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The Immeasurable Depth of You

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Thank you to NetGalley and Maria Ingrande Mora for providing me with the e-arc of The Immeasurable Depth of You!

My initial commentary on the book's synopsis read: "I saw "anxious bisexual" and "...can't stop thinking about death" and am preparing to feel SEEN." And, boy, did I?

The Immeasurable Depth of You is a book that would have deeply resonated with me when I was the age of the main character, Brynn (15). While her anxiety doesn't quite manifest in the same manner, there were a lot of similarities between my own experience and hers that allowed me to enjoy this book despite me not being in the intended age category.

Throughout this book, I had to remind myself that I wasn't the intended reader because I struggled with some of the writing and, certainly, the characterization of the young lead, Brynn. At first, I didn't like Brynn. She externalizes many of her anxious thoughts, and her interactions with her father in the early parts of the book stressed me out as they danced around each other, learning each other like near-strangers. Over the book, she grew on me, through her interactions with her dad and Paula especially. I thought Brynn's relationship with her dad was the shining star of this story.

<b>What I Liked:</b> The environmental descriptions from the POV of Brynn really made me feel like I was in Florida. I also thought the setting, especially Brynn's Tide, was a unique one. As mentioned above, I really enjoyed the interactions between Brynn and her dad and Brynn and Paula. The scenes surrounding the hurricane were my favorite.

<b>What I Didn't (as much):</b> While I saw what the author was going for with the mystery/plot surrounding Skylar, its execution wasn't my favorite. The resolution was disappointing for such an interesting setup (hot ghost girl who can't explain how she died, hello?) and after a while, Skylar took the place of Brynn for the outlet of my frustration with characterization. She had so much potential, and I just ultimately was left wanting more.

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i don’t have much to say other than i really really connected with this book. it is in some ways a coming-of-age novel, the main character brynn is 15 and is sent to florida to spend the summer with her dad after her mom found a concerning post on her tumblr blog. brynn struggles a lot with anxiety among other mental illnesses which is a big part of the book. she is also bisexual and is shown to have feelings for both a boy and a girl throughout the book. as someone who is queer and has also struggled with anxiety and ocd, especially in my teens, this book made me feel like my experience was understood. i really felt for and related to brynn as she was struggling with her anxiety and intrusive thoughts. a lot of other reviews say that they thought she was ‘annoying’ and ‘over dramatic’ but i honestly think it was kind of the point because when you’re her age it really does feel like the world is out to get you and you will always be suffering. i thought the author captured this emotional state very well. if this book interests you i recommend reading the trigger warnings on goodreads and reading (and really listening to) the authors’ note at the beginning before reading! i definitely recommend this book!

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I'm at a point where a lot of YA doesn't work for me anymore, but I was pleasantly surprised by this book! The Immeasurable Depth of You took an honest but compassionate approach to both the main character's anxiety and OCD and mental illness as a wider topic. I've never seen a book talk about the (sometimes gross) physical aspects of anxiety the way this book does, and while it can be uncomfortable to read about, this book was a realistic look at the kind of stuff I was going through when I was 15 (and what I assume a lot of 15 year olds are still going through, lol).

Brynn is a complicated main character--she cares for the people in her life and wants to help and reassure them, but she's also anxious and impulsive and selfish in the way most teenagers are. This definitely could have come off as obnoxious, but I found her endearing. This book takes place at a very tumultuous point in her life, and I was rooting for her to grow and find her place in all of that.

The speculative element of this book is pretty light, but I love a good tragic ghost story so I enjoyed the way it was incorporated. The plot does veer into some over-the-top territory at a couple of points, but at the end of the day it's a character-driven YA novel, so I didn't find myself too thrown off by the more ridiculous moments.

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I found this book trough the Read Now section on NetGalley and the cover immediately grabbed my attention since it's very pretty.

The book itself is about a 15 year old girl with an anxiety disorder an intrusive thoughts, and i felt like this was portrayed pretty good.

This book personally wasn't really for me, i'm probably not the target audience for this and didn't feel the connection as much with the characters as i normally would. I also thought the amount of times a 15 year old girl was bringing up her ''big boobs'' was unnecessary and didn't add much to the story, even though it was brought up at least 5 times trough the whole book.

I did love that Brynn reconnects with her dad and that's she's open to him dating Paula and her also having a good connection with Paula. Though i feel like Brynn's dad leaving her alone time and time again, knowing that she does dumb things and gets herself into trouble would just not be a realistic reaction from a parent.

Overall 3 stars from me

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Thank you NetGalley, Peachtree and Peachtree Teen, for the chance to read this book in exchange of an honest review.

TW: anxiety, panic attacks, depression, suicide, suicide ideation, intrusive thoughts

Brynn is a fifteen years old girl who can't stop thinking about death. Everything is terrifying for her and her anxiety prevents her to face her fears. When her mother interprets, wrongly, one of her Tumblr post as a suicide note, she's grounded in Florida with her distant father, with no phone and Internet. Now on a houseboat in the Florida mangroves, Brynn is force to face boredom and her fears. Like baby sharks, snakes and drowning. Without her online friend, with only her father to talk to, Brynn is bored...until she meets Skylar, athletic, quirky, confident, able to conjure butterflies in Brynn's stomach and not because of her anxiety. When she discovers Skylar can't leave the bayou, Brynn starts to investigate what really happened to her and how to help her. Even though doing that means confronting her fears, getting out of her comfort zone and face herself.

The immeasurable depth of you is a wonderful queer coming-of-age story, told by a funny, sometimes awkward and always sincere main character. Brynn is a brilliant protagonist, who is struggling with her mental illness, her fears, intrusive thoughts and anxiety. Her constant thinking about death, her struggling thoughts and body are realistic written and I felt so deeply involved in her story and thoughts. Brynn is a young teenager, feeling isolated, helpless and hopeless, fighting a battle against her brain, fears and what she thinks people think of her and her own thoughts about herself. When she forced to spent her Summer with her distant father, when she meets Skylar, everything changes and she's forced to confront herself with a new reality, new fears and new paths. Her courage and determination, her willingness to discover what happened to Skylar, to open herself to her father and Paula, to face the water and other small things, but seen as huge enough for her, are inspirational and wonderfully written.
Brynn growing up, learning, often messily, to accept all parts of herself are skillfully interwoven with what happen to Skylar, her pain and sadness, her choices and fears and, also, Brynn's relationship with her father and mother and how she starts to see herself, accepting and embracing everything that makes her her.

I truly loved this book. Not only the setting was marvellous, with the descriptions, the water, mangroves, heat and sunburn, but the characters stand out with their own complexities, fears, choices and thoughts, with their interpersonal relationships and how difficult they can be.
The way the author talked about delicate themes like anxiety disorder, panic attacks, suicide, intrusive thoughts is with sensitivity and skill, making the reader feel involved in the story and it's not an easy one. It's a complicated story, told with such care it's impossible not to feel for these characters and their choices and fates
Truly brilliant.

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this is only a 3 1/2 star read for me but I absolutely recommend this to people who are looking for:
- A queer YA book without a central romance but that still mentions attraction, crushes and has a coming out
- contemporary books with a sprinkle of the fantastical in the forms of a dead ghost but no actual mystery/thriller plotline, a very character-focused story with minimal plot
- an honest look at what managing your mental health and disabilities looks like as a teenager with two supportive parents; awkward moments, misunderstandings, and included

I think this story does so many things excellently. Brynn is not happy that she has to spend the summer with her dad, without internet access, on a boat house (!) during a hot Florida summer. She is not impressed.
The book has a lot of quiet moments. We get to cringe with her as she reconnects with her father and struggles to adjust to her new temporary life. We get to see her miss her online friend and make a new one. We get to be in her mind as her intrusive thoughts circle and circle and circle, as her anxiety spikes. We are adrift with the character, a boat at sea, as the mystery of Skylar drives Brynn to make exceedingly rash decisions as she decides she cannot let this go.
The writing works very well for this type of story and I think it could be an absolute treat for the right person.

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This book made me sob late at night when I finished it and it was perfect.

So the themes of this book were pretty heavy and I saw a lot of my teenage me in the main character making me immediately relate a lot to her. Her struggles with mental health were put on page very well. Her darker thoughts would pop up on random moments in small intrusive thoughts all too recognizable for me.
But there was also a right balance with happy moments inbetween. When Brynn meets Skylar you feel the adoration she has for this new girl which soon ends Brynn up at trying to solve the mystery around her. The path of solving it though is again filled with deep sad moments but also moments that gave me so so much hope and warmth.

I also never had read a book happening in Florida before so that was a lotta fun to read about a life people could potentially have over there.

Being sent to her dad Brynn was not allowed to bring her phone, and the dread that comes with that as someone myself who's support network is almost exclusively online Brynn's rage was all too relatable.
The way that ended though with her mother admitting it was not nice for her to do so felt like it healed something in me too.

In conclusion I totally enjoyed the book and kept talking to friends about it asking them to read it too because it was very well done and a good emotional read

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Book: The Immeasurable Depth of You
Rating: ⭐️⭐️⭐️💫
Genre: YA fiction

Brynn didn’t ask to spend her summer in Florida with her father, but here she is. One concerning Tumblr post, and here she is away from home with no phone, meaning no access to her friends. During her banishment, Brynn meets a girl who the opposite of her in every way. Skinny, popular, and dead. Brynn sets out to find out how this girl died and maybe even solve a murder mystery.

This book wasn’t written for me. I think the story was nice but the characters didn’t really resonate with me. Though this is true for me I do think this book has an audience.

Pros:
- The book starts with a list of trigger warnings. I love when books have these (I think every book should include these).
- The relationship between Brynn and her dad is well-written and I love all the depth of the relationship.
- A realistic and non-romantic depiction of mental illness
- The relationship between Brynn and her dad’s girlfriend is well-explored. Brynn has a lot of feelings about her dad dating, but she still gives this woman a chance (and she ends up being lovely)

Cons:
- The main character felt very mid-2010s. The character is written well it just doesn’t feel like the present day.
- Somewhere around 60% of the book, I was struggling to continue reading. I didn’t love that she bothered the dead girl’s parents. It makes me uncomfortable and felt incredibly rude (which she realizes and feels bad about later, so I’ll give it to her).
- The story becomes relatively slow, around 70% through.

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I still don’t know how to feel about this book cause I was drawn to the story of a queer teen that struggles with her mental health and a fractured family dynamic and that aspect of the book was written beautifully with such depth that I felt represented due to my own struggles with anxiety, it’s just the fact this book was marketed as a saphic romance (at least that’s what the description implied) which was none existent except for one awkward encounter to say the least and that left me confused and disappointed really.

I feel like I would’ve enjoyed the book more if the marketing of it was better and honest!

Thank you netgalley for this arc.

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What a beautifully written hug of a book. From the delicate author's note a the beginning asking readers to take care of themselves over potential triggers to Brynn being an anxious, shy girl exploring a new state with a father she doesn't have a close relationship with, this boo was just so incredibly moving, especially when you look at it in the context of the extremely problematic Don't Say Gay bill in Florida right now--this book that is desperately needed by LGBTQ+ students isn't even legal to have on school library shelves in Florida right now. What a delicate and defiant work of fiction.

Brynn is a 15-year old Tumblr expert who writes an alarming and problematic post. Her mother takes her phone and computer and ships her to spend the summer with her estranged father on his houseboat in Florida, specifically the Wheedon Island Preserve in St. Petersburg. This book brilliantly captures the immense beauty and danger of living in Florida without falling into the Florida Man stereotype. When Brynn encounters a mermaid (?) one day while paddleboarding, a mystery begins to unfold that Brynn is hell bent on discovering. She's making new friends, discovering a relationship with her father, and, most of all, discovering that she's so much more than she ever thought. Heartfelt and beautifully written, this book is a must read for queer, anxious shy teens looking to see themselves reflected back on themselves from the pages of the book.

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This one is a little difficult to review and I highly encourage you to check the content warnings prior to purchasing/reading this book, as there is a lot of heaviness throughout.

It’s surprising that I feel like this book touched on so many raw and deep aspects of mental illness, but also remained so oddly surface level. Brynn, the main character, has a lot of intrusive thoughts primarily about death and hating herself. I feel like this part of the book was portrayed really well, but I still wasn’t a fan of brynn as a character, probably because she has no real sense of personal boundaries and doesn’t think about consequences. I also wasn’t a fan of her mother, but that’s not a huge part of the story. I just felt like her relationship with her mother fed into her mental health issues and compounded it. Their relationship has a side of toxicity that just made me uncomfortable.

The book was well written and the prose is beautiful in places. I read through this quickly and it was definitely not a difficult read. You need to be in the right headspace though.

I received a copy free from netgalley. Thanks netgalley!

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I'm going to start this review by stating that this book won't be for everyone. To decide if this is a book for you is recommend reading an excerpt and the author’s note. And take the notes to heart, if you decide to read this do so when you are in the right headspace for it.

With that out of the way let's get into my thoughts about this one. I didn't read the blurb before diving into this book because the book was recommended to me, I’d say that's a good thing. The blurb doesn't do the story any justice, fortunately, it also doesn't spoil it. It was great I hadn't read it before reading this book. This story is told from Bryn’s perspective. This 15-year-old girl narrates her summer of banishing to Florida like you'd expect a teenager to do. It's very angsty. More so because Bryn struggles with anxiety. As readers, you get a very good insight into the workings of her mind. Why her mom banished her, how her anxiety works (against her), lusty teenager feels (gross). That latter is one I struggle with, we've all been teens, but I can't remember being a teen like Bryn when it comes to sex and sexuality. I certainly had other things to occupy my mind with… This is not to say this is a romance, far from it actually, it's about all the feels this bisexual teen has and how she deals with them.
There is this bit of a mystery storyline going on as well, I could definitely have done without that. I'm not sure what, if anything, it adds to the story or to Bryn’s coming-of-age storyline.

I'm pretty sure I'm not the target audience for this book but I sort of enjoyed it. YA isn't typically a category I enjoy, although this one doesn't necessarily feel like YA. Aside from some real teen moments. Inform yourself before reading this one, if you decide to read it I'm sure you'll find that the author did a great job in portraying an anxiety-riddled character.

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After a post on her blog about wanting her anxiety and OCD to stop is taken as a declaration of suicide, 15-year-old Brynn's mother grounds and banishes her to Florida to stay with her dad for the summer.
While trying to get her bearings in her new surroundings, Brynn stumbles upon a beautiful girl full of sadness and secrets.
Brynn takes it upon herself to help this girl and solve a potential murder.

This book was a perfectly fine YA look at living and dealing with anxiety and OCD under the guise of a queer paranormal romance/mystery(?).
There wasn't actually much in the way of romance or mystery--which is fine!
I just wish that it wasn't marketed as such.

As someone who ALSO has anxiety and OCD, I feel like it was incredibly relatable--and I am actually later than I anticipated in writing this, because I had to put the book down and walk away a few times.

The mystery never really felt like it was building to anything (which may be the point, given everything I know about the story!)
And as a 34-year-old, some of the inner monologue (re: crushes and sex) felt uncomfortable to read, if not realistic (I was 15 once, too!). But this book is also not really for my demographic--so take that how you will.

My favorite part came at the end (not a spoiler, I promise) where everyone is still damaged and mentally ill, but working so hard to understand themselves and each other.
I think a lot of times YA leans into the well-this-is-the-end-so-the-main-character-is-suddenly-cured-of-mental-illness thing and this didn't do that.
I appreciate that SO deeply.

Thank you for letting me read this ARC.
I greatly enjoyed my experience!

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Thank you to netgalley for the arc
For fans of John Green "the Immeasurable Depth of You" is an amazing read; Brynn is obsessed with death and falls for Skylar a girl with a secret. The novel over all feels like Paper Towns meets We Are Okay; which personally I enjoyed however the novel does carry a lot of trigger warning that need to be taken very seriously as this book speaks on the darker parts of mental illness and the reality of experiencing crushing anxiety at a young age. If your able to read this book and your a fan of John Green I recommend picking this book up.

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I really enjoyed the beginning of this story. We follow Brynn, who has anxiety, OCD, and intrusive thoughts, especially about death. Because of something she posted on her blog about death that her mom interpreted as a suicide note, she is grounded for the summer. Three entire months with no computer, no phone, no internet, and in Florida with her dad – who she had barely any contact with since the divorce five years ago. Even worse: her dad lives on a boat.

Because she doesn’t fit in at school, she doesn’t have any friends in real life and the internet is everything to her.

I really liked that aspect of the story. How the internet was important for her and how she dealt with it, without any way of contacting her best friend.

But what I really, really loved was the mental health representation. I said it earlier, but Brynn is not ok. She does see a therapist regularly but mental health is not that simple. I feel like the representation was well done, I could see myself in some things, but definitely check the trigger warnings before because it is pretty graphic and not for everyone.

For the rest of the story….. Meh. My first impression of Skylar is that she is mean and an asshole, and that didn’t change as I read through the book. On their first encounter she makes Brynn fall from her paddleboard by surprising her, which results in Brynn losing her paddle and contacts, so she really struggles getting back to her dad’s boat. But Brynn has to see her again because she is hoooot you understand.

The mystery behind Skylar wasn’t really a mystery and all I can see from it is making Brynn do some dangerous things and hurting people’s feelings. It started becoming hard to keep reading at some points with all the bad decisions she made. I just wanted to shake her violently and tell her to think about other people instead of just her and Skylar. She did some pretty very Not Ok things during the length of the story.

Because of that, of the way she kept lying and deceiving her father, I couldn’t appreciate their relationship that much. Anyways, big up to Brynn’s dad for being supporting and trying, trying and trying.

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I loved this and I'm not going to tell you the deep, emotional reasons why because I'm a firm believer in emotion bottling. But I will tell you some more generic and topical reasons why this was an amazing read for me.

I'm just going to preface this by saying that it is absolutely NOT for everyone and definitely make sure to read the author note at the beginning before you dive in.

This is a coming of age, young adult story, but rooted very deeply in the perspective of a young girl that struggles with a serious anxiety disorder. It's not a romance, the MC is queer (bisexual), but the focus is really just on her experience over the period of a summer and how she dealt with the mystery that was her new friend, Skylar.

I found Mora's writing and descriptive style very enchanting (once I got past the formatting issues of the ARC). The picture she paints with her words is quite beautiful. Most notably, however, I found the perspective of an anxious teenager who was locked in a constant battle against her own mind relatable and somehow really refreshing. As someone who struggles with anxiety (though in a different way), this story was a lot of things - heart wrenching, comforting, validating, happy, sad...just all the emotions and a good few tears too. That said, this is a very thought-heavy book. Lots of raw thoughts and emotions that are very much the focal point of the story while the light mystery plays second-fiddle. (Note: I, personally, probably wouldn't pick this up for the Saving Skylar part of the book, but it is a beautiful and emotional tale in itself - I just didn't find the mystery aspect that compelling.)

But that was my experience. With a book like this, I think everyone reading it will have a wildly different reaction to it. Other anxiety sufferers could be adversely affected by the stream-of-consciousness type of writing that Mora uses to depict Brynn's anxieties.

Would I recommend it? No. This is a book you should read if it speaks to you. Read a sample, read the author's note. Decide for yourself. I really enjoyed it and all of the emotions it evoked for me, but only you can tell if and when this is the right book for you.

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I really appreciate the author's note at the beginning and the inclusion of the trigger warnings. Unfortunately, I think I picked this up when I was in a better mental space. The premise is still intriguing to me, but after reading through all of the trigger warnings, I don't think I'll be able to read this book, or at least not at this time.

Thank you to Peachtree and NetGalley for the opportunity, though!

**3 stars because I don't want to rate a book lower than that just because I couldn't pick it up after reading the TWs**

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A contemporary book with a speculative twist. I love the backdrop of the Florida mangroves. reminds me of the place where I am right now. Brynn's character feels quite strong with her obsession about death. But when she meets Skylar she starts to feel love, but she has to keep a secret deep.

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First of all, this book suffers from some mismarketing, and my rating does reflect that because the marketing is why I requested it. There is no romance here between Brynn and the mysterious Skylar, and, in fact, after an explicit discussion about Skylar being straight, Brynn violates her consent and kisses her anyway. Thankfully she keeps her consistent horny thoughts about Skylar to herself after that, I guess? It seemed really out of left field since she called Skylar out for being ableist, but I think what Brynn did is much worse. There’s a bit of a random het romance for Brynn though. The blurb also tries to hide what’s actually going on with Skylar in a way that makes it way more interesting and mysterious than it actually is.

As for the good stuff: this book has excellent representation for OCD with intrusive thoughts and the debilitating and disabling sides of severe anxiety. It will definitely help those who experience such things feel less alone if they’re able to read it. Please take the content warnings seriously. This book is put in its best light if it’s taken as a character study of a mentally ill teen, not any kind of mystery story. I also liked her seeing that having a stepmom figure could be nice and building that relationship.

The concept sounds great on paper: edgy Tumblr teen makes a suicide bait post and gets grounded from technology and shipped off to a summer with her absent father where she works through her mental health struggles with a new friend. However, the edgy Tumblr bits are kind of a caricature in a way that made this former edgy Tumblr teen cringe. There isn’t much plot beyond Brynn repeatedly making the most dangerous and ridiculous decisions imaginable, even when they reliably cause her harm, and her father seeming great when they speak and having good bonding moments, but somehow being unable to see that she is constantly lying to him and never taking accountability in finding a way forward that addresses her issues. Brynn is always two seconds from being carted off to the children’s hospital but mostly she talks him out of it, even when she runs off and confronts Skylar’s parents in a particularly ridiculous plan that somehow conveniently works for plot reasons. She also manages to do all these dangerous things kind of against her characterization of crippling anxiety.

There is a paranormal element that doesn’t have a good explanation or resolution, as well as a baffling resolution with Brynn’s mom where she gets a therapist who convinced her online friends are actually good so now she has a Tumblr too?? Anyway, this book just kinda disappointed me.

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This is a deeply moving book rooted in mental health.

Brynn is exiled to Florida to stay with her absent father after her mother finds what she believes is a suicide note in one of Brynn’s blog posts. Stuck on a houseboat with no phone and no Internet access, she is somewhat left to her own devices, stranded.

When she meets a pretty girl, swimming in the water, they start somewhat of a friendship. It gives her something to look forward to, until her father tells her never to speak about this girl again. There is clearly something wrong, and Brynn has to do some serious, digging to discover the truth. Along the way, she just might learn some things about herself.

I thought this was just a really special book. I thought the relationship between Brynn and her father was really well done. I have experienced what it is like to live with only one parent and to feel like the other parent is a complete separate entity from your family. Brynn herself was great. She is dealing with a lot and isn’t sure how to maneuver through the anxiety and the deep, deep feelings that she is having in her 15-year-old brain.

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