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the warm and cozy feelings that i got while reading this was unmatched! i didnโt want this book to end and iโll definitely be doing a reread. summer and aiden are soo cute together and iโm really looking forward to the next book in this series!!

A hockey romance with no third act breakup, written by Bal Khabra? I already knew I was gonna love this and I DID!!
After reading her debut A Code for Love I absolutely fell in love with her writing and was counting the days when she would release another book bc it was THAT good. So when I received an arc of this book I was ๐ฆ๐ค๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ค๐ค
Summer is a sports psychology student and Aiden is captain of the hockey team. After an incident, he has to help Summer with a project so he doesnโt get suspended from the game. These two didnโt get off to a good start but their relationship progressed as they spent more time together.
Summer and Aidenโs dynamic was very well written. I didnโt expect it to be a slow burn but shit it was burningg. This was also dual pov and the way he would talk about her and OBSESS over her gave me butterflies๐ฉ I was ๐ฅ๐บ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ for them to get together.
Aiden is the greenest green flag. Heโs flirty, cocky & has zero filter. Some of the things he would say was so unexpected it made me blush๐คญ Summer tried to deny her feelings but he would go out of his way to show that he cares and respects her, especially when she doubted herself. Him being her biggest supporter was so CUTE๐ฅน
And the side characters? I freaking LOVED them. They were funny, entertaining and the way they would have Summerโs back when Aiden was being stupid, it made me smile๐ค.
Is it too early to ask for Kianโs book? heโs so baby girl and idk, seems like the possessive typeโฆ๐ I know itโs gonna be fun watching him be down bad for a girl๐คญ
๐ทthank you so much Bal & Berkley for sending me an arc!๐ค I enjoyed this so so much <3
Quotes I loved:
โก โ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ, ๐๐ถ๐ฎ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ณ, ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ต ๐ฅ๐ณ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ณ๐ข๐ป๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต.โ
โก โ๐ ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐จ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ.โ ๐๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ. ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ด ๐ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ.โ
โก โ๐๐ฉ๐ฆโ๐ด ๐ง๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ต๐ต๐บ. ๐๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ต๐ต๐บ. ๐๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ค๐ญ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ด ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ข ๐ท๐ช๐ฐ๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต ๐ฉ๐ช๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต. ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐ช๐ฎ๐ข๐จ๐ฆ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ ๐ฑ๐ข๐ณ๐ต ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ข๐ช๐ฏ.โ
โก โ๐๐ช๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฏโ๐ด ๐ข๐ณ๐ฎ๐ด ๐ข๐ณ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฎ๐ฆโฆ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ด๐ฉ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ง๐ฐ๐ณ๐ต ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ด๐ข๐ง๐ฆ๐ต๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐โ๐ฎ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐ช๐ฎ. ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ง๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ด ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ.โ
โก โ๐๐ฉ๐ช๐ด ๐จ๐ช๐ณ๐ญ ๐ช๐ด ๐ง๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ด๐ถ๐ฏ๐ด๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ด๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ด ๐ฏ๐ฐ ๐ค๐ญ๐ถ๐ฆ. โ๐๐ง ๐ค๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ. ๐๐ตโ๐ด ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฐ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถโ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ข๐ด๐ด๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ข๐ต๐ฆ. ๐๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ข ๐ญ๐ช๐ต๐ต๐ญ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ต๐ถ๐ฃ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฏ.โ
โก โ๐๐ด ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ข๐ด ๐ ๐ญ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ฅ๐บ, ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฎ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ณ๐ถ๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ด ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ. ๐ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด๐ต๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ง๐ถ๐ค๐ฌ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ข๐ฎ๐ข๐ป๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ช๐ด ๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ถ๐ฑ ๐ช๐ฏ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ถ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฏ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ. ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฎ๐ข๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ด๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ค๐ฉ ๐ฃ๐ณ๐ช๐จ๐ฉ๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ, ๐๐ถ๐ฎ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ณ, ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ช๐ต ๐ฅ๐ณ๐ช๐ท๐ฆ๐ด ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ณ๐ข๐ป๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต.โ
โก โ๐ ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฅ๐ฐ๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ฃ๐ญ๐ข๐ค๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ข๐ช๐ญ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต, ๐๐ถ๐ฎ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ณ.โ
โก โ๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ฆ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐บ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ฆ.โ
Aiden being his flirty self:
โก โNow that you mention it, I wouldnโt mind a tip.โ
โ๐๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฑ๐ถ๐ญ๐ญ ๐ช๐ต ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ๐ด๐ฆ๐ญ๐ง.โ
โก โ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฆ๐น๐ต ๐ต๐ช๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ, ๐ช๐ต ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ฏโ๐ต ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฑ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ต๐ช๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ. ๐๐ตโ๐ด ๐จ๐ฐ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฃ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ฆ๐ค๐ข๐ถ๐ด๐ฆ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฌ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ธ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ญ๐บ ๐จ๐ถ๐บ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ ๐ด๐ข๐ต๐ช๐ด๐ง๐บ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ช๐ด ๐ฎ๐ฆ.โ
โก โYou practice on a lot of girls?โ
โ๐๐ถ๐ด๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ. ๐๐ถ๐ต ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ฏ๐ข๐ต๐ถ๐ณ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ฅ ๐ธ๐ช๐ต๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ด.โ

Thank you to NetGalley and Berkley for the ARC in exchange for an honest review
The description I read of this one being Icebreaker x The Deal was just spot on.

This book was so much fun! I absolutely adored Aiden and Summer, both individually and together as a couple. Their banter felt fresh and fun, and their chemistry was really believable (and the spice was H.O.T.). While some parts of the plot were predictable, I didn't mind it at all. The book reminded me of some of the older Elle Kennedy and Sarina Bowen new adult hockey romances, which are some of my favorites. I do wish we had some more backstory on Aiden, and that we got to see more of the relationship between Summer and her father, but all in all this book was so enjoyable to read. I highly recommend!

This book was definitely fun and I really enjoyed the last 30% because the connection between Summer and Aiden was so beautiful that I couldnโt help but just love their relationship once they were finally together. The beginning felt both too fast and slow but honestly this book hits you with all the fields in the end. Aiden was just so caring and patient.
The micro trope of Aiden being obsessed with Summer hair and wanting to help her take care of it had me screaming.
If you like college sports romances with green flag MMC then definitely give this one a try because itโs so fun and cute.

another hockey romance Iโll never stop screaming about! Aiden is a cinnamon roll that needs to be protected at all costs. He was sweet, loyal, charming, funny, and so sexy. I loved Summerโs drive and passion to achieve all of her dreams, even if her stubbornness was a bit much sometimes. All said, I loved this book and I can wait for more from Bal!

Summerโs sports psychologist grad school application requires her to work with the captain of the college hockey team, Aiden Crawford. Easy enough, right? Except, Aidenโs reluctant to work with Summer, and Summer has a long-standing grudge against hockey players due to a tenuous relationship with her dad, Luke Preston โ former NHL player, and current Boston (unsure if the Bruins exist in this universe) interim coach. Letโs start with what I enjoyed about Collide โ Bal Khabra clearly took care to research some things about the NHL, and I did appreciate that the main character wasnโt white. Collide focuses more on the NCAA, and while there are a few things I raised my eyebrows at (specifically, Aidenโs post-college plans and his contract), I didnโt mind that terribly. What I did mind, however, was the lack of plot, bad pacing, lack of personality โฆ you get it. Collide is what happens when an author tries to pack as many tropes as they can in one book โ grumpy x sunshine, friends with benefits, found family, possessive โ simp, wingmaning, he falls first and falls harder, among others โ without any substance, stakes, or most importantly, chemistry. Thereโs nothing that really sets Collide apart from all the other college hockey romances out there (especially Off Campus and Icebreaker).

First off, thank you Berkley and NetGalley for an arc for my honest review.
I was really looking forward to this and really wanted to like it, but I ended up stop reading around 50% because there were too many ups and downs that it gave me extreme emotional whiplash. Each argument felt like breakups and the main plot line didnโt need to be stretched that long. For all that to be happening around the halfway point was too much for me personally.

In the realm of captivating sports romances, Collide by Bal Khabra stands out as a formidable contender, masterfully weaving together the captivating journey of two polar opposites thrown together by an unexpected twist of fate. With an engaging plot and well-crafted characters, this novel promises an enthralling read that leaves readers craving more. At the heart of the story lies Summer Preston, an ambitious and driven young woman pursuing her dream of becoming a sports psychologist. However, her carefully charted path collides with that of Aiden Crawford, the charismatic yet infuriating captain of the hockey team, whose reckless actions threaten to jeopardize the entire season. As punishment, Aiden is forced to participate in Summer's research project, setting the stage for a clash of personalities and a whirlwind of emotions. Summer, with her meticulous nature and unwavering focus on her goals, finds herself at odds with Aiden's carefree attitude and apparent disregard for the consequences of his actions. Their initial interactions are marked by bickering and mutual misunderstanding. Yet, as they delve deeper into the project, they begin to discover hidden depths beneath their carefully constructed facades. Aiden, beneath his bravado, harbors insecurities and a fear of not living up to the expectations placed upon him. Summer, too, struggles with her own anxieties and the pressure to conform to societal norms. As they reluctantly work together, their banter gradually transforms into something more profound, revealing a growing connection and undeniable chemistry. The author's skillful storytelling shines through in the vivid portrayal of the sporting world, capturing the exhilaration of the games and the intense camaraderie among teammates. The hockey matches are described with such fervor that readers can almost feel the energy of the crowd and the adrenaline coursing through the players' veins. Collide is not merely a sports romance; it delves into deeper themes of self-discovery, ambition, and the pursuit of one's dreams. Both Summer and Aiden embark on a journey of personal growth, learning to embrace their vulnerability and to fight for what truly matters to them. With its captivating characters, engaging plot, and exploration of universal themes, Collide is a surefire hit for fans of sports romances and contemporary fiction alike. Bal Khabra's writing is fresh and authentic, bringing to life a story that resonates with readers on a profound level. This novel is a testament to the power of love, resilience, and the transformative nature of human connection.

This book was eh for me. There were certain things that just didn't add up in this book, like how the characters were 20 turning 21 but also seniors ? Additionally the actions that were taken that caused the climax confused me a bit, like I feel like there were so many other routes to go about that realistically and so that was just a bit odd to me.
I liked the characters but I didn't really find anything special about them or this book in general๐ฌ it just didn't really bring anything new or out there in the hockey romance genre

This book was so refreshing and such a good time! You can never go wrong with a college romance for me and winter is the perfect time for hockey. Both characters had a lot of stuff to work through but they really did work through it and got better for each other. Their banter was great and I loved both characters individually and together, as well as having hilarious side characters! The only thing that brought it down for me is that I wish some of the spice scenes would be switched for more emotional connection moments. I could feel both the emotional and physical connections but I'll always take more playful banter. Overall this was a book that always had me saying โone more chapterโ and I loved the Canadian rep.

This was incredibly sweet and just the right level of spicy. I have fallen in love with hockey romance novels and this is a cut above the college hockey romances flooding the genre. Can't wait for the next one!!!

Probably a 3.5 โญ๏ธ It was great, but pretty drawn out. Chemistry between these two made it worth the read still, though. It definitely is a spicy, hockey romance.
I will definitely being read book 2 in this series. I hope it comes out sooner than later..
I received this book from the publisher & NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. All opinions expressed are solely my own.

This is for somebody, maybe not for me. The writing felt a bit clunky and repetitive to me and the pacing wasn't great. I do know this is the exact book that some people are looking for and therefore is has it's place and I will be recommending this to those fans who devour this younger sort of basic sports romance.

There is really nothing better than a girl who hates hockey players and then begrudgingly falls in love with one! Summer and Aiden were SWEET!
The beginning was a little tough, Summer wanted nothing to do with Aiden and he kept not showing up for her the way he said he would. But of course once they figured it out, once she gave in a little and he stepped up (and then never looked back!!)!they were GOOD together. And they had good banter! And good chemistry! Even when she was still in her โhating him and his beautiful faceโ phase.
I LOVED Summer! Her struggles with her dad were rough and i did like seeing them be able to finally talk about how sheโs feeling. I also just love how hard she works and how determined she is. And of course falling for Aiden sort of gets in the way, but she doesnโt want to let itโฆbut also sheโs SO determined that she can do it all! With the help of Aiden who is always there to support her!
And of course Aiden is wonderful! There is nothing I love more than a man who knows what he wants and doesnโt give up! Itโs exactly what Summer needed in a man! And he is SO SWEET. I loved that he was able to own up to his mistakes and work hard to make up for them.
I loved the bonus chapter SO MUCH. And I loved the preview for the next book! I canโt wait for more from Bal!!
Thanks to Berkeley for the ARC in exchange for an honest review!!

I loved how the author wrote a diverse main character, but I also think SO much more could have been done with Summerโs character / personality / background to dive more into her culture for it to be that much more meaningful. The plot was a tad predictable and it felt more insta-love-y than I was expecting coming from the premise, but I did still enjoy reading it and thought their relationship was cute! It rubbed me the wrong way that Summer got mad at him for being too gentleman-like.. like I get there needs to be relationship conflict for the plot but that just seems a bit much no? Poor Aiden his patience was really put through the wringer LOL. And even if theyโre hockey players and even though itโs a joke, I do NOT WANT TO READ PERIOD / TAMPON JOKES IN MY CONTEMPORARY ROMANCE. EVER. Like thatโs not funny and thatโs so overdone, it immediately made me want to stop reading the book. Anyway, this is all to say this is a solid 3 star hockey romance (with lotssss of smut lol).
Thank you so much to NetGalley and Berkley for an early review copy in exchange for my honest opinion!

a keep me up all night kind of read. I had so much fun reading this and couldn't put it down.
Aiden is book boyfriend goals and Summer is such a delight. I really enjoyed overall how this unfolded.

This book was exactly what I was looking for at the moment. It gave petty college gossip, hockey, and fun times.

Bal Khabra deserves every single praise for this. Freaking PERFECTION. 10/10. This was just so so good. I couldnโt get enough of it and wanted a thousand more pages of this.

"Collide" serves up a whirlwind of a college hockey romance, brimming with banter and heat, featuring a chosen family, a tumble-first dynamic, and an inverted grumpy x sunshine trope. Meet Aiden, who, taking one for the team, finds himself unwillingly partnered with Summer for her research project. Despite initial reluctance, sparks fly, revealing a connection beyond mere verbal jousting. Aiden's unwavering commitment to Summer faces hurdles due to her past hang-ups and the demands of the project. Nevertheless, Aiden persists, showing he's ready to go all-in.
This book is a scrumptious, feel-good romance with charm to spare. Aiden's sweetness and attentiveness shine, triumphing over the hurdles in their love story. Summer's stubborn streak adds a delightful twist, making their dynamic a joyride. While there's a slight deduction for external relationship drama, Aiden and Summer's eventual connection pays off handsomely. As a newbie to Bal Khabra's work, I'm already itching for more!
This book certainly lives up to its social media hype. It delivers on the promise of so much fun, sizzling and palpable chemistry, the best book boyfriend, likable side characters, and great execution that endears it to sports romance enthusiasts. The romance? Sizzling. The characters? Absolute delights. The plot? Just the right blend of mystery. Aiden and Summer became each other's pillars, navigating personal challenges in a positively uplifting manner.
The icing on the cake? "Collide" boasts a topsy-turvy grumpy x sunshine dynamic! Who doesn't love a male lead channeling golden retriever vibes while the female lead rocks the perpetual scowl? The banter is off the charts!
In a nutshell, "Collide" is a breezy, entertaining read with unexpectedly steamy moments. If you're yearning for a concoction of hockey, romance, and laughter, this book is your golden ticket!
A heartfelt thanks to NetGalley and Berkley Publishing for sharing this entertaining book's digital reviewer copy in exchange of my honest thoughts.