I was really looking forward to this, and it kind of let me down. I didn't find the characters to be all that appealing, and I couldn't bring myself to care about them, which is sad because the concept of the characters and the world they are in is very interesting. Maybe I will come back to it because it could very well be this was a book I was reading at the wrong time because it had everything I would want in a book, but the execution was where it was lacking for me. I felt there was a lot of telling and not showing, and I never felt that there were stakes or tension. I was missing that, and because I couldn't get into the story and characters, it was hard for me to enjoy the book. The concept is amazing, but the execution was just lacking for me personally, which made this a very hard read to get through, and I nearly thought about DNFing it about halfway through. I might pick this back up again in the future, but as of now, I don't think I will.

Thank you to the publisher and NetGalley for the ARC of To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods. This story was odd to me and hard for me to get into. The writing itself wasn’t bad in my opinion, but the plot and characters weren’t too appealing to me. Antony never grabbed my attention much as a love interest so I wasn’t sure what it was that kept drawing Ruying to him…I mean other than the fact that he had her under his literal control as his assassin or she would be risking the lives of her sister and grandmother. I just couldn’t connect with the characters and I found it hard to connect Pangu with Rome with very starkly different worlds. I found it jarring every time I read about a gun being used just because it felt so weird being in Pangu, but that could’ve been the point Chang was trying to make. I am curious as to what will happen next and I hope Ruying and the Phantom serve Rome what they deserve.

I felt like the concept was pretty ambitious for a debut. The world mixing ancient Chinese and Roman with modern science technology felt a little confusing for me. The pacing was pretty slow at the beginning and the author hopefully will notice she needs to show and not tell. Who knows maybe with the second book it’ll get better with the world developing and character development

This book was a little slow to start, but once it took off I enjoyed it. Seeing the parallels of colonist behavior and thought is very prevalent, from over-mining, climate change, pollution, dehumanization and more

Ruying is a strong and stubborn main character, but I am glad we are able to see her path and the choices she made which led to her situations. Her love for her sister and grandmother are at the center, but you can see her change in mindset and eventual growth throughout the book. You see how she also falls victim to the Roman-supremist thinking, justifying it with keeping her family safe, but then the growth of how this potential war is about so much more than her or her family. Baihu was an interesting character to keep appearing in the story line, as he is the closest thing she has to comparison of the betrayal of her people, and judges herself on a scale against him.

And of course I chuckled at names like Valentin, Augustus and Cassius— that just felt right to name the bad guys those names.

It left on a cliffhanger, making me hope (🤞🏼) there will be a second book!

Thank you NetGalley for this ARC and the publishers as well.

Due to circumstances surrounding this book and it's publication, I will be choosing not to read or review this title on any of my platforms. One reason is some content inside the story that I was not aware of at the time of requesting, like that it is a colonizer romance (arguably, but this is something I am choosing not to read at this time). As well as the behavior by the author for negative reviews. I've linked below a post by other creators explaining what they feel has happened, and as such this does not make me want to feature this book or this author on my page. I look forward to future Del Ray releases.

Thank you to Netgalley and Random House -Ballantine | Del Rey for an advance copy of this book in exchange for an honest review <3

This book was enjoyable and exciting. The premise reminded me a lot of "The Foxglove King," as a random girl with powers of death uses said powers and gets thrown into the world of politics and princes. However, this book focuses heavily on colonialism rather than religion. I really liked the characters, especially Ruying (our protagonist), because she is unlike any female main character I have read before. She is very realistic and approaches conflict in a similar way as I would. She is smart, but survival comes first for her, which I enjoyed reading. Anthony is complicated....I'm unsure how I feel about him, which I think is the point.

I really appreciate Chang making this story symbolize what happened in Manchuria during WWII. However, I think her way of going about this was a bit too ambitious. It was confusing that the empire inspired by Manchuria was fictional, but the empire inspired by Japan was Rome. I couldn't figure out if this "Rome" was inspired by historical Rome or if this was a world where historical Rome was still around. The characters refer to their empires as being in different worlds, but I didn't know if that was literal. There is a portal and Veil, but those are never explained. Is this "Rome" on a different planet or dimension? No clue. I think it would have been more beneficial if Chang had taken the Roman inspiration and created another fictional empire to clear up some confusion.

Overall, this was a quick read for me. I wasn't entirely absorbed into the story, but I enjoyed it. I think this is a pretty solid debut novel with only a few issues that can easily be resolved/explained in the next book! I'm unsure if I will pick up book two, but I want to find out who Ruying ends up with, so we will see!

Thank you, Random House Publishing Group - Ballantine | Del Rey and NetGalley, for the chance to read this book in exchange of an honest review.

In a world blessed by magic, now conquered by invaders who descended from the heavens, with violence and technology, Ruying is girl who is trying to survive in a place meant to break and humiliate her. Blessed by death, able to use her power to pull the life out mortal bodies, Ruying always tries not to use her power, to be a good and kind girl, willing to do anything to protect her twin addicted sister and their grandmother. When her gift is discovered by an enemy prince, she's forced to ally herself with him, in exchange of her family's safety. She will kill his enemies and they will be safe. Now forced to recognize her own power, to embrace it, instead of rejecting, Ruying becomes her prince's weapon, killing political rivals who could only hurt her people more, according to him. But while she's become his weapon, their relationship become more and more intricate, into an enemies to lovers able to make the reader fall in love right away.

To gaze upon wicked gods is a brilliant story, where the main character is a girl blessed by Death, used by an enemy prince to kill his political rivals. I loved the setting and how the Romans are depicted as conquerors, willing to destroy anything in their path to get what they want, in a constant war and violence between magic and technology and I loved this contrast. Ruying is a complex MC. She's strong and powerful, but at the beginning of the book, she's refusing her own power and strength, willing to obey and hide and protect her loved ones, friends and family, but mostly her twin sister. Ruying's relationships with her sister, her grandmother and her enemy prince are the most important in this book and they are complex and layered and able to drive Ruying, whose loyality and protectiveness are almost an Achilles' heel.

I really liked reading this book, I've found the idea very intriguing, Ruying grows a lot in this story and I loved her relationship with the prince, so intense, contradictory and dangerous, in a huge power imbalance, BUT I couldn't help but wish it was better developed. One of my main issue was the pacing because in the first half of the book is very slow and then, after she accepts the deal, is really fast and there's a huge time gap I would have love to read.
I would have loved a better pacing, but overall I really liked reading this book.

Note: I received this ARC from the publisher and NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.

This book has great potential, but ends up falling flat in several ways. Despite BookTok’s insistence that it is due to the supposed male lead being a colonizer, I’d argue that the biggest struggle of the book is skipping the entire middle of Ruying’s journey. I am not kidding when I say we spend roughly 50% of the book with Ruying grappling with her decision to fight for or against Rome. Once she makes her decision, we get an instant 6 month timeskip. We literally skip over the entirety of the book’s couple’s trust-building and getting to know each other. We immediately jump into the two crushing on each other, but due to the lack of buildup, they feel like brand new characters. It felt as though the book just did not want to show the story, only tell us the end. Even for a YA book, I found this missing exposition harmful to the story.

I think the naïveté of Ruying is as realistic as can be. She’s never experienced someone treating her kindly as an adult, so falling for the enemy is expected when he feeds her honey-coated words. I also appreciate the descriptions of how her magic is visualized, which leads to detailed scenes of her using it.

Overall, I think this book would have benefited from some more edits. With just a few more additions to the story, it could have been very solid. For now, I rate it 3/5 stars.

An amazing book with such an amazing story. This book brings in such great stories from the authors heritage and all will enjoy it. I cannot wait to receive my special editions

Book Name: To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods
Author: Molly X. Chang

ARC
Thank you to NetGalley and **Random House Publishing Group - Ballantine | Del Rey** for an ARC of Molly X. Chang To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods

Stars: 3
Spice: 0

New Series
Cliffhanger
Slow Paced
FMC POV W/ MMC Sprinkled In
High Fantasy W/ Asian Rep

- Thoughts.
- Heavy Colonization Theme
- Tell > Show
- Imagery and Description Heavy
- Morally Gray FMC and Villain MMC
- Got Good at 60% Mark
- Ambitious Storytelling
- Morally Grey Everybody
- True Enemies to …
- Love Triangle Vibes
- Tamlin Scenario
- Slow Burn


Ok… Overall this is an AMBITIOUS debut. Conceptually intriguing the execution was unfortunately lacking. The narrative is at war with itself over being a Babel vs TOG-style book. If Book 1 was edited down and Book 2 was added in (or where I hope Book 2 will be going) I think the story would be sharper and more compelling. The true enemies to lovers and the entire cast of charters being shades of morally grey were again compelling in concept but lacked in execution, with no one to root for but them extremely angry and complaining FMC or manipulative morally reprehensible MMC. This book was Good. Better than what I think some reviewers are saying. The real problem here is that this a debut author working on an ambitious but what I believe to be an overall compelling story that will be fleshed out within the next book. or what I might venture to be better as duology than as a trilogy.

I won't be reviewing this title in light of everything that has come out about this book. Even aside from all of that, I previously had picked this up (briefly) and didn't like the writing at all. I would've likely not liked this or dnf it.

This is a dark colonizing romance with magic and historical based events just changed to a different people. It has some great concepts just want for me.

Synopsis: To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods follows the protagonist, Ruying, who lives in Pengu with her grandmother and sister Meiya. In Pengu, the people suffer due to the invasion of the Roman Empire that took place over two decades ago. The Romans use new science against the people of Pengu forcing them to comply and face the destruction that the Romans cause in their city, Jing-City. In a world fear-stricken and on the edge of war, Ruying is offered a deal with a Roman Prince, Antony, who promises to protect her family and offers a better world if she serves him. The cost is using her death magic and going against her people by trusting a Roman. Are the crimes that she will commit against her people justified for the promise of a better world? Is this deal with the prince even trustworthy? Ruying will have to decide what side of history she is on and if she is making the right choices in this debut novel by Molly X. Chang.

I was so excited to read this book and the cover is so beautiful! The pace of the book was overall consistent for me and I enjoyed reading this book although I had a hard time understanding the main character. I admired Ruying’s character and her determination to survive but I did find myself annoyed whenever she naively believed everything Antony said. I felt that she contradicted herself at times and was not true to who she wanted to be. The overall story line was definitely very different than what I anticipated it to be but I plan to read book 2! The fantasy world that Molly X. Chang created and intertwined with real inspirations had me intrigued. I found myself wanting to learn more about the real events that this was based on and I felt like I understood why Ruying did the things she did even though I didn’t agree with them. Therefore, I recommend this book for the hope that it reflects, the story it tells, and the sacrifices it embodies. However, this book does contain heavy content so definitely read at your own discretion.

I really wanted to like this book. The cover is gorgeous and I was intrigued by the blurb and thought I would like it. I've been trying to read it for almost a month now and I just can't get into it. I DNF it at 25%. I may try again at a different time, but for now I just need to let it go. It just wasn't for me.

I think the author has a lot of potential and I do like the idea/premise of the world-building but unfortunately, I couldn't connect with the characters and overall story. I found that the writing had too much angst in terms of internal monologue where the main character was describing everything without "showing" the incidents, events, and actions. I think this left the world-building undeveloped.

I think the author wanted to convey the impacts of colonization but the way she developed the relationship felt even more oppressed. I was hoping that maybe the two main characters was going to overcome tribulations where there's like a redemption arc but I couldn't seem to get past the constant torture and then, I lost interest.

It was actually hard to stay invested due to the writing style, lack of understanding in the cause of Rome/Pangu's origins, love interest/world building.

Still, I do think the author has a lot of potential and I hope my mind is changed for book 2 and other future stories the author writes.

I really wanted to love this book. The synopsis was on point with books I enjoy and the cover art is beautiful. However, I have been trying to read this book for a full month now and I just cannot get into it. There is not much in the first part of this book that grabs your attention and convinces you to keep reading. It feels very slow and drawn out and I just could not get into it. The FMC is not very likable and the story of how her village has been taken over, and all the people that are addicted to drugs, wasn’t a very appealing plot. I would like to give this book another chance once published, I’m a mood reader so we will see if I try again.

This was.. interesting. The plot was intriguing but I did not like the female main character. Her motivations, while pure, were so naive and frustrating. It didn’t seem like she had much growth or development until the last 15%. The male main character? It felt like I was viewing him through a hazy filter the whole time and I wanted to be shown more of him to understand his motivations.

I have been wanting to read more BIPOC fantasies and I really wanted to love this. But I didn’t. As it stands, I will likely dnf the series.

Thank you to the Publisher and Netgalley for allowing me to review a kindle version of this book in exchange for an honest review.

Alright, this is going to be a difficult one to put into words, but I am going to try my best!

To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods is a beautifully written novel: the prose is gorgeous, the world is full and ripe to be explored, the characters are complex and flawed, and the danger feels so, so, SO incredibly real and frightening. Reading the authors note in the beginning, it is easy to see where the authors writing gets its emotional charge, as it is inspired by very real events that are impossible to fully capture the brutality of in mere words. This is the kind of novel that makes you want to burn down the world, and everything and everyone who is corrupt within it. Based on my reading experience of the story alone, it is at LEAST 4 or 4.5 stars.

However, there is one very glaring and difficult to sit with aspect of this story, and it is one that I have seen many reviewers taking issue with as well. Ruying finds a romantic interest in one of the prices of the land that has come to conquer, colonize, and ultimately genocide her people. This is brutal and complicated, and I see why many were not able to get past it once they got deep enough into the book. I will lead by saying that my ultimate opinion of this is going to rely HEAVILY on the direction of the next book. To me, especially come the end (but also throughout), this reads as a story about a girl who has been manipulated, deceived, abused, gaslit and brainwashed by the most powerful figure in her life, and I think that complicates the landscape of this issue by quite a lot. It doesn't make her overlooking his brutality OKAY by any means, I only state that it certainly complicates it. This is something I would take more issue with the grayness of in an explicitly YA novel, but To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods is being published as an Adult Fantasy title in the US, and therefore I think this kind of discourse is reasonable to be explored, SO LONG AS it is well handled and put to rest in the future publications of the series.

Because of this issue, it is incredibly, incredibly difficult for me to come up with a rating at this time. I am going to call is 3 stars, but the future of the series will be the defining factor in my opinion about where this goes. This should be treated as a ***spoiler alert*** of sorts but: at the end of this novel, it seems as clear as day that the curtain has been pulled back for Ruying, and that she will be completely and utterly done with any romantic exploration with this character in favor of fighting for her people now that she knows the depth of which she was manipulated. I do not think Ruying is a character to be looked up to at this time, but rather one that has more story to tell before we can decide who she is and what this author is trying to tell us. If this does not go in the direction I suspect and there is any pandering or excuse making for the colonizer character, I will amend quite literally everything I've said here. For now, I look forward to the next release, and will think often about what this story has taught me, even if things do not go as I expect them to going forward.

Thank you to Random House Ballantine & Netgalley for this eArc!

This story shows manipulation at its finest. A seemingly benevolent ruler compared to his kin, the Roman prince has his sights set on Ruying who has the power to control death. After one wrong move, Ruyings thrown into the path of destruction and depravity that she tried to hard to avoid. All the while her traitorous childhood best friend watches in trepidation. A tale woven that reminded me of Throne of glass’ assassins mixed with The Poppy war.

Funny enough I have a good quote from a book about literal grooming My dark Vanessa that perfectly shows the dynamic happening here:

“To be groomed is to be loved and handled like a precious, delicate thing.”

The manipulation and smooth talking technique is just a few tools in the arsenal of men who use women for further gain or satisfaction. They have perfected it over the years and use it to bend others to their wills through lies and promises.

I loved the story and the magic. The relationships. The use of language to connect the meanings. It also was so well done I really felt like I was hanging on every word!

The only problem I felt this book had was it being a little too over telling. Repetitive in a way? Show not tell is the way to go. But this is the authors debut I believe and it really good work for one! I am actually excited to read book 2

I also did not like the time jump and how she was so easily swayed after resisting Baihu for the same reason for so long. And why is he spicy now just cause she’s doing the same thing he has been doing this whole time? Pot meet kettle.

I thouroughly enjoyed this book. I thought it was a fresh unique idea. I like that Rome is just literally what current day Rome is so it made world imagining easier. I’m looking forward to reading the sequel.

In a genre where the dance of morality and power can weave stories of profound impact, 'To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods' unfortunately stumbles, leaving its potential untapped. This novel, despite the promising allure of its blurb and the endorsement of renowned authors, struggles to find its footing amidst the complexities it seeks to explore. At the heart of my disappointment lies the treatment of its central romance, which inadvertently veers into the territory of romanticizing colonial dynamics, a direction that may unsettle readers looking for a more nuanced examination of power and resistance.

The premise introduces us to Ruying, a character born of a conquered world and blessed with a deadly gift, offering a fertile ground for a narrative rich in conflict and self-discovery. However, the development of this promising setup quickly becomes overshadowed by the book's focus on the romantic elements between Ruying and an enemy prince, a relationship that struggles to transcend the problematic foundations upon which it is built. The prince, intended to be seen as morally grey, is depicted in a manner that dilutes the gravity of his actions and his role as a representative of the oppressors, failing to critically engage with the implications of such a dynamic.

The narrative's attempt to navigate the murky waters of love and loyalty against the backdrop of colonization could have opened the door to poignant discussions on consent, power imbalance, and the complexities of identity in the face of subjugation. Yet, the exploration of these themes feels surface-level, with the romantic plotline often detracting from a deeper engagement with the world's rich history and the moral quandaries it presents.

Furthermore, the book's inclination towards 'enemies-to-lovers' and 'morally grey' tropes without a robust foundation to justify these labels contributes to a portrayal that lacks the depth necessary to effectively challenge or subvert the colonial narrative it presents. This oversight is a missed opportunity to delve into the nuances of resistance, complicity, and the cost of survival in a world defined by conquest and domination.

While the premise of "To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods" promises a thrilling tale of magic, murder, and the high stakes of political intrigue, the execution falls short of delivering a narrative that fully realizes its potential to critique or offer new perspectives on the themes it broaches. The focus on the romantic subplot, at the expense of more comprehensive world-building and thematic depth, leaves a void where there could have been a compelling discourse on power, identity, and the possibilities of redemption and resistance.

In conclusion, "To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods" may appeal to readers drawn to the allure of forbidden romance amidst conflict, but those seeking a story that offers a critical lens on its underlying themes of colonization and power may find it lacking. The journey of Ruying and her complex relationship with the prince, while central to the narrative, underscores the challenge of balancing romance with the weightier discussions on morality and oppression that the story attempts to engage with.