Thoughtful, compassionate, and relevant, Carrying War is an eloquent plea for peace and a testament to human resilience and the healing power of art.
— Susan Olding, author of Pathologies

Carrying War is a profoundly moving tribute to love, conflict, parenthood, childhood, and family.… Bellehumeur-Allatt accomplishes something approaching the miraculous.
— Brent van Staalduinen, author of Unthinkable

Terrorism first intersected Tanya Bellehumeur-Allatt’s life in 1982 when she was twelve years old and accompanied her father on his United Nations peacekeeping mission to the Middle East. Its shadow loomed when her family moved from Israel to Beirut at the height of the Lebanese Civil War. Forty years later, the aftershock, the trauma, and the terror remain imprinted. This memoir in thirty-two essays moves the reader from the Middle East to Europe, from Quebec’s Eastern Townships to the Northwest Territories. Each narrative essay is a personal exploration of terror — psychic, criminal, spiritual, political. The journey is challenging, yet it carries both redemption and hope.