I tried, I really did. I've had this ARC sitting on my kindle for far too long and honestly I was rather looking forward to it. Literally anything dystopian featuring an apocalypse is my kind of jam but this one really threw me. First it was the very uncomfortable sexual tension and closeness of the supposed brother sister duo. I say suppose (and I'm guessing here) because had I continued on I imagine I would learn the two are actually not related thus making their feelings OK. But no, it's not ok. The two believe to be related and not only that, they are not even in a situation where I could almost understand of justify why they would develop these types of feelings such as being alone with only one another. This was no Flowers in the Attic type situation. The brother even often goes to whore houses to work off his feelings for his sister. If that wasn't bad enough, at around 30% when the hero is under his 'darkness' which I really just took as him sort of hulking out, he rapes his sister. And that was it for me folks. I tried reading a bit more but I really just can't justify this and no matter what changes after the fact, I'm too thrown off and disturbed by this that I can't go on.