I hated myself by the time I was six…because I was fat. I became bulimic at age fourteen. I had always used food to control my intense emotions, but as time passed, it became something else, something no one understood- not even myself. Meanwhile, what little structure there had been in my family was falling apart, and I ran away in an attempt to conserve my sanity. After years of living in tents, caves, and my car, I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital only to be forcefully discharged due to the medical community’s lack of understanding of eating disorders. Heartbroken, I was released raw and unprepared back into the world, once again alone.
Adrift and armed with lies, I joined the Air Force in 2005 at age nineteen.
My story is not how I overcame all of this, exactly; it's how I survived it. It's a social commentary on youth who fall through the cracks, on non standard friendship, on women in the military, and how anyone- if they can just find the strength to keep breathing- can open a new, brighter chapter in their lives.
This is the story how my non-life became a Life.
KIRKUS REVIEW - "In this debut memoir, Presa reflects on a life that included bulimia, homelessness, military service, motherhood, and complicated love."
"I could not put this book down! It resonated way too much. I struggled with an eating disorder for 28 years, and understand what it's like to feel guilty over 20 calories. This book brought many tears, but thankfully, has a happy ending." --Debra McLain, Author of To Conquer or Die Trying
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Thank you. Enjoyed it. Will purchase copies for family and friends.
I've so many things to say about this book. First of all, I'd like to thank the author on her bravery at writing this memoir. It really made me have of an open-mind on eating disorders and what is happening around the world. 5 Stars and I will most definitely recommend this stunning book to my friends :)