and her husband’s journey, along with the lovable Oscar, to Lourdes and back. And seeing the powerful way that God worked in the author’s life, to destroy her pride and bring her peace, was very, very moving. I was on the verge of tears a couple of different times!

Thirdly, I appreciated how there were various references throughout the story to contemporary Catholic culture, and even the slightly older roots of Catholic culture, and older Catholic ideas—Lewis, Tolkien, the Dominicans, Archbishop Cordileone, the concept of Kairos, John of the Cross, John 1:5, Latin as the mother tongue of the Church, “mountaintop moments”, consecration to Mary, “The Servant Song” which is one of my dad’s favorite hymns. Each of those felt like an Easter Egg hidden just for me within the story. <3

Fourthly, the brief explanations of Catholic theology and tradition for those who aren’t Catholic who might read the book were very well done—brief, to the point, and correct, most of the time. There were, however, two instances where I raised an eyebrow at the phrasing of the theology—first of all, the phrase describing the Eucharist, that it is “clothed under the appearance of bread” is not especially correct—the Eucharist is under the appearance of bread, but the word “clothed” suggests a dichotomy between the externality and internality of bread vs. Jesus that simply isn’t there. Obviously it’s not a big thing, one simply word, and one person’s reaction, but it definitely made me raise an eyebrow. Second of all, she says that the love between the Father and the Son “creates” the Holy Spirit. This is incorrect. God is uncreated. The Holy Spirit does precede from the love between the Father and the Son, as we say in the Nicene Creed, but He is not created. Theological nitpicking aside, the inclusion of explanations for those unfamiliar with Catholicism was extremely thoughtful.

Fifthly, her little reflections within the story—on suffering, on pride, on letting go, on our need for God’s mercy and love—were perfect. Not too short, not too long, not too preachy, and just what I needed at the moment!

Sixthly and lastly, I loved how much “community” was a theme throughout the story, how the community rallied around them, bringing them what they needed, praying for them, and so on. My family has experienced this “community hug” in our lives before, several times, and it was so lovely to see it in someone else’s tale as well.

Four stars!

This book is a heartbreaking tale of a mother's struggle with her infant son's epilepsy. While on pilgrimage in Lourdes she and her child experience grace in unexpected ways and Christy learns to relinquish control and trust in God's love. I appreciate the author's candor when describing her struggles with faith and recounting the trials of her son's ailments without seeking pity. This is the first book that has made me cry in a long time, it is beautiful . This is a must read for anyone who is suffering and needs to be comforted by their Mother.

I received an advance copy of, Awakening at Lourdes, by Christy Wilkens. This is a very good book. Oscar has seizures, his parents are taking him on a pilgrimage to Lourdes, to heal him. The mother is so honest and raw in her telling of the story and her faith.