I had a hard time reading this, I wanted more of an emotional connection to the characters that just didn't happen. I liked the premise, let them go and all that but I needed more burn or something.

**I would like to thank NetGalley, SOURCEBOOKS Casablanca, and Alice Kellen for an ARC of this book! This is available as of 8/29/2023.**

"That was how I found out that there are hearts that break a little at a time on eternal nights to be forgotten, during years of invisibility, days of imagining the impossible."

Was this the best book I've read? No.
Did I devour it in one day? Yes.

It's hard to explain how I feel about this other than that it reminded me of Wattpad-fic.

"In life there are some things you see coming and others that catch you by surprise, and those words I'd just said in her ear...those words would be my perdition."

Here's our trope list:
- brother's best friend
- age gap
- guardian
- forbidden

This book was just one big ball of tropes, but it also navigated grief in a very delicate way. Leah had so much growth and healing in this book (now book 2 better have Axel’s healing!!!!)

When I started this, I had no idea it was a duology. Beware you absolutely have to read the second book (which I'm currently reading) due to the way it ends.

My only complaint is that it was a little boring, mainly due to how long it was. I think this could've been shaved down be about 100 pages. There was also a bit too many Beatles references. It was cute at first because of how meaningful it was to her family, but it was a little annoying by the end.

Spoiler quotes:
“She was everything I had never managed to be, and when I kissed her, I realized I had spent half a lifetime being wrong.”

“I walked on the beach, away from that house that was turning into a place almost more hers, more ours, than mine. With every month that passed, more and more stones seemed to be bearing down on the roof.”

“My heart skipped a beat. And I realized we were a puzzle that had been put together with the passage of years. The difference was that Leah had always had all the pieces, and I had taken years to find them.”

Now for “spot the title”:
“What were all these months, Axel?”
“Lots of things. That’s not the problem, the problem is all that we never were.”

All That We Never Were by Alice Kellen is a debut novel that dives into emotional territory. The story follows Leah, a young woman grappling with grief after losing her parents. Struggling to find the light again, she leans on her brother's best friend, Axel, who becomes her guardian. As they navigate their new normal, a deeper connection sparks between them. This romance is set against the backdrop of loss and healing. Readers can expect a rollercoaster of emotions with characters who are both fragile and endearing. If you're looking for a contemporary romance with a touch of angst and a cliffhanger ending, then All That We Never Were might be the book for you.

Me gusto mucho 😭❤️

I love the cover, the characters, the story! I love this duet with all my heart!!

DNFed - I requested this before I was an influencer and familiar with NG and how it works. I didn't get a chance to read it, and it's no longer downloaded on my Kindle.

I didn't realize this was part of a series, but with that being said I was able to read and enjoy it still!

The writing is solid, creating a vivid atmosphere, but the plot is a mix of captivating moments and predictability. Characters are well-developed, though some lack depth. Pacing fluctuates, making it a decent but not outstanding read.

I really liked it, both the voice that the author uses to explain the story and the plot and the characters. The only thing, and this is a personal opinion, is that it seemed too long for how little it happens.

🩷💜 𝗕𝗼𝗼𝗸 𝗥𝗲𝘃𝗶𝗲𝘄 💙💛

𝗧𝗶𝘁𝗹𝗲: All That We Never Were
𝗔𝘂𝘁𝗵𝗼𝗿: Alice Kellen
𝗣𝘂𝗯 𝗗𝗮𝘁𝗲: August 29, 2023

💛 Thank you so much @sourcebookscasa and @netgalley for an advance copy of this book!

🧡 𝙈𝙮 𝙏𝙝𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙨 🩵
Nineteen year old Leah is having trouble coping with grief after losing both her parents in a car accident. Her brother Oliver transfers to Sydney for work to make more money to send Leah to college, so Oliver asks his best friend Axel to house Leah for the time he is away.

Axel and his family were super close to Leah and Oliver’s family. They are all struggling with the grief in different ways. Axel sees how depressed Leah is and wants to help her break out of that. Soon enough, we learn Leah has been in love with a long time, and due to a lot of time together, both of them are questioning feelings they may have for each other.

This book has a lot of angst, sadness, grief, and mixed up feelings. I had a hard time connecting with the main characters and wish there was a little more upbeat storyline mixed in with it to even the overall mood of the story out. The book ended on a sort of cliffhanger, where there is a second book continuing Axel and Leah’s story. The second books sounds like it could be a little more upbeat moving the storyline forward, so I look forward to that!

🌈 This book and the second book may be one of the prettiest book covers I’ve seen! If you lay them by each other they are gorgeous! 😍

💜 𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙨 𝙗𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙞𝙛 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚:
🩷 Age Gap
💚 Forced Proximity
💛 Grief - Mourning - Loss
💙 Found Family
🩵 Brother’s Best Friend

DNA unfortunately, I couldnt get into this one and put it down at about 35% - I couldnt connect to the characters or the story

Best friend's sister (Angst ver.)
Or so I thought.
At the beginning, I was super irritated with both characters, and it wasn't even their fault! The writing just bored the hell out of me, it was long and lyrical with lots of metaphors, which is okay for a chapter or two, not the whole first half.
I tried to think of how to describe Axel as a character, and only one description fit; a man-child. He is superficial, and just so limited as a character, even his dialogues and thoughts contained the same set of vocabulary and expressions.
I truly thought Leah deserved better, not because of the age gap, or the grooming speculations, or her emotional trauma, no, she deserved better because she was better than him.
After I reached the half point, the pace started getting faster, finally some progress is happening in their relationship. But, you could see it from a mile that things would be awkward because of Leah's brother.
Although the book isn't my favorite, it made me invested in their story, so I'd definitely read the sequel.
*I received an ARC of this book through netgalley and the publisher in exchange for an honest review*

"All That We Never Were" by Alice Kellen takes you on an emotional ride as Leah navigates loss and love. Living with her brother's best friend, Axel, the story unfolds with real emotions and forbidden feelings. Short chapters and dual perspectives keep it engaging. Some may find it a slow burn, but if you love a good friend-to-lovers trope and vivid descriptions that make you feel everything, this one's for you. Be ready for a rollercoaster of grief, determination, and a hint of laughter. Just a heads up, there's an age gap, and Leah's finishing high school. Overall, a compelling read that left me eager for the sequel.

I swithered over giving this 4 or 5 stars but at the end of the day, I couldn’t put it down so it has be a 5 star rating. Leah is 18 and struggling to recover from the sudden loss of her parents. Her brother leaves his best friend, Axel, to care for him to when he has to go away for work. Leah had always been besotted with Axel when she was younger, despite their age gap, and being around him again forces her to wake up from her grief. I was pretty gripped by this. It was the sloooooowest of slow burns and then it went OFF. It has all the inevitable drama that comes from a brother’s best friend romance but it was bit darker than usual. It’s ending was also pretty bold. I appreciated the narrative structure of this as well - it wasn’t your standard dual narrative! I liked that Leah’s chapters started to get longer and have more of a clear voice as she emerged from her fog of denial. I’m kind of looking forward to reading the sequel - I’m pleased there’s more to the story, but the premise of it doesn’t sound plausible!

Thank you Netgalley for the ARC of this book. I was really expecting a great romance read but this book fell short. It was a very slow burn. I liked the writing and the short chapters and will be looking forward to more from this author.

Thank you NetGalley for allowing me to receive this book for an honest review.

First I must stay I love the cover.
I had such high hopes for this book. But I felt like it was very slow. I was expecting more romance but it just didn't have it. I'm sorry to say I think this one fell short.

The cover is beautiful and really drew me in. I enjoyed the romance and angst that occurred in this book. It didn't have as much romance as I was expecting. It is a great friend to lovers' trope. I felt that it was a slow burn read but with the short chapters it was fast reading. The character development was great but I don't think this is a book that a lot of romance readers would enjoy.

I don't know just another book where not a lot happened. I just wasnt invested in it. Couldn't this be considered grooming

Eeeeeh this book was okay. I was really excited for it, as the premise was initially very interesting and I assumed that I would be in for an emotional journey. It just felt quite flat for me, and unmemorable.

2 stars.

"All That We Never Were" by Alice Kellen has one good element for me, but is otherwise puzzling and icky. While the writing is good and, at times, moving, it ultimately felt a little long to me (though some readers who are more invested in the main love story will read this as a slow-burn). I don't mind age-gap romances when they involve people in theirs mid-20s and older, but I have an issue with a 19/29 year old split, especially when it contains the same set of circumstances as this book. Main character Leah's parents died in a horrific car crash. Her brother, Oliver, has gotten a job and needs to follow it to Syndey, Australia for a year. Oliver asks his best friend, Axel, to watch Leah while he's out of town for the year. Axel becomes her surrogate father/caregiver. He is pushy, demanding, and rude about her storm of feelings and her PTSD, and is dismissive of her actual medical care. He does all of this under the guise of caring about her and knowing what she really needs.....because he has known her since she was a little kid. He treats her like a little sister for most of the book until he is all of a sudden in love with her. It's giving grooming, it's giving Dane Cook and his child bride vibes! The way he treats her, I was shocked she was 19 because she acts like she's 15! She wears ponytails and rides a bike and he makes her lunches for school... it is ICKICKICKICKY. He is trying to fix her in his own way when she really needed medical and psychiatric help for her trauma. Eventually, there is a point around 65-70% into the book where he physically restrains her while forcing her to listen to a traumatizing song..!?!?!? Exsqueeze me?!?!? No no no. I don't like it. It all reads controlling to me, the absolute opposite of romantic! All of the aspects of Leah trying to find herself again, and find her way back from grief, are really accurate, well-written, and well handled. The audiobook narrators are great though, I would love to hear both of them reading a better, less sketch novel.

Thank you to NetGalley, Alice Kellen, and SOURCEBOOKS Casablanca for the complimentary ARC of this book. All opinions are my own. I was not compensated for my review.

Though this book was originally published in 2019, it has only really hit the world of Social Media in the last couple of months with its eye-catching cover that makes us not only crush on the book but want to read it. I went into the book having a feeling that it was going to be an angsty New Adult Romance with potentially the same feel as After by Anna Todd. It wasn't as Angsty as I thought, but turned out to be more unrequited love and then requited love and then back to unrequited before finishing the end of Book #1. It was like come on Axel, man up and fight for her, don't show her that you are the quitter everyone thinks you are. The book starts with thirty-year-old Axel being asked a favour by his best friend since childhood Oliver - to look after his sister Leah while he is away for the year. Leah was with her parents when they died in a car accident and she survived but wishes she was dead. Her life lost all happiness and colour and she withdrew. Axel hates seeing her like this and pushes her out of her shell and we see glimpses of the old Leah back. Of course, this means that Leah's feelings of love for Axel come back and he fights until he gives up and they end up sleeping together. Of course, not everyone is happy with the decision and how can they be when she's only 19 and he's 30? Will Axel do the right thing and fight for her or will he "Let it Be" and in the words of Elsa - Let it Go? This book also features throughout the novels, quite a few songs of The Beatles including a childhood favourite of Yellow Submarine. The book ends on a semi-cliffhanger as Book #2 picks up three years later. If you are in the mood for some New Adult Romance, then check out "All That We Never Were" by Alice Kellen today.