This is a devastatingly honest account of a woman who loses not just one, but two husbands to suicide. Suicide is such a remarkably painful thing for loved ones to endure, and to go through it twice is just unthinkable. Marci's account is raw, emotive, honest, and courageous. This is a heavy topic but she does it with sensitivity for her readers. The only reason I marked it three stars is because the writing style is lacking, and for such a sensitive topic, I felt the writing needed to be of a much higher quality, to really do it justice. I am grateful for Marcia's honesty.

WOW! Marci has been through everything that life can throw at her and managed to somehow find the courage to write about it. Very heartbreaking and she did an amazing job at putting her thoughts and experiences on paper for others who may be experiencing similar heartbreaks. Incredible book and highly recommend.

This is a truly heartbreaking story of losing two husbands to suicide. Having lost a family member to suicide, I picked this one up because I find that grieving a death by suicide is a unique grief. This book had many facets - it documented Savage's grief process, gave ideas for how to help (and avoid hurting) a loved one who has lost someone to suicide, and shared statistics surrounding suicide. One of the really special touches was the person letter to readers that Savage included.

I can't imagine the horror of losing one spouse to suicide, but the thought of two is unthinkable. Marci Glidden Savage survived the suicide of her husband of more than 30 years. A few years later, she lost her second husband to suicide also. This book, though, does not dwell on the loss of her husbands, but on her learning to live and love again after those losses. While I thought this book would be more about the events that happened in the author's life, instead she shared with us the journey of living with grief. She describes Grief as a new companion in her life and details learning to live with that new addition to her life. As she writes, "When Grief moves in, everything changes." I can't say I enjoyed this book. I don't think you can enjoy reading about the most painful experiences in a person's life. But I appreciate her sharing this journey with us. It was heart-breaking and hopeful at the same time.

Heartbreaking story. Can't imagine the pain author and family going thru.

Thanks to author, publisher and netgalley for the chance to read this book. While I got the book for free, it had no bearing on the rating I gave it.

Wow! Marci really put her heart out there in this well-written memoir. about her life, marriages, death and grief.. I'm not sure how she got through one suicide, let alone two in such a short period. I truly admire her strength and determination to persevere.

A memoir about losing two husbands to suicide. Her first husband, Paul, and she were married for almost 40 years, seemingly very happy, when she found him dead by suicide. She writes about the shock and grief of that and then eventually moving on to a new relationship with Michael. After only 8 months of marriage, Mike also took his own life. I didn't really like the writing style, but it was hard not to feel for Marci and I appreciated her honesty about her grief as well as her discussions about the causes of suicide. I appreciated that she discussed suicide being more the result of an illness, rather than a weakness in character. Blaming someone for suicide is like blaming someone with cancer for succumbing to an infection due to a weakened immune system; someone weakened by mental health, stress, a number of other things is more susceptible to suicide and it doesn't necessarily matter that other people might be hurt by it. Someone else's pain isn't going to stop a person from dying of suicide any more than it would a physical disease. I liked that Marci made this clear. 3 stars.

The most important thing the reader can take away from Savage’s book is that we all need to work to eliminate the stigma associated with suicide. Those who die by suicide are suffering from an often invisible disease. They don’t choose suicide, their disease does. Savage’s courage to share her story and her experience with suicide will, no doubt, have a profound impact on those who find her words after experiencing the same.

From a widow of just over 2 years, this book was one I debated reading. I was skeptical it might be triggering. My husband did not die of the same method but the triggers were there. The way grief is a visitor that never leaves. The way people want to fix you without understanding that you can’t fix this. The way it’s with you 24/7, 365 days a year for life. The way you write about friends stepping away is incredibly true. As a widow, you may say no to every invite but that should be our choice and no one else’s.

I applaud the writer for being so open. I tried to write my husbands story but can’t do it yet. Thank you for reminding me I am not alone in my grief feelings.

I loved the honesty. The raw emotion. The bravery.

Thank you NetGalley, for the free ARC this book.

The story is beyond heartbreaking, but I did not care for the author’s writing style. There are valuable resources in the book for those who are struggling with mental health issues, and that makes the book worthwhile.

Marci experienced a trauma when her husband of 34 years died by suicide. Five years later, her husband of 8 months also took his own life. I found this book a bit hard going and it would probably be more suitable to someone experiencing grief at the moment. It's a quick read and it isn't badly written but I found it didn't hold my attention.