3/10

To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods started strong with an interesting premise, the might of magic vs the might of science. The juxtaposition of a civilization fighting with bows against one with fighter jets and missiles was great. Unfortunately it was all downhill from there.

The writing was clunky and repeated the same things over and over with just slightly different wording. You are beat over the head that magic can't compete with science, and annoyingly it is just called "science" every time. The book probably could have been 30% shorter without all these repeats, or it could have been just as long and actually taken the time to explore what could have been one of its best parts instead of just skipping over it. Ruying spends over 6 months as an assassin for the prince of Rome Antony. From the books synopsis we are led to believe this is pretty much the plot of the book. In reality what we get is a time skip interlude that just completely skips over almost all of her assassinations.

As far as the "romance" element goes, its disgusting. It is just straight up Stockholm Syndrome. I really can't explain it any other way. Sure by the end the main character figures this out but it is all so painful to read, and not in a good, making you feel for Ruying way.

The end also felt extremely rushed. It is clearly setting up for the sequel but in a way that has very little suspense and did not seem to properly wrap up anything. As I was reading and watching my percentage through the book I kept wondering if my e-ARC might be missing part of the book but nope it just comes to an abrupt end.

I REALLY liked the concept of this book and really wanted to enjoy it but I just couldn't. I feel so disappointed because with different writing this story could have been fantastic.

As a side note there is one passage that reads

"Now in this bed with Ruying beside him, Antony finally understood what his grandfather meant when he said love was a weakness.
Why they fought the wars.
Why poets dedicated their lives putting this feeling into words."


Which to me just seems like the author really enjoys the song "You are in Love" by Taylor Swift (which I can't blame her for) and wanted to just copy it into her book


And you understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars
And why I've spent my whole life trying to put it into words

Thank you to Netgalley and the publisher for sending me an e-ARC of this book!

Now, I personally loved this book! I saw a lot of reviews talking about how she always mentions his jade eyes.. I felt like she's just noticing it more so and taking note of it mentally because her people don't have green eyes. It didn't bother me all that much, using the eyes and the science versus magic as a huge comparison. (Although she only really truly compares one character's eyes I suppose.)

The colonizer romance aspect people were talking about... I can kind of see what they mean, but there is a TWIST (not really a twist TO BE FAIR but I saw it coming and was hoping she'd go through with it.. that remains to be seen I suppose!) that ends up kind of tossing that upside down towards the end. (And I realize I had to choose to hide my Goodreads review due to that lol) I was also glad that at every turn, Ruying is questioning herself and if that's the right way to go.. To romance him and betray her people or to take a stand.

Ruying herself is weak willed. But also not at times. I liked seeing her struggle with her own thoughts, her own temptations. It made her feel alive.

I love the idea of the Xianlings and I want to find out why the magic has begun drying up.. was it truly the gods or no?

Also Baihu supremacy. That is all. Baihu. Supremacy.

I really wanted to like this book, and if the entire story had been written more like the last 20% this review would have been mostly positive.

Let me start with what I did like: the world was really interesting. The Romans are a direct reflection of the modern West, but with access to a world that was relatively unspoiled by pollution and exploitation of natural resources. Pangu is a world built around magic which the Romans don't have and this setup has so much potential in the science vs magic.

However, the story is hindered by the first 70% of the book in which it felt like very little happened except a lot of internal monologue of the main character. The book spends so much time telling us how the FMC feels and what she's thinking without showing us the world or characters around her in any meaningful way. The last portion of the story gets better with a bit more plot but I nearly stopped reading so many times leading up to that.

Overall I was disappointed by the pacing and limited view of the world and characters. I'm not sure if I will pick up the next book or not at this time.

Thank you Netgalley and Random House publishing group - Ballantine for the opportunity to read and review this book prior to publication. My review will be publicly available on my Storygraph within a month of publication. I will also post a review to my social media shortly after publication.

I received this ARC from netgalley in exchange for an honest review. This review (and a shortened version for insta) will go live today, Feb 4th.

Since the new year started, I’ve begun reading ARC’s and also actively looking for new cultures and nationalities outside of the norm. This definitely fit the bill. The plot was interesting and fueled by the fight between magic and science, with war right around the corner. I enjoyed the spirituality of this culture and how well thought out it is in the book. The plot did drag at a few points for me, but not for long. By the time I finished this book, I don’t know whose side I’m actually on.

The characters are multi faceted and have great backstories. The reader really gets a sense of how the characters came to be where they are in life. Even minor characters have a lasting impact. I am hoping we’re not heading towards a love triangle in this next book though; I’ve never been a fan and honestly, I really like Antony. The author does a great job of blurring good and evil; it’s hard to root for someone who has committed atrocities, but she’s successfully done just that.

The author has a flowing writing style that fits the content of the book. It’s almost reverent in describing the people and their cultures. It was beautiful to read.

All in all, this was a fun read. I enjoyed the plot and the characters, although it is obvious this is written for an age group younger than the one I’m in. It drug a bit in spots and was a bit juvenile for me in a few spots, but I still give it 4⭐️.

I might be slightly biased because I'm a soon to be Del Rey author, but I just loved this one! The world building especially (though I was a tad confused at the genre at first). But it ended up being so cool. The story felt like such a ride!

I plan to come back and write a much more thorough review very soon!

DNF after chapter 1 (17 pages)

Yeah, no, I do not like this. There are so many tiny grammatical errors that don't feel like a stylistic choice made by the author and I cannot get into the writing.

Granted, after receiving this arc I have since read a review of the book that made me very un-enthusiastic to proceed (shout-out to nahid’s pekoe on Goodreads and their very thorough review). But I was still curious to try it for myself.

However, I do not like this writing at all and I'm not going to be able to read a whole book like this. There are so. many. back-to-back. sentence fragments. If you're going to use them it should be for emphasis or humor or pacing. But if the number of sentence fragments outnumbers the number of full sentences in the same span? Honey, you're doing it wrong; I'm sorry.

Examples from just the second page of the arc I received, note: these may differ in the final publication--
"balanced at knife's edge" and "every Roman who marched this city" sound just wrong enough to my native ear

The one positive I did get out of this was that the foreword and the review I mentioned above both call attention to Unit 731 which was a facility that carried out torturous experiments and killed roughly half a million people. I didn't know about this before and have since gone online to be more educated on the subject. So thanks for that (though also I am very, very sad now-- please practice self care if you choose to look it up).

I don’t have a lot to say about this except that I cannot get behind a romance between a colonizer and the person he’s oppressing. It isn’t enemies to lovers. It isn’t “hot” or “sexy” or even moderately attractive in anyway. It’s dangerous and the farthest thing from romance that I can imagine.

I’ll be staying away from this book, unfortunately.

Thank you to the publisher and Netgalley for the copy in exchange for an honest review.

I really wanted to like this book. Enemies to lovers, a rich fantasy setting inspired by Chinese legends, countries at war, a magic system with a cost, and a strong female MC? It sounded too good to be true. Unfortunately, it was. Pitched as a complex fantasy full of morally gray characters forced to make the best of horrible situations amid war, the novel instead reads like a YA fantasy that couldn’t decide on scale, characters, or message. I don’t tend to like books that preach at me and most of this book was just the author telling the reader how bad war is. After the author’s note at the beginning about her family’s experience with Unit 731, I expected a vivid and human portrayal of what it means to be forced into a dangerous situation and stripped of humanity. Instead, the main character worked for the fantasy equivalent of Unit 731, chose to ignore the violence she committed because her boss was hot and sometimes nice to her after he sent her to kill people, and justified her actions by saying she was protecting her family. Since her relationship with her family was a weak shadow at best, that wasn’t a believable reason for what she did. I know Ruying was supposed to love her family, but the author fell into the trap of telling the audience that rather than showing it.

Beyond shaky motivations, I honestly believe that there were more words dedicated to calling war evil than there were to character development or creating a plot. I get it, war is bad. But To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods promised to create a gray space between good and evil. Instead, there was just evil. No character—villain or otherwise—had a reason to do what they did to the extent that they did. If you want to write a book condemning war while also revealing human complexity, then you have to create vivid characters that readers can understand. You can’t just say that war is bad and then expect the audience to root for characters on either side perpetuating the conflict. There was also a lot of writerly voice rather than character’s voice. It was easy to tell when the author was trying to get across her message rather than when the character faced a moral dilemma.

A central theme of the story is Ruying’s corruption arc. Most of her “corruption” happened off-page and was summarized in a brief 10-page interlude. Aside from one scene, the reader never witnessed her internal conflict so her ensuing actions weren’t believable. Instead of a story of a girl who destroyed her soul to save her family, readers have a girl abruptly changing sides and falling in love with her captor/boss who has no reason to care about her.

The “romance” in this novel didn’t exist and didn’t make sense. I get what the author was trying to do with a villain romance that would have humanized both sides. Instead, audiences got a girl falling in love with her abuser (he takes away her family, tortures her, has her kill people and violate her values, and controls her future) because she found him attractive and he “saw” her. Enemies-to-lovers works when both characters are equals. To me at least, that’s the appeal of the trope: one character sees the worst in the other, sees them as an equal, and chooses to care about them anyway. Enemies-to-lovers doens't work when one character has no choice but to fall in love. It doesn’t work when there’s no chemistry and no good motivations. It didn’t work here.

My final major issue with To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods was the worldbuilding or lack thereof. Why and how the portal connecting the worlds opened was never explained. Why Rome controls its entire world without conflict was never explained. Where magic came from was never fully explained. The audience was just supposed to accept that the Romans were all powerful because they had technology and that Pangu was weak despite having magic and an understanding of their resources. The magic system also didn’t make sense and didn’t have clear rules, despite supposedly taking a high toll on the magic-wielders.

Once again, I wanted to like this book. I would have liked this book if had been what the synopsis promised. But shaky worldbuilding, inconsistent messaging, and poor character development just led to a book I was glad to finish.

Thank you to NetGalley and Random House Pub for this earc

I honestly didn’t know what to expect of this book. But what I got was kind of awesome. If you’re looking for an easy fantasy to get into the genre, this one is for you.

We have two worlds, one of Magic and one of Science. When the world of science start to die, Romans come to the world of Magic for help. And of course take over.

The world was very easy to follow is word of science based on our world and world of magic is your basic set up.

The plot follows Ruying who has a power to kill people by taking their qi - life force. When Roman prince basically blackmails her into killing for him for “the greater good” she agrees to save her family.

This story is as old as time and a favorite for a reason. Kind of enemies to lovers. But what sucked me in, is that you really don’t know if Prince is actually evil and Ruying really that naive to follow his orders without questioning it. Author definitely took definition of “morally grey” and went with it.

We definitely had few moments when things were a little slow or had a time jump which I didn’t love. But it was still very entertaining

What I can’t wait to see in the next book is will Anthony actually turns to good or will Ruying have to kill him?

This was definitely a different type of Asian inspired literature. A mash up of Asian folklore, science fiction, and fantasy, it made it difficult to reconcile the two worlds in the book but it was still an entertaining read. And while I had issues with Ruying falling for her captor, I do realize this is a fiction book and written for entertainment.

Reading about how Rome has destroyed their planet emphasizes what we are doing to our planet currently, and where we’re headed if we don’t stop the abuse asap. This is a major theme of this book. The consequences are that this Roman civilization invades another world through a portal and looks for ways to save their world by destroying the world they’ve just invaded. What follows is a tale of a captive magic user who falls for her captor and does his bidding, not realizing she is destroying her world even further.

A sad tale, but still full of action and entertaining, I will definitely read the following book(s) to find out what happens next in Ruying’s story.

Thank you to NetGalley and Random House Publishing Group - Ballantine for sending me a copy in exchange for an honest review.

Thank you to NetGalley and Random House Publishing Group for an ARC in exchange for an honest review! I appreciate the opportunity to read this unfortunately this wasn’t for me.

To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods is set in an Asian-inspired fantasy world. You follow the main character Ruying, a girl blessed by death, as she is forced to become an assassin for the enemy Roman prince in order to protect her family.

I would like to start with some strong points, I think there is a lot of great potential here in this story. The world the author built is intriguing, and the strongest part of this book is when that is developed and explored. I found the beginning very interesting; where we begin to learn about Ruying, her family, the general history of Xianlings, the introduction/subsequent impacts of the opian drug, and how magic is used. At first, some of the explanations of Xianlings and Pangu were a bit lost on me, it felt clunky but I eventually picked up the pieces as the story progressed. I'm still confused about the portals?

There is a lot of great and powerful commentary on colonialism and its detrimental impact on colonized people. There are also fantastic moments highlighting the patriarchy that is embedded in Asian culture/tradition. Specifically, how women struggle to navigate the roles and expectations placed before us. Chang doesn’t shy away from the horrors of life living under oppression…..which is why I was incredibly disappointed (and quite frankly baffled) when I realized Ruying's love interest was indeed going to be her colonizer.

While this is set in a fantasy world, the issues the characters face mirror real life. The genre of fantasy/sci-fi has been used as a vehicle for social commentary for decades. So it is nearly impossible to read this book and not think of the current state of affairs happening in real time in our world.

It is incredibly difficult to get behind the main love interest Prince Antony as he is quite literally Ruyings colonizer. I just couldn’t do it, it was distasteful and concerning. He is not “morally grey”, he is a colonizer and an oppressor through and through full stop. Chang tries to give him a more sympathetic backstory but it was still giving white savior vibes. It is not enough for me to root for him or even remotely want him and Ruying together.

The power dynamic between the two is completely off for a successful enemies-to-lovers trope to even happen here. It’s more colonizer to lovers which is just disturbing. The very jarring and unequal power dynamic (oppressor & oppressed) between the two characters was being romanticized and tainted the real commentary Chang makes about colonialism as a whole. I don’t think this aspect of the story is going to sit well with readers, it’s unfortunately not something you can ignore.

That said, I think Baihu was a far more compelling love interest for Ruying and I am rooting for him. I would love to see more of him, his scene with Ruying towards the end was *chef's kiss*, he said what desperately needed to be said and shook some damn sense into Ruying.

The ending of this book shows promise and I see what the author is trying to achieve with Ruying’s overall character arc but I believe the execution fell very flat. She doesn't really read as morally grey. At first, her motivations to protect her family are clear but then the poor girl is straight-up manipulated to the point of delusion.

I was so happy when she finally came to her senses. I thought it was never going to happen. I want better for Ruying! Having to read her go-to bat for Antony made me feel so sad for her. Is this the kind of story/message we really want to send out in 2024? Seems like a very odd and bizarre choice, especially from a POC author. If the story continues to go down this colonizer romance path I will sit the next one out, which is a shame because there is a lot of potential here.

I wish there were a way for me to give this more than 5 stars.

Thank you to NetGalley and Random House Publishing for early access to the digital ARC. I devoured this book in 6 hours.

To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods follows a young woman torn between survival and freedom. To protect the ones she loves, Ruying makes a deal with the devil, a Roman Prince named Antony Augustus. Using the magic given to her by Death, Ruying must grapple with the complexities of morality while living during times of war and subjugation. It deals with very heavy topics, such as colonization from the perspectives of both sides.

Ruying is an amazingly flushed-out and real person. Antony is a brutal morally gray foil for her. The other characters add depth to this world without taking focus away from the main plot.

It has political intrigue, great sci-fi and fantasy elements, as well as a tortuous romance arch that left me in tears. It is definently a dark romance. I would not necessarily call this enemies-to-lovers. There is a huge power imbalance between them that they are both very aware of.

However, I highly recommend this book and I can not wait for the sequel.

I was looking forward to reading this book, especially after reading the note by the author where she describes about how the story was influenced by the cruelty inflicted on the people of China in Unit 731. But I unfortunately ended up not liking it.

I'll start with the things that I liked about the book:

- I really liked the way the magic was used and described. The way Ruying goes into Death's world when she uses her powers was really cool, and I also enjoyed the passages describing death and Ruying's connection to it.

- There was some metaphors in the writing that I liked, and the book was very readable and easy to understand.


And for what I didn't like:

- The tone came across as super melodramatic. The writing is very repetitive, and it was very difficult to get immersed into the story, especially at the beginning, because it felt like the story was just being told to us rather than shown. For example, the entire first chapter is pretty much just an exposition dump about the world and the conflict between Pangu and Rome, and how the Romans oppress and treat the Panguans poorly. I feel like this world-building could have been interwoven into the story while we see Ruying go about her day to day life, rather than just dumped to the reader all at once. And when Ruying becomes an assassin, all of the details are pretty much skimped over. It didn't feel like I was experiencing a story and instead more like one was just being summarized to me. I do think this issue got a little better towards the end of the novel, however.

- I found the world-building to be somewhat confusing.. I didn't really understand why Pangu was so technologically behind compared to Rome, or why they seem to be completely unfamiliar with the idea of science. Like... are there no inventors in Pangu or what?

- When Ruying uses her Death magic to assassinate people, it appears to be taking a very negative toll on her, but this is dropped like halfway into the book. I know that this is supposed to be a trilogy, but the issue just felt like it was handwaved and forgotten about..

- None of the characters are particularly interesting or engaging. The dialogue is all very dry and mostly involves the characters just dumping their life story and trauma to other characters or explaining stuff about the plot.

- And for my biggest issue: the romance. Antony is one of the princes of the Roman empire who are subjugating Ruying's people. After she's kidnapped by the Roman's and imprisoned, Antony wants to use her powers to assassinate people who are getting in his way. Ruying, who doesn't like using her powers to kill people, initially refuses but eventually ends up agreeing after Antony claims that he's doing this to keep the peace between Rome and Pangu and prevent Pangu from being completely destroyed in war. And Ruying takes this entirely at face-value. Like.. this guy offers absolutely no evidence to support his claims, nor does he ever explain to her why the people she's killing are standing in the way of peace. She just believes him for no reason, even at one point claiming that she didn't care that she didn't know the truth about him, or something among those lines.
Antony is just straight up an awful person, and I didn't understand why Ruying fell for him. He doesn't treat her with respect, she knows that he's hiding a bunch of crap from her, he plays a major role in the subjugation of her people, and she barely even knows Antony. And the book seems to paint this relationship in a positive light despite everything that Antony's done, which I was not a fan of.

Overall, I ended up being really disappointed with this book, and it felt like it needed a lot more editing.

Excellent read! Great worldbuilding with very grounded magic that feels realistic. The science vs magic struggle is something I haven't seen before and enjoyed. It is easy to understand Ruying and be on her side even when her decisions are uncertain or even a little selfish. The construction of Antony's character was fantastic. I can't say much there without spoiling but the way their relationship is built leans into the complexities. I'm really excited for the sequel!

Thank you very much to NetGalley and Random House Publishing Group/Ballantine/Del Rey for providing me with a digital ARC in exchange for my honest review. This is the first ARC I've received and I was so excited for this opportunity!

My initial attraction to requesting this enemies-to lovers romantasy was its beautiful cover and my desire to support a debut author. The author's note drew me in from the start, and I was touched by her personal connection and reverence for the history upon which the story is based.

I really enjoyed the themes of gray morality, survival, conflicting loyalties and filiality. I thought the author deftly wove traditional cultural elements with innovative and fascinating world-building. The descriptions of Pangu were beautiful and the juxtaposition of tradition & magic and with modernity were fascinating. It's always a heavy lift to introduce an entirely new world to readers, but I felt the author was successful in creating something intriguing and unique. It's also a thoughtful allegory for the world we live in now, in terms of climate change, among other themes.

I will say this was a challenging and emotional read for me, given the state of the world right now. I found myself frequently drawing parallels to current events, the seeming complexity yet stunning simplicity of the horrors inflicted upon innocent people by the powerful and corrupt. Some of the phrasing/language used and scenes were a tad violent and visceral for my personal taste, but this is not a criticism of the story itself. Trigger warnings at the start of the book would be very helpful!

The character arc for a first book felt earned by the end and I think readers will enjoy seeing Ruying reconcile her competing priorities, obligation and desires in future installments. I'm also curious how the love triangle will play out, and that's all I'll say without spoiling it.

I do feel the work can benefit from some additional editing and polishing for minor typos, tightening up of some redundancy and smoothing of some of the phrasing. As such it's not a "wow" for me, in addition to perhaps not being 100% in the mood for a story set against the backdrop of war. That being said, some of the lines in this book were positively gorgeous, and there were moments where was incredibly invested and even teared up. I imagine the author's talent will continue to bloom with experience.

Thank you for the opportunity to read this much-anticipated book and share my thoughts!

Thank you to NetGalley and Del Rey for the eARC!

With a pretty cover and an interesting enough synopsis, I had high hopes for To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods. Sadly, I was very mistaken. By chapter 5, I wanted to stop reading, but it became one of those things where I knew it was going to end in a burning disaster but I couldn’t turn my eyes away.

For one, I disliked how the author handled themes of colonialism. I felt like she was distrustful of her readers when it came to talking about the atrocities colonialism can bring and the destruction it causes. I was constantly being told why it was bad instead of being implicitly shown it through the actions of her characters. In general, there was so many descriptions telling readers about the world instead of showing it.

Maybe others may find the appeal in a girl who's trapped between what she thinks is right vs. what's actually right, but I felt way too confused by Ruying's actions. Make up your mind! Do you love the man that's actively working against your country and people (the very things you claim to be protecting by doing his bidding) or do you see him for who he truly is? That was likely the whole point of the book, but everything left me saying "why is ruying doing this?" BAIHU gives her a chance to see the horrors of the romans at every turn, and yet she refuses him for some man who threatens to crush her family if she doesn't murder the people on his hit list. how do you love a man that refuses to tell you his plans (that are "good" btw) for THE COUNTRY THAT RAISED YOU? How do you love a man that has shown ZERO proof that he's a good man besides saving your life? That's not love, that's blatant exploitation and manipulation! Daddy issues don't excuse AWFUL actions!

Much of her assassinations were off-screen. done in a time-skip. Brushed over. That made MUCH less of an impact on the story than it should have.

And GOD, the sentences. the short sentences that go to the next line after to try to emphasize something. It's overdone. Nothing's being emphasized anymore.

This isn't a morally grey protag. This is "female lead needs therapy" and "male lead needs something much stronger than therapy."

I would much rather have read a book about Baihu than Ruying. Despite my bias towards Baihu, this book would've been over if he just told ruying everything from the start and tried to recruit her to the phantom's forces (which felt non-existent btw) from the start. But instead we got Stockholm syndrome marketed as enemies to lovers, aka colonizer romance. Save your money!

1/5, for "I finished the book but was unhappy for most of it."

Aaahh this book was enjoyable start to finish. Enemies to lovers is noticeable as Prince Antony grows increasingly close to Ruying as the stakes of the fates of their two worlds grows. Layers of betrayal and assassination, it's a good dip into a tale involving politics of conflicts and secrets. Ends on a cliffhanger, I can't wait for this to be formally released and reread it again.

I received this book for free in return for an honest review. If I hadn’t, I wouldn’t have finished it I would’ve quit at like the 20% mark. Prepare for a semi rant review.

I thought this was going to be Poppy War, but lite version. They both have the same idea, focusing on a series of invasions in Chinese history, and then going “but what if there was magic”. And the book had a wonderful and thoughtful prelude about the horrors of war and generational suffering. I was ready for this book to break my heart. However, the book did not deliver these themes. I think only 10 to 15% of this book was actually about the experiments and the other 85% was this character dropping random pieces of lore for like 10 pages, telling us about how much she loves her family, or the colonizer romance. I feel like there was so much more that could’ve been done but so much of this book is just information repeated over and over again. Someone could read the first 20% of this book and then read the last 20% and still get the same story as someone who had read 100%.

This was not good.

I like many others saw the drama unfold with Cait C. and wanted to help be a voice for good with the books that received the hate. I was so excited when I received the ARC.
What a shock I was in for.

This story follows Ruying as she struggles to survive in the Empire of Er-Lang occupied by the Romans. Dealing with a frail grandmother and a sister whose addiction to opian has left them penniless, she steals a bag of gold from a stranger on the street.

That stranger turns out to be none other than a prince of Rome, Anthony Augustus.
What follows is a kidnapping, hazing, and enslavement of Ru under the guise that her family will be protected by Anthony as long as she uses her power as a Xianling channeling Death to subdue targets for Rome.


Things I did not like about the book.
- No explanation of the fact that this isn't actually Earth or how "Romans" showed up and conquered the place so easily.
- 6 month gap where she mysteriously gains mastery of her powers (no explanation)
- Anthony can't swim but manages to pull both himself and Ruying to safety.
- Water and canals and physics
- hates Anthony (like really hates him)> 6mo gap > loves him 🤮
- common grammatical errors

What I did like about the book
- The inclusion of Chinese characters and phrases / idioms. Gives nice depth
- Ruying is a flawed and naive FMC (would have loved a little more internal character work though)
- Baihu

Thanks to Netgalley and the publisher for the E-Arc of this book

"Freedom and pride are worth fighting for, but only peace is worth dying for"

This book is the antithesis of anti-colonialism.

First of all what the hell with de romance colonizer and the stockholm syndrome???

I understand that our fmc is a morally gray character and all that but I have read about a lot of morally gray characters in my life and none of them were as DUMB as Ruying. I hate to talk (write in this case) about a female character in this way, but I'm impressed by how stupid this character is. She's not morally grey, she's just very easy to manipulate.

Let's go with my first problem in this book: Toxic romance glorifying the colonizer. This book is not a "enemies to lovers" IT IS NOT. NO. NO NO. This is a toxic and abusive relationship with a huge power imbalance. In the introduction the author tells us about unit 731 (I recommend looking for information about it) which is a crime against humanity in the middle of the Sino-Japanese war and at one point in the book Antony tells Runyi that he IS DOING EXPERIMENTS ON HER PEOPLE and she doesn't even think about what that means. When Bahiu tells her "do you know what happens to the people who aren't selected?" she reacts like "i dont care". How could you write that introduction and then gave us this approach to human experimentation?

Look, I do think that this book has a lot of potential but the execution is very poorly done and honestly it needs a couple of rounds of edits more. The worldbuilding is vague, the writing style is beautiful but it is very repetitive. I get it, heroes die, cowards live. You don't have to repeat that every single time. You don't have to give me a lot of scenes where the fmc tries to justify herswlf and thinks of her sister as the martyr and her as the coward. I GET IT. Instead of wasting so much time in these kind of scenes where Ruying spirals for pages about her situation, why don't you give me scenes where Ruying is being trained to be an assassin? She starts working for Antony, murdering her own people without any prior training but suddenly she's very skilled in what she does.

This book is a constant repetitive monologue where we are constantly being told instead of shown. I dont normally have a problem with the "tell and dont show" if its done properly like Olivie Blake does. But this book could have been amazing if we actually saw training scenes for Ruying, the murder scenes, i dont know, ANYTHING instead of pages upon pages of Ruying doing a monologue about survival, cowards, her long-suffering life or Ruying talking with Antony and getting lost in his pretty green eyes.

Also, for me it was obvious from the beginning that Antony was a psychopath. Apart from the constant personality changes, it was clear that he was a manipulator and a liar. Idk how Ruying couldn't see it.

I feel very bad talking like this about a book by a debut author but this book promises things that it DOES NOT fulfill. The only reason I gave this book 2 stars its because i really liked the first 50% and with that ending I really think that the author could take this trilogy to an incredible place and a lot of what I hated in this book could change. I do think that this book could be more enjoyable if many things were presented in a different way and if the publisher stopped selling it as an enemies to lovers, because it is not. If I had known that instead of an epic fantasy rooted in history (as the publisher presents it) I was going to find a romance with a very abusive and toxic relationship with a "love interest" that is the villain I would have opened this book expecting another thing.