I don’t usually read anything but fiction but I felt called to read this one and I am glad I did. It had me asking myself so many questions and it was truly eye opening in some aspects of how I perceive things. It was a really good read.

This non fiction novel talks about the authors life and how her faith has grown with her as she has grown as a person. I think the book was short and sweet. I follow Kendall on social media and enjoyed learning more about her

I’ve followed Kendall on Instagram for a while, and we share the experience of adoption (including transracial adoption), so parts of this book felt deeply personal. What resonated most with me was what Kendall calls “soul friction”—that tension that shows up when you know something isn’t right but you don’t know what to do about it. I have had seasons of wrestling with God, seasons of doubts and seasons of disappointment, and I felt seen in Kendall’s words.

Her reflections on adoption and her health journey were especially moving. While our stories look different, the emotions—grief, surrender, and learning to trust God in the tension—felt incredibly familiar. This book doesn’t encourage walking away from faith; it invites you to sit honestly with God, ask thoughtful questions, and allow that tension to deepen—not diminish—your relationship with Him. She challenges the negative connotation around “deconstruction,” explaining that for many people, it’s simply looking at your faith and asking “What do I believe and why? Is it because it was passed down to me or is this faith and belief truly my own?” In that sense, I HAVE asked those questions—and came out on the other side with a stronger relationship with Jesus.

“These questions aren’t about breaking faith apart just for the sake of questioning—it’s about rebuilding it on something real, true, and personal. Because when we do the work of figuring out what we actually believe— beyond expectations, beyond religious culture, beyond inherited faith—we find something deeper. We find Jesus himself.” - Kendall Mariah