Where do I even begin? This may be one of my favorite reads so far this year. This novel grabbed me from the beginning and I almost got whiplash from all the twists and turns! I almost threw my kindle multiple times.

I didn't know what was real or who to trust. The chapters were short and super fast paced and the writing made me feel like I was in Flora's head the entire time.

I absolutely loved this book. This is a powerful and horrifying tale of motherhood. It is suspenseful and twisted. It felt like reading the true horrors of new motherhood. The story completely gripped me. I was eager to read more as the mystery was unveiled. The writing is compelling. I didn’t see the twists coming. Some twists just shook me. And that ending was frightening. So many unspeakable and unthinkable things happen. Flora is a new mother. She wasn’t expecting her mother to come when she wrote email to her, but as soon as her mother shows up, things take a dark and dreadful turn and bring out the buried secrets, shocking truth, and unsettling past. All the bizarre stuff and gothic happenings kept me on the edge.
 
The author has truly shown the phases of motherhood and the fears of a new mother while also splattering light on the mental state a mother goes through. The author has also shown the complex bond between a mother and daughter. This is an excellent debut horror. I can’t believe this is a debut.

Many Thanks to the Author and Publisher.

Dearest is two mother-daughter horror stories wrapped up in one delicious package. Our narrator is a new mother whose husband is deployed with the military. She’s totally in love with her baby and she’s trying so hard to be perfect. She knows what it’s like to have an imperfect mother. New motherhood combine with strange occurrences and a renewed relationship…or something…with her own mother along with a strange talisman and the sweet beginnings of motherhood are tainted with paranoia and maybe even insanity. Wicked good!
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4.5 ⭐️ What a debut! I am always searching for horror books that will creep me out and make me cringe, and Dearest followed through! The story was suspenseful, gross, creepy, and oh so twisty.
I wasn’t sure I could get into a story about a woman who is experiencing post-pardom baby blues since I’ve never had a baby, but Jacquie Walters did a great job setting the scene.
Walters’ writing has been compared to Grady Hendrix, and I can definitely see the similarities when it comes to the grotesque imagery, but this book was not campy/humorous like a lot of Hendrix’s books. There were creepy crawlies, disturbing situations, and surprising turns along the way. I will definitely be buying a hard copy of this book when it releases in September!

Thank you NetGalley and Mulholland Books for the eArc.

"𝐈𝐭 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐚 𝐯𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐠𝐞," 𝐢𝐝𝐢𝐨𝐦; 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐛
𝟏. 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚 𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝'𝐬 𝐮𝐩𝐛𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐮𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐞𝐟𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭
𝟐. 𝐀 𝐩𝐡𝐫𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐭𝐥𝐞𝐬 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐟*𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐬𝐞 𝐚 𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭

I opened this book late one night to read the first few pages to see if it would be my next read, and before I knew it, it was almost 3 in the morning. This book was one of the most intense I have read lately and left me feeling completely agitated and unsettled throughout. Before you skim the synopsis and write it off as "just another book about postpartum issues," check that attitude right now because this book is so much more.

Flora is a new mom who is struggling. Her husband is deployed, and her dad and step-mom have gone back home after a lengthy stay. She's reverted to talking to her imaginary friend from childhood, wonders daily if she's going mad, and is dangerously sleep deprived. In a moment of desperation, she reaches out to her estranged mother via e-mail and is shocked when her mother shows up at her door. Flora is both eager to mend fences and cautious around her judgmental mother; nevertheless, she welcomes the help.

When The Shocking Thing happened, it was told in such a matter-of-fact way that I yelped, "Wait, what?" out loud. I considered turning on a light to scare the shadows away, but I couldn't move. This book scared the sh*t out of me in more ways than one. I don't think you'll be able to put it down once you start it. Thank you to Mulholland Books for this terrifying early copy. This title will publish September 17, 2024.

Flora is a brand new mom and her husband Connor is deployed somewhere secret. In order not to worry him she isn't honest about how things are going, and they aren't going so well! In a moment of weakness she reaches out to her own mother, who she hasn't spoken to in years. Dearest wasn't exactly what I expected, but I ended up loving it. It had some genuinely creepy moments without jump scares. If you're a new mom, please don't read this if you're alone!

This was a brilliant read that explores the early months after giving birth and the isolation and loneliness that can be felt all while being utterly sleep deprived and downright drained. This also explores the inner turmoil of formula vs. breastfeeding and the stigma that while fading is still there. This author weaved such a heartfelt, thought-provoking tale while also giving it a horror element. This was creepy with an eerie, dreamlike quality throughout. As we all know, the ending can either make or break a great story, and this ending, at least for me, made it. I saw it playing out in movie form, beyond creepy with nail-biting suspense. This was a great read, and I look forward to reading what comes next from this author. Four solid stars.

Thank you, Netgalley and Mulholland Books, for this ARC.

This book was terrifying. If you are a horror fan, definitely check it out. Jacquie Walters takes the most vulnerable time in many women's lives - the time after having a baby - and lets us wonder if there is something supernatural going on or if Flora is suffering from postpartum psychosis. Charlotte Taylor Gilman's The Yellow Wallpaper is mentioned and it must have served as inspiration.

** spoiler alert ** I couldn’t decide on the rating so I am going to say this is a 2.5 star book.


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I picked this book because it was marketed as similar to Grady Hendrix but also, I do enjoy a good horror novel! While it did have a lot of crazy, paranormal happenings in it and a nice amount of gore, it lacked the humor and nostalgia I typically get with a Hendrix book.
Dearest wasn’t dearest to me. I felt frustrated with Flora, the protagonist, the whole way through. Girl…If nursing is causing you that much pain…grab some formula! Your baby will be just fine. Note: There are a few triggers in this book! Typically, I am not bothered by these things and I kinda knew what I was getting into when I read the first chapter. I read on anyway. I liked the plot, but I didn’t have any real WHAT JUST HAPPENED?!? moments until the very end.
The book is definitely a slow burn. The first half was boring and frustrating. I learned a lot about Flora’s breasts. I almost gave up. The second half was much better, I flew through it. But again, I was frustrated and angry at the protagonist’s decisions. COME ON GIRL! The end made me feel a little better for Flora. It got me a little emotional… then frustrated again.

Thank you NetGalley for this ARC!

This was a good storyline and good read. I thought it was going to be too scary and more of a horror novel rather psychological thriller, but it wasn’t. It dealt with the occult, but not overly satanic or graphic.

Wow this was twisted! What brilliant metaphors for postpartum depression/psychosis -- what is real? What is lived in trauma? I just love the mashup of reality with a twist of horror along with all of the commentary on the complexities of mother/daughter relationship and motherhood itself.

Flora is home alone caring for her infant Iris. Her husband Connor is away on deployment and not expected back for days. Sleep deprived, having trouble breastfeeding, and also suffering from an infection…Flora is at her wits end. She feels she has no one to turn to, as she severed her relationship with her mother years ago. In a moment of desperation, she reaches out to mother who miraculously shows up on her doorstep. As relieved as she feels, there is something not quite right about the situation. Is she having delusions ? She can’t seem to tell what is real and what she is imagining. This was a crazy novel and I loved every minute of it. A little graphic at times, so not for the faint of heart! This was an exceptional debut novel.

I was/am completely captivated by this book! I am still in shock and must recommend everyone to read this to satisfy your horror craving! Guessing and second guessing until I’m completely sure of what’s going on until, wait… what??? I’m wrong? Again?! Where is this going??? I must know!!!

🪲postpartum depression?
🪲Maybe psychosis?
🪲haunted house?
🪲haunted item?

✨you must read it and find out!!! 😱

And that ending!!! Ahhhhhhh! 👀

I will be purchasing my shelf trophy as soon as available and wouldn’t mind a future buddy read because this was just too good to read once! Thank you Jacquie!! ♥️

Blending elements of postpartum depression with supernatural horror, this tale follows Flora as she grapples with the Night Hag, a haunting presence that has tormented her since childhood. The narrative skillfully shifts between eerie, domestic horror and supernatural possession, drawing parallels to works like "Mary" by Nat Cassidy and "Rosemary's Baby." As Flora navigates the challenges of new motherhood, including postpartum depression, the story masterfully weaves unsettling and darkly humorous moments. With a sharp commentary on the struggles of being a new mother, the author delves into themes of isolation, depression, and the spooky unknown. The narrative cleverly blurs the lines between reality and the supernatural, keeping readers guessing about the reliability of the narrator. This gripping story effectively captures the complexities of motherhood while delivering chilling and suspenseful scenes that will keep readers engaged from start to finish.

THANK YOU NETGALLEY FOR THE ARC!

This was a unique book! A little heavy on the downsides of breast feeding and pus for me but I do like reading tales of motherhood that are not rosy.

It also had one of the more genuine reveals of unreliable narrators that I can remember.

The pacing was great and added a lot to the story .

I absolutely loved this book. It's exactly the kind of horror I love to read. The prose was great and really brought the story to life. It was terrifying and unsettling while also making me think. I loved the climax where everything comes to a head.

Thank you to NetGalley for allowing me to read this in exchange for an honest review.

This was such a creepy fantastic read up until like the last quarter of the book, when it got a little silly for me. Otherwise, though I saw one big twist coming, really enjoyed it. some seriously sinister and sick stuff going on here - a really fun but disturbing horror novel about postpartum and mother/daughter relationships.

i loved this! i commend the author for delving into all the grossness of postpartum life. i love horror centered on motherhood and this is one of the best i’ve read. even though some of the twists could be considered cliche, they felt gripping while i was reading. it was a great and intense experience.

Thank you to Netgalley for the ARC!

This was great! The characters felt well developed, and I'm really glad it turned out the way it did. I had a few moments I was guessing where it was going and it continually surprised me. A great ghost/haunting story!

I am having a hard time putting my thoughts into words with this book- I guess that means it was thought provoking! Overall, it is GOOD. It's horrific, emotional, and crazy. As a 2 1/2 month postpartum mom, it was also sad (and many things were really relatable). I was on my way to giving this 5 stars until it got to the last 15% of the book. Things just got a bit TOO cray cray. Initially, I was also annoyed that I didn't get finality with whether the ultimate theme was psychosis or spiritual possession. I suppose maybe it was a little bit of both? Or maybe the author left it up to the reader's interpretation on purpose? Regardless, it is definitely worth reading! 4 stars for the overall book. 1 star for the beetles, hah!