When reading this book it did take a lot for me to get into it. I was confused at first about what I was reading. But the more I read I was able to understand and get what Kel was talking about for Hanna.

There were times at the beginning I wasn't sure what I was reading.

The story opens with Hanan, a deeply depressed young man, attempting to take his life in the forest. But something or someone pulls him back. And when it does, he has powers he didn't before and struggles to control as his emotions spike them.

Shortly after he meets Pax at the local coffee shop and feels a pull toward him. Slowly their friendship and then more develops, until a revelation makes Pax question why Hanan is really interested in him.

In the midst of this story line, Hanan is trying to heal from a major hurt from someone he thought was a friend, Pax is trying to feel safe after a childhood of abuse and rejection from his parents, and Hanan develops a friendship with the fae.

The magic is beautifully twined throughout the story it a subtle way at first until it's not.

My spoilery thoughts while reading:
-When May first encourages Pax to take his shot I 100% thought he was a fox and needed the shot to keep his human form. This does all come together eventually.
-Aodhan is precious. I hope the friendship they found is enough to keep them from feeling lonely.
-I need to know if May and Hanan's mom ever learned the truth about their boys and what their reactions were. Cause that's a lot to take in.

I found this book to be an enjoyable read. The story kept me engaged from start to finish and had some moments that really stood out. Overall, it offered an entertaining reading experience.

✨️Transgender MC
✨️Soulmates
✨️ Magic
⚠️ Mental Illness/ PTSD
⚠️Self-harm
⚠️ Mentioned past-rape
⚠️ Homophobia

This book was eerie, magical, and hauntingly beautiful. The writing style is almost flowery and poetic with how vivid the descriptions and imagery are. The writing style is new to me, and I like how the story is told in such a way that you can picture everything in your head.

<i>"What does your anxiety look like?"
"A swarm of wasps."</i>

This story is about a boy named Hanan who tried to commit suicide. He survived but comes back changed. He's now cursed to feel like every emotion is a physical force, and it drives him nearly insane trying to cope with it, and it doesn't help his despression one bit. One day, he meets a transgender boy named Pax, and when he touches Hanan for the first time, it silences the curse.

The scenes between Pax and Hanan are so sweet and cute. It had me going "awe" several times. The magic the MC has isn't typical Magic. It's considered a curse, but boy, I love the things he can do unintionally with it! Materalising daffodils because he's thinking about a boy, the sun getting brighter when he's happy, the shadows growing longer when he's sad... I love it all!

The only thing I didn't like about this story was Hanan's mom. She doesn't act like a mother who almost lost her son to suicide. Her character is flat and doesn't hold any true emotions.

I honestly didn't see the twist this story was taking. Like, okay, there's dark magic at play, but I didn't see any of the surprises that show up near the end of the book!

This lyrical YA magical love story has some very deep themes, including attempted suicide and idealation. Taking place in a small Irish town, Hanan survived a suicide attempt only to have awakened monsters of his own imagination. The only thing that silences these powers is the touch of Pax, a trans boy who recently moved to town with his aunt. Both friendless, they find comfort in each other as they begin to discover the fae magic lying beneath the town.

I think what stuck with me the most was the poetic depth of the writing. I meant it when I described it as "lyrical." The descriptions, not just of setting, but emotions were so moving. Peppered throughout are quotes like: "Just like the forest, love would gild it. A star, sewn into the quilted countryside."

DNF at at 25%, the story did not grip me the way that i anticipated that it would I did make it a quarter of the way through without any understanding of what was happening in the plot is not for me unfortunately. I’m trying. To not force myself to read books that don’t grab me and bring me in to the story. I did enjoy the trans representation however I think the story just needed to get to the point quicker

A Fix of Light is a dark and emotional story. I really felt for Hanan and Pax- their storyline was very intense and dealt with a lot of heavy topics well. It was a little confusing at times, but it is magical realism. Overall I did like it, but I wish it was a little longer to string out that emotion a little more.

Hanan lives in an Irish village called Skenashogue and he is supposed to be dead. After attempting to take his own life he's not sure how he survived or got home from the forest but now he has new magic that makes all his emotions manifest physically.

Pax works at the local coffee shop, sensitive and kind Hanan is instantly drawn to Pax, who also seems to mute Hanan's magic. and also have som kind of magic of his own. Both boys have troubled pasts they are trying to heal from and form a fast bond.

This book stomped on my heart, it made me cry multiple times. This is a beautiful story of confronting your past and healing and letting people in to help you heal. The magic and the world these boys live in is described beautifully. You can see their secret meeting spot by the sea and the coffee shop that Pax works at.

This was no an easy read, so please heed the warnings, it covers may difficult topics. I could not put it down and by the end of the book it was giving a big, warm hug that made it all worth it.

Thank you NetGalley and their Publisher Spotlight for the ARC in exchange for an honest review.

This is one of those books that sneaks up on you—quiet at first, then suddenly you're completely wrapped up in it. Hanan’s magic is such a cool, unsettling concept, and the way it ties emotion to power makes every interaction feel intense. Pax is the perfect counterbalance—gentle, warm, grounding—and their connection feels earned, not rushed. The prose is lush and eerie, and the story is steeped in this quiet, Irish gothic vibe that works really well. My only wish is that the worldbuilding had gone just a little deeper, but even so, it hit that perfect mix of strange and tender.

I really enjoyed this book. Read it in one day. I think it handles the sensitive topics it covers well, while also maintaining a very uplifting tone throughout the story. Hanan and Pax were both very adorable and I quickly grew quite attached to them both. I liked how the supernatural elements were incorporated into the plot and how Irish folklore specifically played a role in the overall magic being explored throughout the story. I was expecting some things to happen that never did (without getting into any spoilers), but that didn’t ruin my enjoyment of the book by any means. I also wish the story explored a bit more of the romance between Hanan and Pax once they actually get together, but even before that, I found their interactions to be very wholesome and heartwarming. I guess my one real critique is that the main conflict between the two MCs kind of involves a version of the miscommunication trope, which I generally don’t like very much stories. The circumstances leading up to it and the moment everything really unravels does make sense in the context of plot as a whole, but afterward I think the fallout gets dragged out a bit too much. It’s not really a big deal. Again, I still really enjoyed this book. But it made the pacing in the last like 30% of it drag for a bit. The ending was sweet, though. I think this is a good story if you want to get in your feelings a bit and just, like, experience them. Good and bad, just like the characters do. Overall, and the thing that I think really made me like this book so much, was how much it made me feel. 10/10 recommend if you’re prepared to cry or at least tear up at some points. (Also, check content warnings at the front of the book before you read.)

The wording of "A Fix of Light," when reduced to its four-word title, carries the suggestion of serenity. Yet it’s precisely the tale’s complete subversion of this softness that haunts: a depiction of darkness, both physical and cerebral, that's as clawing and restless as any beast we wrestle with to stay among the living.

Though marketed for a younger audience, the story resonates most where battles with self-doubt and isolation emerge—struggles we later recognise as universal, even if adulthood dulls their sharpest edges. In truth, "A Fix of Light" is a tale of wide, though demanding, appeal.

Its challenge lies in confronting the absurdities of suffering, inflicted on both body and psyche. This is a dark narrative, as heavy and urgent as any plea for empathy echoing across headlines. Shadows seep between the lines and gnaw at their margins, starved for quiet devastation, much like the terrors swarming the protagonist’s mind and the love interest’s childhood memories.

Here, horror and romance merge into something new: a fantasy woven with ominous, biting Gaelic folklore, where transition and transformation touch every shape—real or once thought unimaginable.

Nothing in "A Fix of Light" is diluted for palatability: not the language, which shivers with poetic intensity, nor the lives it holds, harrowed by torments many face even without the grief of nightmares made flesh.
This is a story for the modern teenager, sceptical of moral lessons from those blind to the turmoil within, and for any adult willing to let the world, in all its shrouded darkness, in.

It’s a tale for those capable of seeing, not merely looking—a tale as heart-rending as any we flinch from when it demands pure, unadulterated compassion. And yet, its light offers honeyed relief, and its beauty a stillness we can breathe deeply.

The narrative provides no easy answers or false comforts but invites us to sit with the complexities of the human spirit: the contradictions, the suffering, the quiet triumphs. Its beauty is not in spite of its pain, but because of it, for within the most brutal moments lies the potential for profound understanding.

This is not merely a story to read; it's one to experience—an exploration of the tensions between shadow and illumination, where even in the deepest, most labyrinthine despair, a flicker of becoming awaits.

In this way, "A Fix of Light" asks us not only to witness but to feel, to see beyond the surface, and to embrace the weight and wonder of the world as it truly is.