Believarexic, by J.J. Johnson, is a young adult novel that can almost be called a memoir. Some parts of the story are exaggerated or bended to make a better story, but the main gist of it is all true life. As someone who has struggled with an eating disorder and also had to ask their family for help, this story resonated SO much for me. I saw so much of myself in Jennifer. and vice versa. Her story of self discovery and reclaiming her life is extraordinary. She details that it wasn't easy - because it's not - but it's possible. But she also doesn't leave you hanging on the patients around her, she lets you know what happens to them to the best of her ability. Jennifer gives you hope through her hope. She also is careful to not include triggering weight numbers which is important in eating disorder books because it can just create competition in those still struggling. A 4.5 star novel to me!

This is a very well done story about eating disorders. But it's also about friendships and the struggle with growing up but grown ups not trusting you. It's about all our stumbles and falls but the ability to pick yourself up again.

The note at the end from the author about how close to real this is to their own story was touching and eye-opening. I really appreciated this one.

Very cool idea for a book, and an excellent execution of that idea. A thoroughly enjoyable read. Recommended. .

Can’t deal with the “monster” inside. Not skinny enough. Not good enough. More weight to lose. Sick of being sick. Bulimarexia. Despite her parents’ skepticism, 15-year-old Jennifer begs to be admitted to a hospital eating disorders unit and undergoes treatment for 10 weeks. Johnson’s novel takes readers on a powerful, semiautobiographical guided tour through the trials of treatment: the pain and tears, the embarrassing searches and accusations by hospital personnel, the unwanted food that must be eaten, the self-realizations, the support craved, and the victories achieved. Initially told in rambling free verse, the narrative mirrors Jennifer’s recovery process, becoming increasingly more complex and reflective as it transitions into a mix of journal entries, hospital forms, and workbook exercises. Therapy sessions reveal how existing family dynamics fuel Jennifer’s problem, how food and good health work together, and, ultimately, how she must take charge of herself. Compelling and authentic, this story is impossible to put down. Readers who have experienced eating disorders, personally or through others, will be particularly drawn to the book’s deep insights into the disease and its honest portrayal of the strength needed to recover. As companion material, the author’s own journal written during treatment can be found on the book’s website. Perfect for fans of Laurie Halse Anderson’s Wintergirls (2009), this is a raw, memorable reading experience. (Appeared in Booklist)

This book differs from the books about eating disorders in Jennifer's desire to get well. Usually we see the protagonist forced into treatment, fighting the nurses, being forced to eat. This book is less dramatic but probably more realistic. Not a book for everyone but informative.

Realistic portrayal of Anorexia through a thoughtful and inspiring story.